I Love You Dr. Chicanery

The reason Ali left me

POV Raya

Me and my entourage stopped in the corridor as we passed the medical troupe of dr. Ali's.

Ali stopped her steps as well when she saw me. For a moment we looked before he finally decided to leave without reprimanding me. He must hate me so much now.

I breathe patiently. There's nothing I can do now. I invited my entourage again to go resume our work for the round.

Just a few meters away we stepped up, Ali came back to chase and intercepted me.

"We need to talk, Ray!"said.

"Alright, say it here" I replied. I glanced at Mahfud who seemed unhappy with the presence of dr. Ali's. Does she know that Ali is my ex-boyfriend?

"Can't be here. Come on!" Ali took my hand and took me away from there. I saw Mahfudz's worried face and did nothing.

I took my hand off Ali and stopped following me.

"Here I am" I said. "Nobody will hear what we want to talk about here" I said.

I looked at dr. Ali and I were waiting not far from us. Far enough to hear our conversation. I don't want people to misunderstand us or Mahfudz.

"Raya, I'm sorry to you for what happened at home that day. I embarrassed you there. I'm sorry, huh?"

Ali held both my wrists.

I'm speechless.

"Yes? You're sorry about me, aren't you Ray?Yea?" Ali looked at me expectantly.

I stared at Mahfuz from where I was standing. He didn't seem to blink a bit watching me.

"Ray...?"

I returned my eyes to Ali.

"What are you sorry for, Li? I should be the one to apologize to you. What you said when I came to your house was all true. I'm the cause of Tya's death. I also can't keep Tya's will. For that I don't even deserve your forgiveness. You behaving like this makes me feel even worse. Don't apologize to me"

"Ray, I was wrong to have spoken rudely to you. I shouldn't have talked to you and insulted you like that. Now I just want to get up from all this. I want to marry you, Ray...."

Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight I heard those words.

"I know I should have said this in a way that's more worthy of you. But I have to what Ray is, you wouldn't probably want me to go somewhere decent to say all this?"

"A decent place?" I repeated Ali's words. "You're aware?Your wife left you just now, and you've proposed to another woman for you to marry. Oh, my God, are you sane, Li?"

"I'm sane enough to say all this. Tya wants this too. He wants you back to me as his replacement when he dies. Then where's my fault if I try to keep my wife's last will?"

Ali is completely insane.

"Where's your fault?" I laughed sweetly. "Would I show you where your fault is? Do I need to show you where your mistake is? Can't you find out for yourself where your mistakes are? Ok. I'm telling you your fault. Your fault is that you are too selfish, even Tya is also until she remains selfish. Have you ever thought, why should I want to come back to you, Li? You made Tya's death an excuse to make me come back to you. Ok, for example, I am willing, until when should I feel intimidated by a guilt-ridden marriage? You want me to feel guilty and responsible for marrying you. Does that make any sense? Are there no more reasonable and acceptable reasons?"

"There was. I have a reasonable reason. Because I still love you. I don't want to lose you again, Raya!" Said Ali.

I feel like I really have to laugh out loud, if I don't remember this hospital.

I smiled pias. "You never lost me, Ali. But you dumped me, sober up. You left me for Tya. When I really hope to marry you on the day you promised 5 years ago. You promised Ummik you'd take your parents to propose to me. But you didn't bring them, but you just sent a wedding invitation in the mail to Ummik. The invitation in it is not the name of his son. You know how sad Ummik is? I'm the one with the heartbreak, Li. But Ummik cried for days. Why did you do that to me and Ummik? Why don't you respect Ummik who already considers you his own son by coming home, apologizing directly for not being able to keep your promise to marry his son? Why did you send that invitation? Why don't you ask me to give understanding to Ummik? Oh, yes I forgot. You didn't take good care of me when you left me. You made me look like a fool. When everyone in this hospital knew we were dating, I who didn't know anything got word that my boyfriend had married the granddaughter of the hospital owner. What was my and Ummik's fault with you until you could do that and now you come again asking that I marry you on the grounds that I am the cause of Tya's death. You want to propose to Ummik for that reason? Wow, you're amazing, Li"I said to pour out all the heart I've long since healed.

"I'm wrong Ray, I promise to make amends and my sin is on you and Ummik. I promise to make you and Ummik happy after this. But please, don't throw me back. If you want to be angry, just be angry. I'll wait until your anger subsides." Ali begged.

"May I know why you left me for Tya? If I don't remember wrongly, when I say you said Professor also had a hand when separating me and you. Does that mean that Professor told you to leave me for Tya? What's the professor doing that for?"my many.

Ali did not answer. Seen on his face he was hesitant and hesitant to answer her.

"If you don't want to answer, that's okay. I have no right to ask more if you don't want to answer"

I'll turn my body around to leave when Ali's holding me.

"Then you want to? Marry a pregnant person instead of your child for nothing?"tanyaku.

Ali breathed a heavy sigh. He seemed reluctant to tell it. But because he felt already telling it half-and-a-half then he continued his story in the form of self-confession.

"The professor is willing to guarantee all the education I've taken to obtain specialist and subspecialist degrees if I marry Tya"

Ali's confession shocked me. Shocked because I didn't think the professor could do such a thing.

"You know I'd really like to take an internal medicine specialist education, right? You know my family's condition too. Our family is a family. Many sister. I wouldn't have been the specialist I am today if it wasn't for the professor's help. Where's my money Ray? I also want to grow and move forward. Even though I can't deny I hurt you. I hurt you. But just so you know in my heart the deepest even though I've married Tya. I still love you so much Ray" Ali admitted to everything.

