(Revised) Regretting It Too Late
Adinda's Identity
It doesn't feel like a month is the age of my little daughter. And she was just taken care of by Dami, while Monica was busy again with her activities as a model, which was getting closer to the exhibition.
"Oeeee... Oeee... Baby why? Thirsty huh, huh?" I carried my little daughter and I gave her milk.
"Monica where are you? It's late, why don't you go home yet?" I called Monica who recently started to be negligent with her son and also often went home late at night.
"Sir, let me carry little lady sir. You rest first, surely soon the mistress will come." said Miss Dami to me who felt kasian.
I don't know why the more I get here, the more strange I feel in my heart. I love and love my daughter, but it feels like something's stuck. And the attitude of Monica who was too indifferent to her daughter and also to me made me regret having divorced Adinda.
Like this morning. In the past when there was Adinda I did not need to find hard to find food and find the needs that I needed immediately, because Adinda was always on standby when I needed walo she also worked.
Everyday I feel more and more empty, as if there is something missing in me that I do not know what it is.
Every time I feel empty and empty, I always vent it by inviting my wife Monica to play together, I release my desires and I complete all my release in her womb. Only by doing the release and duty of the husband who gives a living bathinlah that can make me feel calm.
Sometimes I don't care anymore about my bed time. Because only then can I get back to thinking and doing again.
The shadow of Adinda makes me even more frustrated. There is a feeling coming from behind the bottom of my heart. So my new routine is to observe the cafe where he works, in hopes of seeing his figure walo just a glance.
I do it every time I go home from work for a week. Sometimes I see him joking with Dido, sometimes I see him busy and picked up by a woman I don't know who he is.
"Seeing you away from me made me realize, I used to have wasted such a sincere person like you. I've done something stupid for you it's my regret. I'm sorry Adinda, I'm sorry for my mistake." I grumbled in my heart as I watched her hug spoiled Dido.
"Dinda..? Assalamu'alaikum, Din's... Are you inside?" shouted someone I know so well, because lately he has always come to the house to help me and Yulia in preparation for the exhibition, who else if not the lover of Didi mbak Ayuni.
"Wa'alaikumsalam's chat. Why are you here so early?" I said as I ran down the stairs of my house.
"You're this. What time is it? Just now Yulia called me when the preparation is done and you have to be there at 3 pm" he explained to me.
"Well, but it's still 7 in the morning?" ask me who sees him always shuffled.
"No papa, just walk and help the ones there" he replied with a smile.
I also went to the same boutique mbak Ayuni to take the rest of the clothes that have not been under by Yulia.
"God, I am so confused. How is this Din? Just aunty Anggel said that your event will be broadcast live" said Yulia as she watched me and Ayuni came.
"Well good why are you so confused and panicked so Yul?" sela mbak Ayuni who saw Yulia seemed to disagree with the live broadcast of this exhibition.
"It's not so mbak, the initial preparation there is no live broadcast event. And the cost for that is expensive" explained Yulia on mbak Ayuni.
"Well, didn't Din tell you from the beginning?" she asked me who was just smiling in response to the two of them debating.
"Hishihi. Already the mbak, kemaren aunt Anggel has said that this event will be broadcast live. And they're asking, so we don't cost you anything. As he said." I explained to the two people who were always there and helped me that.
"God, give me enough happiness to make me smile like this, and happiness that will make me always thank You" I said in my heart, who felt very happy in spite of my short spooky days as a result of my divorce.
I went to the hotel with Ayuni and Yulia. When I arrived at the hotel I immediately met Tanta Anggel to confirm the live broadcast that was discussed by phone.
At the hotel it has gathered all the models who will show my clothes. Including mas Dido and his manager who came to help me shout my show, because he is a fairly famous model. Then Melinda and Merisca who I knew from Aunt Aggel. While the others are models under the aunty Anggel and no one I know.
I also sent an invitation to Bram's parents to be present at my boutique exhibition, because I want to share a bit of my happiness with them.
"Auntie, greetings. I'm sorry Dinda wanted to ask you about what aunt talked about on the phone yesterday about the live broadcast." I said as soon as I saw Aunt Anggel who I was looking for from earlier appeared and walked towards me.
"Ah, yes. Yesterday they asked for permission to take this acra of yours and want to be broadcast live as their main news event. And I allow this because there are benefits to the brend that you are under." Anggel explained to me.
I also think maybe, maybe this is the path for me to the success expected by both my parents and also Bambang.
Aunt Anggel suddenly dragged me away from people and asked for time to talk alone with me.
"Aunty what's wrong? Is there any problem with the preparation? If it is not papa tan, Dinda does not matter if you can not display Dinda's designs. Everything can be done slowly and nan.." I have not finished talking Aunty Anggel's index finger has been stuck to my lips, a sign I should stop talking.
"Sst... Calm down, baby. No problem everything goes according to aunt's plan. Just..." Aunt Anggel's sentence stopped and it made me curious.
I looked at Aunt Anggel who was smiling and seemed hesitant to say something to me.
"If there's no problem with it, then what tan? Just tell me Dinda doesn't matter what it is." I replied to Anggel's aunt.
"Bad. Thank goodness, thank you dear" Aunt Anggel hugged me and looked very happy.
