(Revised) Regretting It Too Late

Longing

"The happy household is the dream of every family. However, not all couples (families) can achieve it. Thus, a strong foundation is needed to build a happy household piece."

First is the shalah wife.

"These fathers In choosing a wife or a future wife for our children, do not be seen only from her beauty. Because beauty cannot guarantee happiness in a household."

"But choose a religious woman. God willing, happiness will be felt. Are these really the fathers?"

"Betuuulllhim.!" shouted all the fathers who were present at the lecture.

"Yes sir. Remember always that, seek the righteous."

"Yes, God willing.." the citizens' triak in unison.

"The criteria of women who pray according to religion, is a woman who obeys her husband. Able to guard her property and honor when abandoned by her husband. In fact, the Prophet laid out the character of a devout woman, as the main criterion. ”Women are the state poles. If the woman is good, then the country is good. And vice versa,"

The second is a couple who have shaleh and sholihah children. 

"In forming shaleh children, this time is not an easy matter. Requires energy, thought, effort, and cost and do'a enough from parents. Because at this time, the environment around children has been polluted by technological pollution and globalization currents that erode religious values, morals and social wisdom. In this case the role of a wife who has been transformed into a mother is very important, because the kindness of 1 mother exceeds the kindness of 10 school heads."

"For that, the child must be given a strong religious provision, to ward off these bad influences. And the only powerful antidote is religion. For that, let's instill the value of – religious values since childhood in our children. So that later the child will grow up healthy and full of wisdom."

"So are the angels of heaven, beautiful mothers"

"Yes sir Yai" the cries of the mothers are not inferior to the cries of the fathers.

The third thing that is needed is friends and a good environment.

"Because of environmental influences, it has a very large and dominant influence in creating household happiness. If we are not observant in choosing the environment or friends, then we will be easily influenced by a materialistic lifestyle and hedonism,"

"And often our society misjudges people, because they are only judged by their high possessions and positions. While those who are pious, but do not have an excess of property tend to be ignored. Verily, Allah sees that our good hearts and good deeds are not our possessions."

"So I hope there's nothing like that in this village? Everything is in good people, and does not discriminate people from their labels. Or is there something like that?"

"No yai sir" exclaimed the citizens.

"Allah, may all good and happiness be bestowed upon us all. Amen,"

And lastly, is to have a good job. 

"A husband, must have a good job (income). But try to work not far from where you live, because a job and income are very important as well. The income we will give to our wives and children must be of good and clean things in order to make physical and spiritual health."

"How do your mothers and fathers agree with everything I say here? That happiness in a household essentially is that we should foundation and hold fast to the pillars of a strong religion."

"Yes, agree" shouted in unison the citizens.

"I pray for all, so that all can get a good partner in the eyes of Allah Swt, and who have a family may always be bestowed happiness and tranquility in his household. Amen"

"Amin amin ya rabbal'alamin" replied all citizens in unison, including me.

I don't feel like I've been home for a month and just stayed at home, but sometimes Ayuni came to visit and tell stories and joke with me.

"Dad, mom. Dinda's been back in this house for a month." I wiped the picture frames of my parents

"I'm sorry Dinda ya ma'am. Dinda's been trying to defend Dinda's household, but it all ended like this. I hope you're not mad at Dinda."

"Dinda misses mom and dad so much" I kissed the picture frame and I unconsciously shed tears because I felt homesick for both my parents, who had gone before me.

"Yes bi. Bi later Dinda will be all day outside the house, aunt does not need to for Dinda. Aunty cooks herself for aunty and man ujang ya."

"Well, where is Non Dinda going?" she asked with a worried face to me.

"Dinda wants to go to the boutique and see the same restaurant cafe bi, Dinda is not going anywhere. Aunty don't worry so" I said as I rubbed bi sumi's back.

After breakfast I left for the boutique, and when I got there I was immediately pulled by Yulia, because she already knew the news about me from Siti son bi Sumi. Only he refrained from giving me time before he asked me.

I also repeated and told Yulia everything again, because I had begun to be able to sincerely accept my separation with Bram Walo mas there was still a little sadness because I could not maintain my household.

After that, Yulia and I came to the mole manufacturer to talk about renting, because they confirmed that their superiors had come and today he again had a meeting with his employees to discuss the tenants of the mole.

"Good afternoon sir, I am Yulia and Adinda who yesterday made an appointment with the father, he said the leader of this mole can already be contacted to ask the maslah rent a pack."

"Oh yes, a moment yes I conformation again and I try to contact his assistant first, to know the time bliau. You two wait a minute"

Not long ago the phone connection was connected but it seems that the party there is difficult to accept to talk to me and Yulia. Because of the look on the face of the mole manager I can read if he is being reprimanded or maybe scolded.

"Why sir? The boss can't be found, sir? If for example it can't be okay sir, we can come back later if bliau already can sir" said I who saw the look of his face getting pale.

"O Allah, as Yul, the owner of this mole. Mr. that was until the shoot" I said as I walked out towards the parking lot.

"Neither, he seems to be a bad man. Or it could be that he was a selfish old man" Yulia said, describing him.

We laughed in unison at the thought of the old and evil owner of the mole. On the way we talked a lot about boutiques and preparation events for the actors.

"Alright Yul, I want to go straight to the restaurant yes, do not go down." when I got to the front of the boutique and took down Yulia.

Mexca Office

"Why this, what's wrong with me. Why am I always so nervous these days, as if something is going to happen. Or maybe someone wants to harm my family?" rubbed his face violently.

"Sir, it's time for a meeting. All the gotawe are already in the meeting room" my scheduler revealed.

"Well, Marlin have you prepared everything in accordance with what I asked for?" I said as I walked into the meeting room.

"Already sir"

Whether this remains in my heart why it bothers me more and more, and this again my employees make me even more angry and upset, make all false reports. What else Faris who already understood and knew me well even follow them, just a trivial matter always bothers me.

Whether it was because of the stifling feeling of my chest or what, I became hallucinating hearing the voice of the person I wanted to see and reached for him.

"Aaaaarrhgg.! Shit." I threw a ballpoint pen over my desk.

"Why?! Why are you so bothering me and teasing me, why. Why?!" it's my annoyance that I don't know who to expose to.

"Adinda. What's wrong with you, why can't you get out of my mind. Why you have affected my life so much. Can't you just not reach me, then why can't this taste disappear. I miss you, Dinda, miss you so much."

I subconsciously drove my car in front of his cafe, after I made a mess in my room. I saw and observed the girl I adored in the heart of ignorance.

"Adinda. What happened to you, you did smile but why is it as if there is a burden that you are hiding. Is there a problem with you, or is there a problem with your household?" I keep watching his movements.

"Let go of your smile, don't hold your weight it makes me sick to see it. Adinda wants it to feel like I'm hugging and I'm taking over your burden. I miss you so much, Sire."