(Revised) Regretting It Too Late

Entrapment

That morning when I woke up I saw a message on my phone. And it turns out that it was a message sent by Merlin with Handphon Mexca who said that he was having business in LA and had to go there and go last night. Merlin also explained that Mexca would be in LA for approximately 1 week to complete all his business there and Merlin also joined Mexca because it concerns the company.

My day at the office was back as usual when before I got close to Mexca, I ate my lunch alone on the roof of the building and enjoyed the quiet atmosphere while drawing design designs for my own boutique.

It's been 2 days Mexca in LA and there's no word from her. Merlin who also went to Sanan also did not give any news, and the problems that were here were all handed over and handled by the mas Faris who was his assistant Mexca.

That afternoon all the good office workers from the department of planning, design, marketing, and more held a year-end meeting, and because it coincided with the weekend so many who came. But mbak Ayuni could not come, because at his home again there is a family event between mbak Ayuni and mas Didi who want to spend the night just alone.

"Come on Din come along... Let's roll, it's exciting if the rame rame Din." refer to my colleagues from the same department as me. And finally I also came but could not be long, because tomorrow I have a promise with Alea and Oni to invite them to walk to the amusement park.

The event was held in a restaurant that can be said to be very nice and comfortable, the feel of the restaurant was like being in a bamboo forest. Many bamboo trees are neatly laid out and also small well-maintained bamboo bamboos are lined up neatly along the trails, the, when the wind blows the sound of leaves rubbing against each other gives a peaceful impression like a natural melody.

And also the gurgling water from the splash of fish pond water that is in some places and turns, with a variety of fish also provide a very natural beauty, which is very natural, the combination of bamboo trees with fish ponds blends very well.

The booth and the place given around the trees are also very comfortable, as if enjoying a meal in the open with a view that goes directly to the dark sky with a very beautiful star blips, as if enjoying a meal in the open, give comfort and peace in the heart.

At 9 pm I was also allowed to go home first, because I did not want to be late tomorrow and made Alea and Oni disappointed.

"Sorry, it's late, it's 9 p.m. I'm sorry to go home first because tomorrow I have an appointment with my daughter. You go on and have a good time." I say to everyone present at the dinner. I don't know them one by one, I only know the ones from my department.

"Okay, heart to heart, Dinda," they answered, and I left immediately.

Before I go home to the toilet. And when I was in the toilet I smelled a pungent scent like the smell of insect repellent. Because I feel tight, I quickly get out of the toilet.

When I opened my car door my eyes darkened and my head was dizzy "Uhg.! Why did my head get so dizzy?" I sat in my car and I don't know what else.

I felt someone open my shirt, but I felt and wanted to open my eyes, but my eyes could not open as if there were black sheets blocking my view and finally I was not aware anymore.

I don't know how long I've been asleep or fainted. When I woke up I found my body wrapped in a blanket and wearing only my underwear. I looked around and found out that I was in a hotel room. I put on my shirt and went out to go home.

I don't know which area I'm in, I'm going home in a taxi. And when I got home I was very shocked because Didi mas, Dido mas, mbak Ayuni and Om Bambang were at home with panicked views looking at me.

Om Bambang took my hand and sat me in the living room. I asked more and more confused and also afraid for what story I had experienced.

How cool I am when I hear stories from them. Soon after, Yulia came home. And tell me that the boutique that was on the mole in many people and asked for an explanation of me sleeping with a man in a hotel room on New Year's Eve last night.

"But Om I didn't do any of that. I don't know who that guy is either? When I woke up I was in a room and there was nobody there." I was clear about all the things I didn't do and didn't know who set me up.

They all listened to my story, which started from a meal with my coworkers until I felt dizzy from the smell of insect medicine while on the toilet until I ended up in a hotel room.

After I told them everything, I resigned myself to everything that was going to happen. Everyone on my side said they would investigate everything and told me to calm down.

I really can't believe how the events that just happened last night have spread so widely so quickly. I was so scared of everything and the people who were yelling at me.