"Listen to auntie darling. This event is actually not only broadcast in Negri, but also will be broadcast outside Negri. More precisely in LA." Anggel's aunt explained after breaking her arms off me.
"What?! LA tan?" ask me to repeat the sentence of aunt Anggel because of the cruelest.
"Yes darling. Los Angeles" he said in a carefree tone.
"But tan, why should it be there?" many confused.
"Of course, first because you are my student and secondly you are the best graduate of the University of California. And their party wants to broadcast the event of their best graduate students who in Indonesia with pride. So auntie thinks it's a good thing for you, baby. Their side will fund everything." Anggel explained to me. And I can nod my head
After my conversation with Aunt Anggel, I went back to Yulia and Ayuni to help. After all, we also rest in the hotel room provided by Aunt Anggel is always the organizer.
I told all my conversations with Aunt Anggel earlier to the two of them on the sidelines of our break. And they're very happy.
"Thank God, thank God. Whatever you give me, it is the best. If not for today, I'm sure it will be for the future." said my gratitude on the sidelines of my prayer when the event was about to begin.
And right at 7 pm the exhibition and fashion show to introduce the latest designs from my boutique and from the design of Aunt Anggel was started.
Anggel and I walked on the podium to greet the guests and also the invitees who were present at the event that night. And I saw that both of Bram's parents were also present in the vip row that I provided.
"Alright let's start the show tonight with music and songs from a singer whose voice is very melodious. Let's introduce the first dress worn by our model Melinda, from the designer AL" exclamation mc started the event and called one by one the models who will show the dress and also the clothes of my design and aunt Anggel.
On the leaves that flow gently
The river is carried to the end of the eye
And I'm starting to get scared of being carried away by love
Inhaling the longing that is as close as the chest
My way was empty and I touched him
It feels warm, oh, in the heart
I held on tight and I saved time
I can't stop seeing him leave
I've never, ever, ever, ever remembered
Dry eyes and a warm touch
I was afraid to find meaning
Grow a chest tight taste
You come and go, oh, just like that
All I'm rhyming for what it is
Eyes closed and heart murmured
Uh-uh-uh, uh-uh
Uh-uh, uh-uh-uh
You come and go, oh, just like that
All I'm rhyming for what it is
Eyes closed and heart murmured
Meet
Hu-uh-uh
Songwriter: Noe
The lyrics of the Room of Missing
Not feel the event that runs for 3 hours was finished. The applause from all the spectators as well as the investors who attended the event that night was very crowded.
"And let's close this festive event with a song from earlier sung by someone behind the scenes, let's welcome our singer who has the voice of Aa-dinda's mermaid." shouted the host calling my name. And I also appeared with my guitar accompanied by Adil, who recently always sang with me.
My lover is gone
Away from you
Away from your hug
But I should
Tuk the future
Trust me
Even though you're blocked by two oceans
My heart is always for you
Even though you are as far as two continents
My heart is always for you
I will keep faithful
Just so are you
My true lover
In my heart
Never wanted to be far away
But if it is so
That's what you want
I leave it to you
Even though you're blocked by two oceans
My heart is always for you
Even though you are as far as two continents
My heart is always for you
I will keep faithful
Just so are you
When I was silent I doubted
Hold him to me
There are many stars in the sky
Many temptations come
Can you pull ho over
Even though you're blocked by two oceans
My heart is always for you
Even though you are as far as two continents
My heart is always for you
Even though you're blocked by two oceans (oh)
Wa yes wa yes yes yes
Even though you are as far as two continents
Wa yes wa yes yes yes
Even though you're blocked by two oceans
My heart is always for you
Even though you are as far as two continents
My heart is always for you
I will keep faithful
I will keep faithful
Just so are you
Du du (oh)
Just so are you
Keeping faithful is sure (oh)
Just so are you
Songwriter: Yovie
"Well, the closing of tonight's event let's call on our designers who have created models and styles of all the dresses and dresses we've seen and seen together. This is a famous designer and has been worldwide, and all the clothes of his designs have been used by foreign artists. We welcome designer Anggela Labordt" cried mc who called the name of aunt Anggel greeted with the screams of the audience.
Aunt Anggel came out and was accompanied by Melinda who had been wearing my dress.
"Yes.! And no less than the teacher, our new designer who has created a variety of unique designs that we have also seen tonight, and has received many offers of cooperation. Let's call the owner of the name AL, he is Adinda Larasati. The singer with the sound of his merdunya and the designer tonight."
I also stepped foot to the podium accompanied by mas Dido. My heart rate was pounding so fast, the applause from all the spectators and the camera glare made me nervous about receiving all this enormous happiness.
I hugged Dido's arm tightly and I aligned myself with Aunt Anggel, I bowed my head saluting the vip guests and the company leaders.
I also received a very nice and beautiful flower bouquet from one of the company leaders who stood in the field of hospitality and hospitality.
"Let's know who our new designer is. If designer Anggel we already know. But who is our designer? He always hid behind his work as a cafe singer and restaurant. He is not only a designer, but he is also a boutique owner, owner of a restaurant and cafe where he sings all along. Our AL designer is also the best graduate from the University of California in business." exclamation from mc who introduced my identity made me more nervous.
Finished the event I stood side by side with aunt Anggel to pay tribute and receive many hand positions from the leaders of large companies and also the investors invited by aunt Anggel.
