Because of the compulsion

I Want You

It took a long time for the Marshal to be able to calm Amanda down. Now, her lover's cries had begun to subside. Marshal took a tissue on the table, rubbed it on Amanda's wet face from tears that had been running all along.

"You know, don't you, I really love you, Honey? I've been depressed with my own feelings. I didn't want you to marry her, and now you're avoiding me because of her."

Marshal only fell silent looking at Amanda who had returned to show her efficacious attitude. He would rather have spoiled Amanda than see her shed tears like that. But, it seemed like that spoiled attitude would not be seen again. Amanda's sweetness will recede, if she says what made her come there.

"Manda I'm sorry, if I yelled at you. I'm also sorry, if all this time there's been an attitude I've been wearing less to you. I'm sorry for everything." The marshal clasped Amanda's hand, rubbing her slowly. "You want to forgive me, right?"

Amanda smiled little by little. His gaze began to soften and directly embraced the Marshal possessively.

The closed eyes, the feeling of Marshal began to be said to be fine, and even more unbecoming. He should be able to say it. For Viona. For the sake of his wife, and for the survival of his household.

Slowly, Marshal's hand was raised to return Amanda's embrace. Swiping his back slowly and whispering apologies repeatedly. It felt Amanda's head nod, resting on her shoulders. Weight back felt in the chest. The snoring began to crack. Should Marshal do it?

Again he hesitated to speak. Why does everything have to happen now? It's hard to say. Remembering for the memories he had passed along with Amanda back around. What was the pleasure and what was Amanda's dislike was still Marshal remembered it all.

"You're her lover now. Take good care of my sister! Don't let me know she's crying because of you! Even if she wants a Barbie doll, you have to buy her! He's spoiled, you have to be extra patient with him."

The tightness is increasingly torturous in the chest cavity. Sentence after sentence of that joke appeared. Deep in the ear, flashing in memory. What Marshal is going to do must have hurt that woman a lot. He also reneges on his promise to Amanda's sister to take care of him. Marshal loved him. Hugely. He knew Amanda for only three years, more or less. But, Marshal's affection for him was immense. Because Amanda always took refuge in him. Ask him anything.

Inhaled a lot of air until his chest a little puffed up. Marshal threw it away slowly with his eyes still closed. He hoped to say it firmly. For Viona. To gain his wife's trust. For the sake of passing the trial that Viona had given for him.

"Manda," The man who was called did not say anything, but lowered his face around Marshal's neck and hugged him even more spoiled. "I'm sorry!" There is still no lawfulness. "You are a good woman. Thank you for being a part of my life. Three years we've been in touch, I never felt you were a burden. I never felt you were something I didn't deserve. You are a great woman. There is so much happiness you have ever loved me. Even though I couldn't reach my parents' blessing, you were still patiently waiting for him. Thank you." Thank you."

Marshal gulped hearing Amanda who was just muttering. They were still hugging, sitting in chairs full of affection. Following Amanda's back slowly, Marshal sighed deeply again.

"I'm sorry .. Our relationship can't continue."

With his eyes closed, Marshal fell silent. He's ready if Amanda's gonna crack down on his reaction. He's ready if Amanda's gonna hit him, gonna scream hysterically, even kill him. Marshal is ready. That word he said. Whatever the consequences, he will accept it with a chest of air. Amanda's crying, she's gonna try to be firm. He said it and won't pull it back. It won't. There's Viona waiting, Marshal won't be shackled by this feeling anymore.

However, he was long silent waiting for the reaction of his interlocutor. There wasn't a word Amanda said. There was no movement from him. Anxiously Marshal let go of his embrace. Guilt is over. His eyes began to tear at Amanda who just silently looked at him. His gaze was empty, his body stiffened not moving in the slightest.

"Manda ...." With a feeling of tightness, Marshal touched his face. Amanda did not budge, and kept staring at him blankly. "Manda?" Still not flinching. Amanda didn't show any reaction to him.

The feeling of Marshal grew increasingly violent. Guilt hit the chest getting tight. "I'm sorry!" He hugged the woman's body. Repeatedly muttering the word "sorry" while stroking his hair. Amanda still didn't make her voice. No life shone in his eyes.

Slowly Amanda lifted her head to look at the Marshal's face. Tears appear slowly and melt without being prevented. "You really said that?" The tone of the pain was so felt. Amanda looked at her husband Viona's bead with clingy, sharp, and deep eyes. "You really said it?"

Not knowing what to do, Marshal could only go back and look at Amanda's face. He saw it not. However, Marshal should be able to firmly face it. There was Viona waiting for him to return. There is a future that is ready to make him a good priest for his family. Marshal must be strong, must not waver again to see the tears slowly began to pour over Amanda's cheeks.

Without stuffing. Only tears flowed, no sound came out. Amanda didn't even try to wipe away those tears. He let her keep getting broken. Old wounds and new wounds came to break his mind. He felt something start to rise up inside him. A very deep feeling of pain.

"You really said that?" Amanda smiled wryly behind the tears that were increasingly wetting her face. "You said what was my greatest fear, Marshal! You're evil! Brengs*k! You guys don't know yourself! You brute! You ...."

The silent marshal receives punch after punch which becomes an outburst of anger from Amanda. She accepts whatever Amanda did for her. "Hit me, Manda! Punish me as you wish! I am evil, I am cruel. I'm sorry."

"You are evil! You brengsk! Marshal .. You heartless man!" Amanda's punch blindly with her clenched hand hit Marshal's chest. "Why did you do it? Wh why? Why do I always lose everyone I love? Why is God cruel to me? Why, Marshal? Why?"

Marshal was still silent looking at Amanda who was hysterically screaming in front of him. The blows did not stop him. Marshal had expected Amanda to be like this. That woman is too fragile. There was no protection for him. Amanda was hurt and disappointed in him at the same time.

The marshal was silent not long. She begins to worry about seeing Amanda grinning at him. The woman got closer to him making the Marshal slightly rewind her body. Amanda even closer and managed to push the body of Marshal up to half-bed on the sofa.

Marshal's eyes opened sharply. Amanda kissed her lips violently and impatiently. He's got a hard time controlling it. Marshal tried to push her slowly, Amanda even more overstimulating her body with lips that continued to ask greedily.

"I love you, Marshal. Why did you leave me?"

Marshal begins to be unable to control Amanda who is getting bolder with his actions. Not just the lips, but the jaw and neck were targeted. Marshal sizzled softly when the pain was felt on the side of his neck. He immediately pushed Amanda away. Damnit. Amanda made a red scar on her neck.

The woman really did not want to give up. He attacked the Marshal aggressively. Getting out of control. His guerrilla hands unbuttoned the Marshal's clothes impatiently. The marshal held his hand to stop, but Amanda screamed hysterically and returned with a cruel grin.

Marshal is getting more and more troubled because Amanda is now in his lap. Sitting astride with hands and head that cannot quietly explore his body.

"Manda, stop!"

The woman did not listen to him and instead went back to targeting Marshal's face with her kisses. His hands are not silent. The top three buttons of Marshal's shirt he managed to open. Roughly, Amanda's hand grabbed him and rubbed the chest of the field Marshal. The kiss went down to the neck to the chest. Marshal growls because Amanda again sucks and bites to leave a mark there.

Marshal could not take it anymore. He held Amanda's hand firmly. "Manda, stop!" the clasping made Amanda stare at him sharply. "Stop this now! I know I was bad for you. But, please, don't be like this to me!"

"Why? Why can't I have you? Why can't I be with you? You prefer him and now you leave me! I'm alone, Marshal! I want you. I don't want to lose you!"