In the silence of my room, I could not calm down because the news about me spread like a stream of water overflowing and flooding all over the place. Even my contract of cooperation with the company I just did also affected, those who owned shares in the company asked that I cancel the contract of cooperation and pay penalties.

"Yes Allah. What really happened to me is why all this happened to me, who I hurt until he dared to do this. Or it's because of my selfishness that wants to keep loving people that I shouldn't love. Is this a rebuke from Mu Rabbi." My weeping adorned every prostration of my night.

It's been 3 days since I left the room, and won't eat walo bi Sumi and the others persuaded me. I don't want to see anyone and I don't want to see anyone, I'm afraid of myself, and I don't know where to run.

Brrrtts

Bram 9.00

Dinda this is Din. Where are you now? I've seen the news about you, don't be afraid Din. You must be confused again, right?

Dinda tell me all your problems are the same Din do not you pendam yourself, mas will help find the solution.

Bram 19.00

Dinda, why don't you get back the message. You didn't mention Din...?

Bram 21.00

Let's get Din married, so we can explain to them if it's a picture of us on our honeymoon, I think that's the only solution. Because then they will believe and your good name will come back.

Bram 01.00

Dinda, why don't you answer Din's message? If you want we can get married tomorrow and mas will clarify all your problems.

Bram 06.00

Believe me, everything will end with the news of our marriage later. And the problem won't get bigger.

My head is dizzy and wants to break. I don't know what to do and what to do. I sat in the corner of my bed holding my knees, my mind empty and dead-end. All the messages from Mas Bram only I read nothing I reply, because I was confused.

In my desperation I remembered all the messages that Mas Bram sent me, by getting married then it would all be over.

"Yes Rabb, is it true that marriage is over? What if I marry my good name will come back again and be clean? Can the effort left by my parents be continued and opened again? Can I continue working in the office as usual? All can be Rabbi... Can it be that way?" ask me with despair in my heart that is very deep.

After I hid for a long time and fell into grief, I decided to do what Mas Bram said. Maybe then all the rumors about me will be gone and done.

I got up from my seat, I had tears in my eyes and I went straight out to my car. I ignored the call of bi Sumi and the screaming Ujang mang called me and asked where I was going. I drive my car with a void of mind, I intend to look for Bram mas.

After arriving at his office I climbed up to the front door to enter his room. Without excuse I pushed the door straight away, because I heard from the person below when he was in the room.

Brakes...

The person inside was shocked by the arrival of Adinda, but she kept trying to calm down, she sat in her chair in front of the computer and a pile of files. He looked at Adinda who walked in by leaning her body on the back of her chair.

I saw him being shocked by my arrival as well as me. I was confused as to why I could be in front of him, but he did not budge from his seat. He just stared at me sharply who was walking towards him.

"Why? Did he not like me, or did he change his mind and not want to be my priest anymore?" I said in my heart, but I didn't care and kept my feet going forward until it was right in front of his desk.

My chest felt tight because I tried to hold back the tears that had been trying to get out. I saw he did not react to me, walo had looked shocked by my arrival without telling him first.

The look in her eyes was hard for me to understand, she looked at me with a gaze that seemed to wait for me to explain what was happening and what my purpose was to meet her.

My heart was beating very fast, and because the silence in the room made it even harder to breathe. I took a deep breath and I exhaled slowly.

"T - please, marry me.!?" I shouted, and after I said that word, I did not hear any sound, even when I had the lyrics he did not budge from his seat.

My chest tightened, I clenched my hands beside my body. And my body began to tremble because it was holding back my tears. There was no response from him to say I could no longer hold back the tears that had overflowed.

"T - please, I beg you," my mother again with a voice that began to tremble.

My eyes are blurred because my tears have filled my eyes and a little more will spill over my cheeks. The dead me holding him back can no longer afford not to let them overflow out.

"I - it's not me. A - I don't know, a - anything. A - I'm just.." I haven't finished my sentence out yet, but my tears are overflowing unstoppably anymore. I bowed, and my fist grew stronger. My body shook violently and I was unable to say any more words.