Because of the compulsion

You want to marry a widow, right?

The awkwardness was so pronounced after the Marshal no longer bothered them. Viona was sitting on a chair, beside the bed of Joints. He smiled warmly at the Joints that were still being battered by medical equipment, his condition still had not completely recovered.

"Why are you like this, Sen?" Viona looked at the Joints of pity. The man who always shared his love with him, now can not even get up straight. His body was so weak and full of wounds.

Thin smiling joints. Staring at the ceiling of the room sadly, as his memory rotates showing the events of that time. "If I told you, all this is because of you .. would you believe it?" Glanced at Viona who seemed to round her eyes, Joints smiled again. It feels bitter. He endured the full-on pain with no one to treat him other than Viona. "I thought, all I saw was a dream," Jendi paused her speech again, leaving Viona clueless to her point. "but, after seeing her just now, my heart was getting sicker, Vi."

Viona looked at Joints not understanding. What has he done to Joints until the man feels hurt? Viona did nothing, only to be able to meet him again today.

"You've changed, Vi," The view of the Joints began to blur. The wounds from the accident were nothing much pain, compared to the scratches of feelings that had cut her heart to the deepest. "i did not expect, you will easily forget me and now have accepted your husband."

Viona shook her head firmly after understanding what Joints. "That's not true, Sen. If I'm honest, I haven't accepted this marriage at all."

Joints looked at Viona full. See the truth of what he has said. She did not believe Viona's words, as they were not in line with what she saw. "Don't give me any more hope, Vi! If you are happy with her, don't cover up! Reality will never change the pain that has already been done."

A faint gust of breath was heard from the breathing of Marshal's wife. Looking at Joints eyes deeply, Viona was ready to express everything to Joints. He might be able to make his tenpat Joints devote everything, just like it used to be. "I'm not at all happy with him, Sen. I ...," Viona lowered her face, full of long-held sadness. His eyes began to blur, playing fingers on the lap. "I still had to live it. What you saw, I did not accept. He's yang－"

"But, you just keep quiet," Joints over quickly, "he hugged you, even kissed you, Vi. You guys are dating."

Viona shook her head firmly, wiping away a drop of shedding tears on her cheek. Joints do not know how he feels when treated that way by Marshal. Viona was forced, Viona was tormented. She was unwilling, but difficult to resist, due to Marshal's status as her husband. Anger always flares up when the Marshal does his best, but Viona can't do much. He was forced because his mother's words always ringed in the ears. Marshal is indeed her husband, but Viona still cannot accept it wholeheartedly. If it only stated status, he could understand. However, for a relationship more like that .. he cannot and does not want it to happen.

"At the party of Mr. Atma," Jendi smiled bitterly, throwing away the face of Viona who was still lowered. "you even returned her embrace. Is that what you call a compulsion?"

Viona looked up, surprised to hear Joints sayings. "You seen him?"

The small nod of the male patient made Viona swallow her hard-earned saliva. He immediately guessed, is it because of that Joints got like this? Viona please, no. But, his feelings say, yes.

Immediately grasped the hand of the Joints that were still attached to the infusion hose, rubbed slowly, he looked at Joints with confidence. "I can't take it, Sen. He's still a stranger to me and I don't want to get too close to him. For that time ..he forced me to hug her. Just for the sake of other people's views and also .. he threatened me. Just a show, Sen."

"Does that mean you still love me?"

Viona just fell silent looking at the Joints face that there were many bruises left over from the accident, even her head was still bandaged. Does he have to say everything to Joints? Is it time for Viona to put everything on her mind? He hesitated, afraid that Joints would not or would not even be able to accept with what would come out of his mouth according to his thinking.

"Vi?"

"Yes" said Viona softly. He looked back down, looking at the hand that was also slapped by Joints weakly.

Viona does still love Joints, very much. He could not turn away, for it was very difficult for him to do. His feelings for Joints have long developed since the gray-white period, and to this day they remain the same, though they never bind him to official relations.

"Your husband ...?"

Closing his eyes, before he returned to his sight with Joints. Viona let go of the Joints hand that kept holding her hand. "I told you, she still feels foreign to me. We're just having a marriage, not including feelings."

Viona doesn't care about what her husband said last night, if he loves her. Maybe Marshal was just boasting and talking nonsense to persuade Viona. But unfortunately, Viona does not care at all and does not expect love from Marshal. He would not give her the same. Her heart is still imprinted on other men, Viona is not a woman who easily turns away. Commitment he always held, but unfortunately, he even broke the commitment he built with Joints, so now they become like this.

Silence felt greeting in the room where Joints lay weak, now his mind floated and guessed everywhere. Viona could only bow while playing her fingers on the lap. Regardless of what feeling he was currently feeling, everything felt so crumpled. He wanted to say something to Joints, but he hesitated to start.

