Because of the compulsion

Let go

"Yes, I'll tell you later so that your bonus this month is added again, okay."

The workers at the Marshal's house cheered excitedly and thanked Viona. The employer is indeed very good to want to add their monthly bonus.

"What does the lady want to drink?" Erni comes closer to bring Viona some flower pots according to her employer's request.

"Prepare lots of food and drinks!. We will all be devoted to cleaning the home page of the Marshal, ", said Viona with a crisp laugh.

Some of the home workers who helped look happy. Intentionally Viona melted the atmosphere to make them comfortable when close to her. Viona was bored if she just kept quiet. Be he invites the workers to slightly fix the backyard to look more organized.

In the midst of her preoccupation with holding flowers in large pots, Viona was in a crouching position. Suddenly a hand rubbed his head. Viona turned around in shock. There could be no worker who dared to do that to her. His eyes instantly rounded with a twinkle happy to see Marshal standing behind him.

"What are you doing?"

Viona stood up quickly. She showed her dirty hands in front of her husband. "When are you coming home? Why not tell?"

"I was intentionally surprised." Marshal kissed his wife's sweaty forehead.

Viona avoided being kissed a second time. "I'm dirty."

"Stay pretty." Marshal rubbed his wife's face gently. He watched his workers who were busy fixing the backyard. They all took the time to bow respectfully at the sight of his presence. Marshal smiled, nodded to them and told them to go back to continue his work.

"Is the problem over?" Viona walked towards the tap. He washed his hands clean.

"The problem is not finished. I came home early on purpose because I didn't want to make my wife miss me any longer." Marshal followed wherever his wife went.

After drying her hands by splashing them, Viona reached out to the Marshal's hand and kissed the back of his hand politely. "So you said it wasn't finished? Then why are you coming home?"

Marshal embraces his wife's shoulder to get inside the house. "I've found the subject. And have submitted the matter to be handled by the authorities. Just waiting for the call for the next investigation."

Viona tells Marshal to sit in the dining room and she makes a fresh drink for her husband. The marshal drank it a little and put it back on the table. Viona sat next to him listening to Marshal tell him a lot about the problem. Viona was actually not very familiar with the matter that her husband was dealing with. But, he still listened and chimed in to make Marshal more comfortable. So that her husband is also not too stressed to think about the problem.

"Eat already?" viona asked the Marshal who took off her blazer suit. Marshal looks very tired at the moment.

Viona moved after seeing her husband shake. She wanted to bring Marshal some food, but her husband instead held her hand and asked Viona to sit back down.

"I'm home, he said he wanted to talk. What are you gonna talk about?"

"Later. You should eat first, yes." Feeling that Marshal still needed a break, Viona did not directly talk to her husband. He wanted to get some food, but Marshal held him back and told him he wanted to take a bath.

***

"So, what do you want to talk about? What about the problem of consulting a doctor?" Marshal has finished bathing, looking much fresher than before.

"Later to speak. You haven't eaten."

"When later? Just tell me now! I can eat after you're done talking." Marshal sat down next to his wife.

Viona got up from the edge of the bed and pulled the hand of the Marshal to stand up. "Come, you have to eat first!"

Marshal followed his wife's steps. Viona serves him to get food and forces Marshal to eat right away. Though her husband was impatiently waiting for what things Viona would talk about. Because it seems like a serious thing, until Viona keeps buying time to say it.

Viona opened her mouth as the Marshal forced her to bribe her. He smiled very sweetly at the Marshal. It looks strange in her husband's eyes. Marshal was getting curious, what exactly did Viona want to talk about? His wife was involved so mysteriously when confronted with him.

***

It was late at night, but sleepiness did not strike.

"Actually, I want you to apologize to mom" Viona said quietly. His fingers combed the Marshal's hair while gently massaging it.

The Marshal's head was in his lap, looking up at Viona in confusion. "Why should I apologize?"

Viona explains what happened at Frans's mom's party. She told him everything until Rahma who cried because she felt so embarrassed was made fun of by her peers.

Marshal's face instantly changed to look completely wrong. He plays Viona's fingers in confusion. "I don't know if this matter is still being talked about by them."

