Because of the compulsion

Because of the compulsion
Manda, stop saying it!



Marshal stepped with a riled mind that could not be controlled properly. Doubtful, unsure and not have the heart of course he feels at this time until he is not aware if his step has arrived in front of the unit belonging to the intended person.


He hesitated to enter. I don't know what to do when dealing with Amanda later. Marshal couldn't bear to see Amanda's reaction when she said to end it after a long time they hadn't met.


But, after all, Marshal should be able to do it. There's Viona that she must prioritize to be her life companion. It is time for Marshal to stand up for better things, if not want something unwanted to come to his household.


Unknowingly, he stood for a long time in front of the unit's door. Suddenly his body was shocked. Someone hugged him so tightly. Marshal's consciousness returned, he saw Amanda already greeted his body so enthusiastically.


"Where have you been? Long time no see, I miss."


The marshal is silent with a stiff body to move. Not knowing what he should do, Marshal only looked at Amanda with a cold gaze.


Amanda continued to say longing sentences with full spoiled as her trademark. The marshal remained silent about whatever Amanda was doing. His heart fought a great battle to be able to dare to say what he had planned and he told his wife.


The Marshal's silence didn't last long because Amanda kissed his jaw so aggressively. Marshal consciousness is back. He looked at Amanda and gave her a smile.


"We're talking inside!"


It was with pleasure that Amanda pulled the Marshal's hand into her apartment. He looked very happy to see his girlfriend coming. Marshal hasn't visited her apartment since she got married. Embrace the Marshal's arm spoiled, Amanda invites him to sit on the sofa.


"You must miss me a lot, right? It feels like a long time we haven't met."


Marshal pushes Amanda softly when her lover wants to give her another kiss. Amanda's face looks disappointed. Marshal should be able to look indifferent to him, even though he can't bear to see it that way. For Viona's sake, she would still strengthen herself, even if it was very difficult for her to do.


"There's something I want to talk about, Manda," said Marshal, trying as calmly as possible. His heart could not be said to be okay. His feelings were raging with uneasiness.


Amanda still looks spoiled. A smile continued to be on his lips. He looked at Marshal with a loving gaze and unceasingly said his sweet words. However, Marshal did not pay much heed to it. Because he did not want to be swept away in Amanda's attitude as if to continue to attract her to love the woman.


"You know, I almost died because I couldn't see you. I can't even sleep, Honey. I-"


"Yes, Manda, I know. But, right now that's not what I want to discuss with you," Marshal cut in a soft tone. He is very afraid that his words hurt Amanda, although later, Marshal is convinced that Amanda will not accept what is her decision.


Amanda decided to take her seat closer to the Marshal. His hands did not escape to embrace the arms of his burly lover and he longed for so much.


"I want to ask you," Marshal glanced at Amanda. His mind became increasingly uncontrollable. "what did you do to my wife three days ago?" marshal asked carefully, afraid to offend Amanda.


No matter what the Marshal did in every speech, Amanda still did not accept and now looks inflamed. She dislikes Marshal discussing Viona the most and now, her lover has called Viona his wife, in the presence of Amanda who hates her so much.


"Why are you asking like that? What's wrong with that woman?" said Amanda, turning her face to the side. His heart was hot if the Marshal took the woman in their chat.


"I'm just asking, Manda. What were you doing with my wife three days ago?"


Inwardly, Amanda cursed her lover's wife. Viona must have complained to the Marshal until the man now asked her this. Amanda's hatred for the woman is growing. In addition to making Marshal stay away from her, Viona has also dared to complain to him. Amanda didn't expect Viona to turn out like this. At first she thought Viona was a good woman who would never mess with her.


When Amanda finds out that Viona has never had a problem with her relationship with the Marshal, she begins to think that Viona will be harmless to her. He seemed silent and indifferent to their relationship. However, Amanda remained vigilant for fear that at any time Viona could behave beyond her expectations. And it turned out to be true. The longer, the relationship Amanda and Marshal even more stretched because of his presence.


Marshal sighed in seeing Amanda's change in attitude. His lover always looks spoiled in front of him, but now even began to be emotional. Marshal was disappointed to learn that it meant that his wife's words were true. Viona tells Amanda that she doesn't like him and starts to show resistance as her enemy.


"My wife was injured on her face. You know that, right?"


Amanda's eyes glared sharply. "You're accusing me of hurting him? Oh, Honey, Please! What the hell are you saying? You're accusing me?"


Marshal shook his head slowly. It still looked calm, even though he could not bear to immediately resolve all of this. But, it's not so easy to deal with. Dealing with Amanda does require extra patience. Amanda is not Viona who can directly affect problems and solutions. He is different and Marshal understands how Amanda behaves towards him which is very difficult for him to emphasize.


"I'm not accusing you, Manda. I'm just asking."


"You're accusing me, aren't you? If you don't accuse me, why do you ask? I never even saw him again. I can't possibly hurt him, Marshal."


Once again, Marshal sighed deeply. Amanda did not want to admit it, she could only remain patient so as not to get lost in emotions.


"Surely he made you accuse me, right? What does he talk to you? Did he vilify me in front of you? She turns out to be a hypocritical woman. It looks fine, but he's very cunning."


"Manda, stop saying it!" snapped Marshal hard until Amanda gasped, opening her eyes in shock. "Don't you ever call him that! Viona is not the woman you say she is. I'm just asking nicely with you. You just answer honestly, is it hard? I didn't expect you to call my wife that. I want to know what really happened. That's all."


Amanda's views are starting to get softened no more. In addition to being surprised because Marshal snapped at him, he was also upset and hurt because Marshal instead defended his wife. Marshal has really changed because of that woman.


"I don't like it when you're like this, Manda. I've always spoiled you, doesn't mean you're free to be that uncontrollable to others." Marshal looked at his lover sharply. He could not bear to actually see Amanda who had seen the emotions due to her words. "You hurt my wife in the restaurant parking lot three days ago. You know, he was pretty badly hurt by your hand. I was silent, but I was very angry. When you know you did it, it doesn't mean I'm not emotional. I still can't accept knowing that my wife hurt someone else. I want to meet you and give you punishment. But, my wife held back and said she was okay."


Both of Amanda's palms clenched firmly on her lap. With her eyes starting to blur, Amanda was seen withholding emotions. Seen from his braid that began to tighten.


"You're wrong, Manda. I just want to remind you not to do bad things to others. What you did was too much. What mistake did my wife make until you hurt her? He never even said to you. Talking about you never. But, what did you do to her?"


"But he took you from me!" Amanda's tears are dripping. Her red face endured the heartache and heightened emotions. "You dumped me because of him. You're even now acting indifferent towards me, Marshal. Should I just shut up? I just found you hard. You'd rather be with her, should I keep quiet? Or do I have to excuse her because she's your wife?"


Marshal scooped his face violently. His breath sounded like a burst. His heart raged back to see Amanda covering her face with both hands. Rumbling began to be heard from behind the palm that did not open. What if Amanda found out, that it wasn't because of Viona, it was because the Marshal himself did it. Marshal deliberately avoided it.


"I'm trying to be patient when I know you're married, Marshal. I'm patient, when you say your family betrothed you. I accept, even if I have to."


Amanda's cries are getting louder. Marshal shook his head which felt heavy. He could at least hold on to being firm, if Amanda had already shed tears.