"Sen," the still lying man returned to his consciousness, hearing Viona's call. He glanced at Viona intensely, waiting for what Viona would say. "Can I say something?"

Eyebrow Joints, still silently listening. Not allowing, not forbidding. His own mind was still raging somewhere, Joints could only listen to what Viona was going to tell him. She still wished that Viona could be hers.

However, after seeing the incident earlier, which instead reminded him of the events at the party at that time .. everything turned back around, adding to the pain in the chest cavity that was getting longer, the more felt, the more, then the more heart-wrenching pain that is very flammable. The flames of jealousy and unwillingness were always blazing in his chest, making him lose his mind and feel useless as a human being. There is no purpose in life to survive, causing it to be a very heartbreaking accident for many people.

Joints are sorry, why didn't he just die? If it was like this, let alone seeing the intimacy of Viona and her husband earlier, her heart melted. She awakens from a coma in the hope that Viona can still be hers, but that belief and hope is lost. Seeing the Marshal's gaze on Viona that contained many meanings. Joints know, if Marshal loves Viona very much and is unlikely to want to let go.

"My marriage is not good, Sen. It's always not good every time. Even yesterday, I was supposed to file for divorce, we were almost separated."

The joint rounded the eyes quickly after being conscious of his daydream. She was so shocked. Although Viona said, if she was so forced to undergo her marriage to Marshal, but Jendi could not believe if the farewell was between them.

"It's too complicated, Sen." Viona looks so grim.

The joint looked at him pity. If Viona is so tormented, why is she still hanging on with her husband, not going back to him? Yes, hope is hope. Whose heart will turn away easily, if it has to give up the adoration of his heart with others? All hearts must feel sad and unaccepted. As with Joints, she cannot accept and still wishes Viona back to her, even if it is impossible. Because Joints and Viona do not have official ties that require them to be together, like what Marshal has attached to Viona.

The Marshal's wife again held Joints' hands, rubbing them slowly attentively. His gaze hesitated to reveal everything he wanted to say. His grasp of the hand grew tighter as Joints also replied to him with a grasp. Ingestion of deep breath meets the chest cavity. After a bit of courage, he raised his voice again, "You said, you love me so much and want me to come back with you."

The silent joint listened curiously, where did Viona talk to go. Rarely does Viona talk about feelings, even invited to talk about it even Viona sometimes does not want to. But, this time he instead discussed it to Joints. Is there anything serious he wants to say right now? The joint hopes for a sentence that makes him happy or relates to a dream that brings his consciousness to the life of the world, when he is in a coma.

"Then, I chose to divorce from my husband, because I remember what you said at that time ...," Viona looked at Joints expectantly. Serious radiance is so visible from the look of her beautiful round eyes. "You said you were willing to wait for my slave status, didn't you?"

Joints were astonished, looking at Viona with a look of disbelief. What does it mean Viona ... He breathed as much air as possible to calm the mind that even returned to hold a hope. Viona hadn't finished talking, shouldn't she have concluded it herself.

"If I'm divorced from Mr. Marshal, does that still apply?"

Joints wanted to say 'yes', yet somehow his mouth felt muffled. He was only able to tighten his hand grip her hand Viona hand and smile warmly happily at the woman he always loved.

Viona's eyebrows raised waiting for an answer, but Joints did not open their voices. "Sen, you still want to marry me, right?"

Staring at Joints eyes deeply, Viona began to worry because Joints did not come to him. Does Joints not want to take it anymore? Or does Joints not love him anymore? Viona's expectations are not much, she just hopes there are still men who want her after divorce later, and what Viona wants, the man is just Joints. But, Jendi just fell silent and put on a sweet smile at him. Viona did not want to conclude anything, for fear that reality would not be the same as her expectations.

He dares to say divorce to Marshal, because he still has hope in Joints. It wouldn't hurt if Viona thought so, would it? Since she and Joints love each other, it is likely, if they are together, then their household life will definitely be happy. Not like his current home.

"You want to accept me, even if you are a widow, right? Sen, yes, right?"

Joints just looked at him fixedly. Raising her still weak hand to wipe Viona's already impatient face waiting for an answer. Viona should not have asked again, because at that time, Jendi said it very, very seriously.

"I'll wait for your chandelier!"

The sentence was spoken aloud and full of seriousness by Joints at that time. Does Viona still need to ask him another answer? Is that necessary? Or should Jendi say it again until Viona understands the meaning of the words?

"Sen?" Viona held back the hand of Joints who wanted to wipe her face. The smile on Joints face does not fade, but does not open the mouth to make a sound. Viona needed a definite answer, so that she could take the right step for the next. "You want to marry a widow, right?"