"That's why I want you to apologize to Mom. Not just Mama Rahma, but my mama too. Hearing from the story of Mama Rahma, they turned out to have been two weeks since the news spread, it is rare to gather sometimes truant if there is a daily invitation to gather arisan. They're too embarrassed to be with their friends."

Marshal looked guilty at the two middle-aged women. Marshal's problem is solved and over, but the impact is still on his family.

"What do I have to do now?"

Viona looked back at her husband's face. She rubbed Marshal's forehead with her right hand, while her left hand was played by her husband. "I think you're wrong to keep an eye on him. Trouble won't stop if you're still dealing with him."

"You want me to really let go of him? Stop caring about her?"

"Em ...,"－Viona seems to think, then nod－"maybe."

The silent marshal was weighing. He kept playing his wife's hand to calm her down a little. "Do you think you'll be okay after this?"

Viona nodded while rubbing her husband's head. "Mama was hurt by Miss Amanda. And it didn't happen once, but many times. Mama hates. And knowing that, mama's friend even talked about it more. Mama was once scolded as an ignorant mother by banning her child from contact with other women, by Amanda."

Marshal was stunned to hear it. "Where do you know that?"

"Mama Rahma said that. Amanda said that in front of her friend Mama. You think, would you accept such treatment?"

Marshal. The story he just heard. Marshal knows Rahma does not like Amanda very much, but she does not know if Rahma's words about Amanda are true. During this time Marshal only considers Rahma's speech only the wind. Rahma vilifies Amanda because she doesn't like Marshal marrying her. But, it turns out ...

"Did mommy ever tell you that she knew Amanda had slept with another man?"

Viona nodded quickly. "You know that too?"

"I didn't believe my mother's words at first. But, yesterday, when Amanda was angry, she said everything, honey. What I heard made my decision unanimous to decide. Yeah, she's not a girl anymore. He said the same to me and all his behavior behind my back, he said it too."

Viona massaged her husband's shriveled forehead remembering the disappointment. Staring at the eyes of Marshal attached, Viona saw there was a sense of sadness there. "Why don't you believe what Mom said?"

"Eitherway. I used to love Amanda so much that I didn't hear what mom and dad said. Now, everything they say is reciprocal. I started thinking about Amanda after you got married. I'm starting to compare you to Amanda. Because I saw my family accept you right away from the moment you were first introduced. Different from Amanda. For three years I struggled for blessing, they even deliberately ignored what I wanted."

Viona heard him feel sorry. Marshal told him a lot that day. It's all about Amanda and how her family behaved. From there Viona understood, Marshal was so fond of Amanda that she was blind to the people around her.

"Are you sorry now?"

Marshal shook his head, rubbing the face of his wife who always looked down at him. "I never regretted what I did. At least by getting to know Amanda and knowing how she is, I came to know what a good woman to be my family's acceptable wife is like."

They laughed together after Marshal said, "Yes."

"Chal?"

"Hm?" Marshal had just changed his position to face down next to his wife. He raised his face to look at Viona.

People who are seen even seem hesitant to speak. Viona looked at the clingy Marshal, she smiled awkwardly at her husband. "Em .. If I ask and have a wish, will you respond?"

Marshal immediately changed the position to be sideways. His wife looked so serious that she became curious. "You want what, say it!"

"Ec ... If ... I ask you to forget Amanda, can you?" Viona bit her lower lip. He lowered his head as the Marshal looked at him with a gaze filled with a strange taste.

It would be surprising if Viona suddenly said such a thing. Moreover, Viona has never been willing to discuss Amanda's problems. But, looking at the look on her face, Viona was serious about saying that to her.

"Why is that?"

"I ..," Viona lowered her head in a sitting position. The fingers are interlocked on the lap. "i just .. I actually really want if we just focus on our relationship. No thinking of anyone else. I've done it with Joints, and I want to, yes .. that too if you want and can do it. But I'm not forcing. I just hope."

Marshal immediately woke up from his position. He sat opposite Viona who was still lowered. Drawing Viona's hand for her to hold, the Marshal rubbed her slowly full of tenderness. She wanted it that way too, but she still felt she had to care about Amanda.

"Look at me!"

Viona raised her face to return her husband's gaze. They looked at each other with their own speculating minds.

