(Revised) Regretting It Too Late

Proposal

"Non, take a bath first aunty make a warm meal for non Dinda," said bi Sumi who saw me crying while hugging her.

After finishing the bath I told bi Sumi everything. Everything I've experienced and the events I've been through. There was a sense of tightness in my chest and there was also an unexpected pain.

"Non, so non-Dinda will move the faith like Mr Mexca?" Ask bi Sumi to me while holding my hand.

"Here you are, I said that to him, but he forbade me and wanted me to stay like this" I replied

"Auntie just wants the best for non Dinda, whatever the decision of non Dinda aunty comes along. But if you move to the belief kasian alm. people know non Dinda," explained bi Sumi and it made me cry again.

After a long talk with bi Sumi I begged for his guidance, so that I could feel at ease. That night I intentionally went to bed early because I wanted to wake up and worship longer.

at exactly 00:00 my alamr rang, I got up and took the water. I recited the Quran, after which I did sholah hajad and istikharah.

Alloohumma innii astakhiiruka bi’ilmika wa astaqdiruka biqudrotik, wa as-aluka min fadhlikal adhiim, fa innaka taqdiru wa laa aqdiru wa ta’lamu wa laa a’lamu wa anta ‘alaamul ghuub.

Alloohumma in kunta ta’lamu anna haadzal amro khoirun lii fii dinii wa ma’aasyii wa ‘aaqibati amrii faqdurhu lii wayassirhu lii tsumma baariklii fiih.

Wa in kunta ta’lamu anna haadzal amro syarrun lii fii dinii wa ma’aasyii wa ‘aaqibati amrii fashrifhu ‘annii washrifnii ‘anhu waqdur lil khoiro haitsu kaana tsumma ardlinii.

Meaning: O God, I ask You for choice with Your knowledge, I ask for Your power (to settle my affairs) with Your nature, and I ask You for some of Your great gifts, for Thou art omnipotent, and I am powerless, Thou Knowest, and I know not, And Thou Knowest of the unseen.

O God, if You know that this affair is good for me, in my religion, my life, and its consequences for me, then do not do it and ease this affair for me, then bless me in this affair.

And if You know that this affair is bad for me, in my religion, my life, and its consequences for me, then keep this affair away from me, and keep me away from this affair, and do good for me everywhere, then make me glad to receive it.

That morning after finishing the morning prayer I cooked for breakfast, and I saw bi Sumi and Mang Ujang already bothered outside the house. I smiled at them, because they were the ones who had been looking after me since I was a baby. They look happy when sometimes they have a fuss. For me bi Sumi and mang Ujang uda like family, they work in this house from the time they have not been married until now even children and grandchildren.

"Yes Allha, don't cook by herself? Would you like to take stock for Mr Mexca again, would you?" Ask bi Sumi who I don't realize when it's coming in.

"No bi, last night he said today I don't need to go to the office because he wants me to walk down the street" I answered bi Sumi's question

"Ooo... Want a picnic, right? People on tv eat while looking at the scenery under the shady tree" said bi Sumi with a funny tone and a big smile

"Yes that. He said he wanted to do that with me today." I said with a smile

I don't know what happened, after I asked for directions and rested on my Lord last night, it felt like the burden on my heart disappeared, as if he was the one (Mexca). I do not feel excessive worry and also do not feel afraid to torture. It felt very light, and there was no burden.

Tong

The sound of my doorbell being pushed, and when I got off bi Sumi had opened the door, and the person who appeared was the person I had thought of from morning. He came up with a black after hem red stripe with his arms folded upwards to the tribal limit and black pants with a Patek Philippe Platinum World Time brand watch perched on his left wrist and add a luxurious impression. She is similar to a professional model.

"Are you ready?" his question dissolved my daydream of him.

"Ah.? Yes, I have." I replied tersejud

Then I decided to tell Bi Sumi to come out with Mexca. On the way as usual he does not talk much just answer if asked and always focus on driving.

About 1 hour drive we finally arrived at a very beautiful place. The flower garden that has funds, the ground is lined with soft and well-maintained garden grass, around which there is a flower arrangement formed curved like a door to another world.

I walked slowly and when I set foot on the grass I took off my footwear because I did not want to damage the grass so good. When I entered through the flower door I was very shocked behind the flower door there was another garden that was very beautiful and no less beautiful like a fairy tale palace. The multifaceted roses were there, the fragrant scent of the flowers spreading all over the place.

Mexca kept telling me to walk until I passed a path made of flattened round formed stone slabs planted between the green grass, and to the left of it was a very beautiful fish pond, it flows like a river from a mountain source, and colorful fish swim along the stream.

"Still long?" I felt like I was walking far enough.

"In a moment," he replied with a smile

"It's over" said Mexca and I immediately inhaled in a refreshingly fragrant aroma by stretching out both my hands. Until I was shocked to hear the balloon eruption and from the big balloon came out words that made me very moved, happy, sad, happy all mixed into one.

🌹I've been waiting for this moment for quite a long time to say this, I need a lot of time. Consider everything that might happen.

Dealing with God to make the most appropriate choice. I asked my own heart many times. Is it my choice?

And many times my answer remains the same .. it .. You. Will you marry me? be the sun in my house forever!🌹

"More, Will you marry me?" said Mexca kneeling before me with a ring in her hand.

I made up my mind and nodded my head. I'll choose him no matter what happens, I don't care about anything else. Because I just want to be with him.

"You can't back down after this, are you sure?" he said again to his position and looked at me

"I'm sure" I replied without hesitation.

"You will accept me with all my shortcomings?" the question sounded doubtful

"Yes, I will accept all your flaws" I replied directly

"Please promise me that you will always be faithful to me." she asked me by extending her left hand, while her right hand held the ring box

"I, with all my faith. Promising to always choose you and receive all your less and more." I promised him that I would say without a doubt.

"Thank you" he said, and he put a ring on my finger and kissed the back of my hand for a long time.

Tears that had been trying to hold back were finally spilled, I did not expect that I would get such great happiness from someone I had even met several times.

"Congratulations.!" everyone shouted and applause from those who arrived - suddenly emerged from behind the flower fence in the park.

I closed my mouth with my hands because I was shocked and happy, they were all here. Om Bambang and his family, Yulia and his family, the Mexca family and even the Sumi bi, the Ujang mang and all my happiness felt very big.

"Congratulations dear, you will be my dear mother's daughter-in-law" said mama Mexca with a hug

"Good sister, you're my beautiful sister-in-law. I will model all your clothes" said Merisca, and I hugged her tightly.

"Good buddy"

"Good sister"

Ayuni and Yulia both hugged me, and I returned their arms. It felt like my tears were dry because of the happiness Mexca had always given me.

It was a special day for me, I felt like a leading role in the dreamland with a very beautiful story.

After the surprise proposal, we all ate together, we shared stories and joked with great joy. And I just found out that the place is the flower garden of a villa owned by the mexcan family.

As soon as the meal and proposal was over I just knew that Mexico would bring them all with their cars - private cars that he sent to pick them up and deliver them to share their happiness with me.

"Thank you" I said as Mexico drove me home.

"Thank you, too, dear." said me.

"Rest me straight home" said mexca as soon as I got in front of my house.

"Yes, be careful on the road" I said, and the Mexca just nodded and smiled, then drove off and disappeared.