Because of the compulsion

They Are Equally Tortured

"Mom told you, that's why you eat!" Lina nagged Viona who was still nauseous in the bathroom.

Every day is always like that. Viona is nauseous and has stomach pains from not wanting to eat. Sleep is not with a good pattern and his mind is also not calm. If Viona continued like that, Lina felt anxious, afraid that her son would get a severe illness.

Viona always looks good in front of others. He also looks ruthless by filing for divorce for Marshal. Who would have thought, though, if he was also injured and did not want that to happen. Viona was only torturing herself like this.

"Dizziness, Ma," he lamented again, holding his head.

Lina helped him to lie on the bed and covered his body to the stomach. "After this, if you tell me to eat, yes, eat! Don't torture yourself!"

Viona just muttered, closing her eyes and hoping the pain all over her body could be reduced.

When Lina brought her some food, she wanted to refuse but Lina forced her. Viona ate forcefully, even if only a little, Lina was very happy to see her.

"Mama call the doctor, yeah."

"No, Ma. It'll be better, too."

Lina sighed harshly, always so. Viona is stubborn. His body looks very weak and needs treatment.

"I'm going to sleep, Ma."

Lina complied and rubbed the head of Viona who turned her back to him. Viona tries to be seen sleeping, though she cannot close her eyes without calmness.

Lina was worried to see it. Viona did not want to admit her unwillingness to part with Marshal, because the disappointment of being lied to was so domineering. But, the desire to return was clearly visible in his eyes. And that hope exists.

***

"Ma, when did Mama wake up? I need Mama's help. Viona wants a divorce, but I can't. Loved her. Mom loves him too, right? Come on, get up, Ma! Help me persuade Viona!" The marshal clasped Rahma's hand tightly, always like that every day. Deprecate all his complaints and exasperation on the body that can not even respond with anything. "Wake up, Ma ...."

A single tear once again fell on Rahma's hand. No one would have expected Marshal to be that weak right now. Even the job was neglected, she was lazy to take care of it, too busy thinking about Viona.

He wants to see Viona this time. But, Rio said the madam did not want to be found. Viona kept her word to not want to see Marshal again, other than during the divorce hearing later. It was forced, he said.

Viona doesn't like being lied to. Marshal always felt devastated remembering that sentence. He lied to his wife. During their marriage.

"Ma .. said something! Tell me what I have to do to persuade Viona! She's Mama's favorite daughter-in-law. Mama doesn't want to lose it, does she? Help me to make it melt!"

Marshal's like a fool. Every day set aside time to look at her mother's state and speak, taking out everything inside her head. All of that would be useless. Rahma is in a coma, which might help her. Just futile. But, at least Marshal can still make complaints so as not to go crazy quickly. Although it would still be crazy, if he continued as he is now.

***

A beautiful morning for a beautiful feeling. It's for others, not for him. Viona stood in front of the toilet, having taken out all the food from inside her stomach.

Fucking stomach acid! It always makes him tired just from going back and forth to the bathroom. These days he's always been like that. It seems like it is due to too much thought and rarely eating. His head was also dizzy.

Looking at the date and the month on the screen of the phone, Viona is the youngest. It's been three weeks since he and the Marshal separated. How is her father-in-law doing now? Heard from Heru, he said Rahma was still unconscious, while Vishnu had recovered, even though he was still in the care of nurses and doctors. His father-in-law was back to take care of the work he could do at home, just a little because he could not move much and was easily tired from his injuries.

Viona was eager to see their situation. He longs for the very friendly face of Vishnu and is authoritative and longs for Rahma who always asks him a lot.

May they heal quickly. Viona wants to visit, but is afraid to meet the Marshal. He hated that man. If you look at the picture alone Viona will be nauseous and end up limp in the bathroom, due to too much vomiting unnecessary.

Nausea is back. Viona ran to the bathroom again and spewed out liquid from inside her stomach. His head came back dizzy, if he remembered the Marshal. The man always torments his mind as well as his body. Viona was already tired of the illness caused by this thought. If Lina found out this morning she had vomited five times, then the mother of two would definitely nag her long and choke her with stomach medicine and plenty of food.

The nausea was still there, even though in his stomach there was nothing more to remove. Maybe he should lie down again. At least it can reduce the pain in his head.

While lying down, Viona's mind wandered far away from nowhere. Suddenly he remembered the return date and stunned himself.

Nope-no. The monthly schedule has indeed been missed one week, but that does not mean like his thinking. Maybe because he is stressed, so the hormones in the body are unstable.

But, he was agitated by it. Even up to two days of not being able to sleep anymore only added to his mind. Finally Viona decided to go to the pharmacy to buy a pregnancy test without her mother's knowledge.

When she returned home, her mother had not yet returned from school. Viona breathed a sigh of relief, at least Lina was not home. Before leaving, he told the workers at his home to tell his parents, if Viona did go to the pharmacy to buy stomach ulcers to relieve nausea. Didn't say I wanted to buy a pregnancy test.

With a raging feeling, Viona opened the small package. She doubts if she's pregnant. Not likely. Because he never forgot to take a pill while still with the Marshal. And even in the previous month, Viona still had a month to come, before they went on their honeymoon.

Should he try it? There was an urge within him to try that thing and confirm his unease. But, she was very sure it was impossible to get pregnant. And it should be like that. They will part, if God wills otherwise, then ... Viona was very sure, if she wasn't pregnant.

Monthly guests are only one week late, it could be due to his lifestyle that is not good lately. Since the days of girls, Viona often even up to three months did not get menstruation.

It's obvious, it's impossible. Viona reassured herself again.

"Dad!"

In a hurry, Viona slipped the tespack under the pillow, when she heard a knock and Lina who immediately entered her room.

"Mama's home." Viona looked floundering, shifting her unsettled body. Don't let Lina know, if she just bought the thing.

"Said Ma'am, you just got home from the pharmacy. Buy what?"

Viona was already tense, afraid of being discovered. But, he tried to give a smile that even looked a little strange. Then, he showed a bag of white crackles containing ulcer medicine, anti-nausea and a cure for dizziness.

"You're not getting a doctor's prescription, honey. Why buy this?" Lina looked at the drugs one by one from inside the bag.

Viona grew tense, yet still smiled with her pale face. "That's what I'm afraid of, Ma. So, I bought that."

Lina simply gave a smile, rubbing Viona's hand. "Yes, already, take the medicine. Later if there are side effects or still like that, we go to the doctor, huh?"

"Yes, Ma." Viona nodded, breathing a sigh of relief as Lina no longer asked much.