(Revised) Regretting It Too Late
Cuckoo
After coming home from the cafe I saw Bram's mas already home and he was calling someone on the front porch. "Assalamu'alaikum mas" I said hello and kissed his hand. Yes, he wanted me to kiss his hand but he didn't say hello to me just nod his head and continue the call by talking to me. "God, why is this my home?" I grumbled in my heart as I entered the house.
"Mas, what did Bram eat? This dinda uda cook chicken suwer mas fish" asked me at the Bram mas who entered the house after finishing the phone. But Bram didn't say, he just went through me. I don't want to think so much, I think I probably didn't hear what I said, and I went upstairs and I knocked on the door. I saw Bram had just finished his shower. "Sorry, what are you eating? Or want to eat later" I asked Bram. "Let's eat myself later you won't have to wait for me" he replied, then closed the door.
"What is this, why did Bram mas become closed and chivek like this is me" I muttered as I walked down to my room. In the room I lamented for my fate, I asked him about him eating my intention to eat together but instead Bram wanted to eat alone, forced I had to eliminate my dinner again, I had to eat dinner again, because all this time if Bram mas do not eat at home or want to eat alone I always do not eat dinner and hold my hunger in the silence of the night. In the eternal I take water wudu, then I do Hajad prayer, I ask Ya Rabbi so that I am always given to the strength to be able to survive and be able to melt the heart of Bram lukewarm, for him to love me is only a small love.
That night whatever I did Bram mas just diem and cuwek to me. He seemed to think I didn't exist, and he didn't ask me if I had eaten or not. "Oh my God, Robb, what is my fault, and what should I do? Can your servant go through all of this, Rabb" I insisted and begged for strength to face all of them with a strong heart. That night there was so much that I asked my Lord for his guidance to melt my husband's heart. In my sobs I wish that only my Lord and my husband would be able to take care of my heart and remind me, but how cruel I am because what appears and appears in my view is not my husband Bram but mexca. There is no way I would ask someone who is not my husband to take care of my heart. I smiled smirkingly, feeling this is really funny.
Early in the morning after finishing cooking I prepared provisions for Bram. "You don't have to wait for me later, and you don't have to cook for dinner either. Because after coming home later I will eat out with Monica" said Mas Bram reminded me. "Deg, nyut" my chest feels pain hearing the word mas Bram just now. "But should you Bram every time you meet him?" I said I ventured while enduring the pain in my chest. "Listen, I told you, that you should be grateful that she has allowed me to marry you. The person I should marry is not you but him" Bram replied in a resentful tone to me. I can't argue anymore, I can only look down and hold back my tears. Finished breakfast mas Bram immediately went without saying goodbye to me.
As much as Bram mas I also go to the boutique, but not the usual boutique but my boutique branch in the mole. I went there with my friend Yulia. "Good morning ma'am, sorry the one who called was me. The owner of this mole said he asked for rent to raise the ma'am, so I called my mother" the woman told us when she saw us coming, and rather he reported it all to Yulia instead of me. Because it is Yulia who I assigned to take care of my buttons in this mole. They know their boss is Yulia more than I do.
After struggling and meeting with the manager of the mole, I and Yulia clean hard do not want to raise the rent again. Because of the initial agreement if the rental price will not be raised no matter what happens, but know now after 2 years kok suddenly go up. From the deal that did not find a bright spot I finally submitted to meet directly with the owner of the mole where I took it, because I want to talk directly to him. At first the mole's in charge objected, but because of me and Yulia clean hard finally approved. And we have to wait approximately 1 week because the owner of the mole is busy and outside the city.
After the management at the boutique and rental business, I glided directly to the restaurant while Yulia to the boutique. When I arrived at the restaurant, there I saw Didi mas who was busy with something, I did not want to bother him so I chose to be busy with the care of my cats at the restaurant, and I see that someone has given birth to cute and cute kittens. I called my vet and I asked him to look at me and take care of all my cats, all of which there may be about 20 tails and a small addition of 7 so the number increases to 27 tails. "Somewhere from where can I get pregnant these 2 cats, even though all the cats that I keep girls all, there may be cats from outside that enter" I said to myself while taking care of my kittens and trying to get to know them, as they were still afraid of me approaching. Actually, I don't care because the cats are Persian and this village looks so unique, funny and adorable.
"Din, why didn't you tell me you were here?" reprimand Didi who when he saw me and my veterinarian who was busy taking care of my cats. "I'm sorry, I saw Didi was busy so I asked them not to disturb Didi mas" I replied with a smile looking at Didi mas who kept wiping my head. "Everything is healthy Dinda no maslah, for this small vaccine later I scheduled with the same who just came yes, maybe next week" said my veterinarian (doctor Baim). "All right Im thank you for that" said mas Didi to his friend. Yes doctor Baim is a schoolmate when SMU mas Didi and mas Dido.
🔘The sounding from my bedroom wall
Reveal myself from long daydreams
It doesn't feel like the night is getting late
'I am still awake
Honey, where do you want to be together?
I need all to be missed
Could it be that you there feel the same?
Like my cold tonight
Drizzle invites lovers tonight
We dance in a beautiful longing
If you're here, I'll calm down
Honey, where do you want to be together?
I need all to be missed
Could it be that you there feel the same?
Like my cold tonight
Drizzle invites lovers tonight
We dance in a beautiful longing
If you're here, I'll calm down
Songwriter: Goeslaw Melly
"What's wrong?" Ask Dido to me who rarely met me. "Nothing, why?" many confused. "You're not usually excited, is there a problem that makes you difficult or heavy?" askinya. "No mas" I replied briefly. "Dinda, if anything just say don't be kept alone, remember we are your family, we won't leave you alone" Dido's words moved me and unconsciously I shed tears. "I miss my mom and dad" I answered a lie. Mas Dido pulled me and held me in his arms, he patted me on the back, and it made me even more claustrophobic and the roar of my tears became more intense. About 30 minutes I hid in the arms of Dido and I felt good, I wanted to go home and clean up Dido wanted to take me home. I also came home from the cafe with Dido mas. Because after taking care of my cats at the restaurant I went straight to the cafe.
In a household that makes us feel sick is when our husband is wishing for our love and when he is indifferent to us, a marriage is a marriage of an arranged marriage but most of us a woman always devote love to our husband and hope our husband can accept and love us too.
"And follow them properly. Then if you do not like them, (then be patient) because you may not like something, whereas Allah SWT made him a lot of good." (QS. An-Nisaa': 19)