"I just want to .. will not force," Viona told her silent husband. "I know, it must be very difficult to do that. But, I really hope we can understand each other, even though maybe I can't love you yet, but what's wrong if I want that, right?"

Marshal still stared at his wife. Her feelings are indeed happy to know that now Viona is willing to think for the good of their relationship. But, the hard feeling is so pronounced. Not because the Marshal loves Amanda, but because he still cares for her. Amanda has no one left. But ...

Marshal smiled and kissed Viona's hand that was in her hand. "I want to do it. Anyway, now Amanda's away from us. I think I'll try."

Viona looked at Marshal in disbelief. That easy as Marshal agreed to his wish? “You sure?”

“When you decide to forget the man, do you immediately feel confident?”

Viona frowned deeply before she understood the meaning of her husband who asked back. At first, I wasn't sure. But, that belief can be realized if Viona still tries to forget it by not remembering it anymore.

“Chal!”

“Hm? Hows it? Did you get the answer?”

Viona smiled faintly. “Actually, what we feel is different, but what we experience is almost the same. We both go through marriage while our hearts are still on others. Now, we want to fix the marriage, and must learn to love from the beginning.”

Marshal chuckled softly. “Not like that. Case's different. I've loved you a long time, baby. Now, all I feel for Amanda is a caring attitude. I still feel like taking care of her because she no longer has family.”

***

"Who are you calling?"

Marshal turned body. Viona appeared behind the balcony door to meet him who had just finished contacting someone.

"I called Vennay, asked how Amanda was doing. He said he had improved and they would move to Milan and settle there. Amanda's employment contract Rio made will go into effect from next month. He'll work there for a long period of time."

Viona nodded in understanding. He sat on a chair on the balcony of their room, while the Marshal leaned his waist against the fence. "Just call Vennay? I heard you called some people."

"He'em. I also contacted my man who was watching Amanda. I stopped them from monitoring. It's over and I've completely released Amanda to live freely out there. I heard also from Vennay, he will match Amanda with a famous cosmetics businessman in Milan. I'm calm, he can start his life back there."

Viona did not believe that her husband would act quickly. The marshal's totally obeyed all his requests to stop dealing with Amanda.

"Darling?" The marshal breaks down in front of his wife after he keeps his cell phone on a table, next to the chair Viona was sitting in.

"Why?" Viona looked in wonder at the Marshal who was clasping her hands tightly.

"Your past is engaged, and Amanda I've set free to start a new life there." Marshal stared fixedly at his wife's round and clean eyes. "Can we start a real life after this?"

Viona smiled amusedly. "Where do you want to start again? We've arrived in the middle of the journey. The choice is only two, back off to start again, or continue the road until the destination point?"

"If we step back and start over, the story won't be like this."

Viona nodded and gave a smile back. "It is better to continue what we have started. At least we already know, what we have passed and can predict the possibility that will happen. The road must be getting more and more cross-legged. Weaved and I don't know what's going to happen on that road."

"Maybe we will keep passing it until the obstacle turns into a smooth path that beside the path there is a beautiful view of the fun."

Viona laughed hearing that. She rubbed her husband's jaw and pinched him with anxiety. "What are you telling a fairy tale? If we continue to take it, Rio must be tired of driving."

"Why Rio?"

"Don't if we go, he's always driving?"

Marshal shook his head and laughed. Viona even equates the road of life with the highway they often pass. "That's different, honey."

Viona chuckled amusedly at the laughing husband. It should be romantic, but they can't do it.

"O, yeah, when do we go to the doctor?"

Viona turned her shoulders. He forgot about it. Fortunately, Marshal reminded him. "What if tomorrow? You're off, right?"

Marshal nodded his head. But, he thought back. "If I'm off, the doctor's off too, right? They don't work on red dates."

"That means we're the day after tomorrow."

Marshal looked silent. He grins. "No. Just tonight. I have an acquaintance with doctor obgyn. We can go to his place later."

"Lusa aja's. At night, I'm lazy to go."

"But I want us to start tonight, honey."

Ambiguous. Viona fell silent. He did not know the purpose of "starting it" according to Marshal's speech which this time directed to where. And, instantly fear approached as the Marshal approached and whispered to him,

"I want us to start our wedding tonight."