I took a deep breath and threw it away.

"Thank you for being honest, Li. I can finally be relieved to know all the questions in my heart about why you did all that. But.... I can't respect your reasons. I don't care about the life choices you make. That is leaving your girlfriend for a better and more secure life. But I never thought how is it possible when you've married Tya you still dare to love others in your heart? How unsanitary your heart is. How loving Tya is. All this time I thought he was mean and selfish for always being jealous of me. Come to think of it, isn't that evil you? You accept what you can, but you still love others. Didn't he also give you a princess?"

"Ray, I can control my heart. I've tried to forget you but I still love you in my heart. I suffered too but I can't tell anyone what I think. We both suffered because of the steps I made. But now God has brought us together again in a condition where I have no more partners. It's God Ray's destiny" Ali tried to convince me.

"This is one of the mistakes you made, Li. You always feel like everything that happens in this world is about you, your life, your time. When someone offers you a golden opportunity to be a specialist you consider it the right timing for you to change your life. And now that your wife is dead, you feel like it's the right time to come back to me. Do you still have Ali's conscience? It's not just about your life, it's about the life I have. I can't marry you for all the reasons I have. Please understand. Enough to get here. I don't want anyone to get hurt because of this" I said in frustration.

"Is it because of the boy? Mahfudz koas' boy?" ask dr. Ali suddenly.

I took another breath. This whole hospital must have known about my relationship with Mahfudz. Ali must have known even though he had just returned to work after his wife died. There were many eyes, mouths and ears that could give this information to him.

"You've gone crazy until you have to give up hope of dating him. Tuna talks, still koas. What can you expect from him, Ray? Is this just a gimmic to make me feel guilty for you?"

I looked at Mahfudz who was also looking at me from the medical entourage waiting for us. In his heart he must be curious and have some thoughts about what I am talking about with Ali right now.

"I'm not dating her, Li" I said. "Ummik...."

Ali looks relieved.

".... but Ummik wants me to marry him immediately. And I thought about it carefully and decided I was going to marry him. To be honest, I had doubts about him before but our conversation this time, made me even more convinced, that this is the best"

Ali looked at me amusedly. "You're not thinking straight. Think again. Mahfudz is special needs, you will be bothered by many things because of it in the future. And retreating would be very difficult if you were already married to her."

"Thank you for the advice. But you don't know him. You have no right to say that to her. If I just want to make you jealous I'll find someone more than you, Li. An established person and more everything from you so you don't have to do things like this chasing me. But I love Mahfudz with all its advantages and disadvantages. I accept him with such a condition. Have you ever loved someone like that? I pity you. I'm sure you'll never feel that kind of love. Because Mr. It's perfectionists like you who always live with a gimmick. Which always set everything, set in such a way as to look perfect. And now you want to marry dr. Sp.OG Kingdom to complete your life to look suitable side by side with dr. Ali Sp.PD's? Wow looks cool and fits right? But sorry, Li. I'm not that perfect person. Knowing this, I will accept Mahfudz in my life. We both have advantages and disadvantages and we will complement each other. And more importantly, he's not like you. He dared to accept me. Although by accepting me he will look smaller in the eyes of others. Things you will never be able to emulate from him. If you have always been able to accept your situation as it is without being tempted by the professor's offer. Maybe we'll get through it all together. And maybe we are currently happy in a marriage bond with a simple but happy life. We're not going to be in a difficult conversation like this. Didn't we?"

"Rich...." Ali started to get depressed with my long answer.

"Take it off, Li. Don't try again. We've been over a long time. Don't re-connect the severed red thread"

I'm tired of this conversation. With a shunt step I returned to my entourage. Mahfudz asked with an expression on his face. Look, there's jealousy in his eyes, too. Take it easy, dedek koasku. I chose you.

\*\*\*\*\*

The last Saturday finally came. I applied for a day off to the hospital because there was a need. And Mahfudz said there was no scheduled hospital duty today.

From the morning Ummik and I have prepared many food menus that we might be able to enjoy during lunch together later. This is not an official proposal, but only a relationship between the Mahfudz family with me and Ummik only. But talk of marriage between me and Mahfudz will not be inevitable from this meeting. I just let go this time. I have been praying istikharah for several nights, and my heart still feels Mahfudz is the one God sent in answer to my prayers all along.

"You take a shower there, Ray. They came at 10 loh, less 5 minutes left at 10. Do you really want your future in-laws to see you carelessly like that? Let Ummik continue" Ummik's nag.

"Yes. Ummik.."sohutku.

I immediately went into my room, took a shower and chose clothes that I was worthy to wear. Clothes that do not look excessive but still polite and neat to wear in meetings in the house. I chose a shirt with colored t-shirt material a combination of white and milk chocolate. I also wear a hijab in matching colors.

I just finished wearing my hijab when I heard the sound of a car clone from outside the house. Looks like it's them. Hurry up too, I thought. Whereas Mahfudz WA was the position where they last time I thought it was still about 10 minutes away. That's if they have no trouble finding my home address.

I went outside to greet them. Ummik is still in the kitchen. I looked at the car that went into the side yard because the fence was deliberately opened from earlier.

I was shocked to see the car coming in, not Mahfudz's.

"Professor??"

Professor Ayyub shut the car door. He led the little boy I soon found out was Rayhan, dr. Ali's.

Ouch, what is this? Why the professor even visited at a time not exactly like this, I complained.