(Revised) Regretting It Too Late

Polygamy

After a long day of waiting and trying to contact Bram, finally my phone was answered and he looked very busy. And I hear strange noises from around, sometimes I hear ******* as if holding back pleasure and light moans. "Aaah, baby jang an on that one" her voice was stifled. "Mass? where is Bram? And why did Bram.." My sentence was interrupted when I heard ******* from there. "Well baby go in all nik mat once, let's shake baby. Yes so much faster, dear" he said again with a hold. "Mas, what's Bram doing?" I asked who was getting anxious and could not bear to hear any more. I immediately turned off the phone and immediately held the tight chest. "Oh my God, is my husband sinning and cheating on me" I said in my pain.

It's been 1 week Bram can not be contacted and also no news, I'm getting anxious and also afraid. All the bad thoughts passed through my mind and mind. It all affected my performance, so I couldn't focus on my work. Everything I do goes awry, anxiety haunts me. And for 1 week I couldn't sleep peacefully because I thought about my husband.

That afternoon I decided to go straight home from the boutique, because I could not focus and my mind was not calm. Once at home I immediately rested and because lately I can not sleep well, I also began to consume sleeping pills in order to sleep soundly, because if I don't drink it, I won't be able to sleep.

Tok tok...

I vaguely heard someone knocking on my door, I woke up and when I opened it turned out he was my husband Bram who for 1 week had been interfering with my days and my thoughts. "I'm sorry I woke you up, please cook dinner because I'm hungry and shopping. I put it in the kitchen" she told me. "Yes mas, oh yes mas there is something I want to ask.." I said when I wanted to ask the incident 1 week ago, but mas Bram cut it and will tell everything later when at the dinner table.

I shower and pray because the time has shown at 6 pm. After that I was busy in the kitchen making dinner for my husband. "Darling don't do this... Cook all day you want to ask for rations continue I'm tired Yang" the voice of the girl from inside the Bram mas room. "Deg, is there a female voice inside?" ask me who will knock on the door because the food is ready. But before I knocked the door was open, how shocked I was to see mas Bram coming out of his room with a woman. "Ah, Dinda is the dish ready? Let's go downstairs and eat because I'm hungry" said Mas Bram and walked right past me. "Mas, what is this?" I asked while holding my husband's hand. "Mrr.! I'm hungry can we eat first." he snapped at me. "You're a hassle anyway" said the woman and immediately pulled Bram down.

"No, I have to ask for an explanation right now about the woman, and why she came out of my husband's room. Walo I know they are lovers, but not right like this" grutuku and immediately follow them down. Arriving below I saw Bram eating, I held all my tightness in my chest. I served my husband a meal until it was over. After that he called me into the living room because he wanted to explain to me.

After I heard the explanation from Mas Bram I felt cheated and betrayed. There was a sense of disbelief with all the news that I heard suddenly, even though I knew they were lovers who loved each other. But I don't want to be like this, no wife wants to be combined.

"But marriage cannot be done without the knowledge and permission of the first wife"

"But din, our marriage didn't happen by my will, it's all because of orders from my parents".

"I am still Bram's legal wife"

"I'm also his wife, and Bram's mom married me 2 weeks ago"

"Your marriage is invalid, because a....."

"Dinda enough.! A man has the right to polygamy"

"Mas, this isn't right mas, this is wrong"

"Now that you know and I've told you, you just say you accept us that's enough.!"

"But, why didn't Bram tell me that before? The way you married is wrong"

"Said now or before it's the same. What I've clearly told you is now, and you already know Monica is my wife too"

"Yes, and I'm going to live here with my husband"

"You guys, you're really good to me"

"You are the one who has me.! Because you took my lover.!"

"Monica don't get angry"

"I didn't snatch anyone, I didn't know about anything"

"Dinda, whether you accept it or not I've married Monica and she has the same rights as you in this house"

"The same right? Which rights did you talk to me about? All this time has Bram given me rights as a wife, sudakah?"

"I'm sorry, I told you from the beginning, that I don't love you and you don't expect more of it"

"Then don't tell me about my rights"

"Dinda...."

"Yes, I approve of you. I cry out for your marriage, I pray that you will be happy. Enough is enough, right?!"

"Miss..."

After saying such a heavy word to say for my husband's wedding, I went straight into my room without listening to Bram. My chest is sick and tight, I find it difficult to breathe with just 1 breath.

It was answered what I asked in my heart. "2 weeks married, that means they got married after I met them at the hotel that time" I let out a heartbreaking sigh withstanding the pain I felt, my world seemed to be shattered. This pain was exactly like the pain when my parents left me suddenly and unannounced. The same pain, the same taste, all the same.

'And if the Shahadad is a pledge of allegiance to God the god of the universe, then marriage is a pledge of allegiance to the wife of the Fruit of the Eye'

words of pearl in a wedding.

"Sorry mas, I think Monica has woken up the mas for dawn prayers"

"Dinda, I'm sorry. Are you still angry?"

"Why apologize, because everything has happened. And why am I angry? I have no right to be angry here, because I'm not ready"

"Don't tell me so din, you're my wife too"

"Yes a wife who is only on a piece of paper"

"Dinda please don't be angry, because it's not Monica's fault it's my fault. Because I couldn't see her getting married to someone else, so I married her without telling you"

"No papa mas, it's the right of Bram's mas"

"Please help me explain to mom and dad, I don't want them to be mad at me and Monica"

"Sorry, I can't promise, but God willing. The parents of Bram can accept it or not it depends on Monica's own mother, not Dinda"

After I finished everything I immediately left Bram mas, because my cooking is finished and I have arranged it on the dining table. I went into my room to take a shower and got ready to go to the boutique as usual. And when I came out, I saw Bram and Monica sitting at the dinner table enjoying their breakfast.

"Hai Dinda, laen times if you cook do not bland like this dong, so it is not good to eat there is no less spicy taste"

"You so mbak Monica wake up early and cook alone to suit your taste mbak, because I do not like spicy and sour dishes Bram also do not like"

"Eh this guy is dikasik tau kok even nyolot anyway, make a sprain.!"

"It's monic early in the morning don't fuss"

"Yes mas but the cuisine is not tasty less spicy"

"Dinda go first mas, Assalamu'alaikum"

"Wa'alaikumsalam, isn't breakfast Din?"

"No, I'll be at work"

That morning I decided to go to the restaurant instead of the boutique, because I wanted to have breakfast first. After I finished breakfast I went straight to the clinic for my therapy, because I have been coming to the clinic of the doctor Yuniar (physician psychologist) for a week, because I can't sleep and am always haunted by an uncertain fear.

From my meditation that afternoon, there was no longer any trouble and turmoil that haunted me. It seems because I have got answers and tried to sincerely so I no longer feel disturbed, yes I still consume sleeping pills if it is difficult to sleep.

After from the clinic I went straight to the hotel where Tange Anggel stayed and where he held a stool show.

"Good afternoon aunt"

"Oh Dinda good afternoon too, oh yeah introduce her model who will show off your dresses"

"Madinda"

"Melinda"

"It's good to see you, Melinda"

"Yes, I'm happy too. And when my aunt showed me the dresses, I was very interested in wearing them and showing them off to everyone. That's why I immediately agreed to it when I was told to be a model"

"Thank you very much for the compliment. If not for the help of Aunt Anggel I can't be like this now"

"You're too low on Dinda. All this for your own sake, because you're a talented person"

"Oh yes my cousin also wants to be able to join and wear your homemade dress, her name is Merisca"

"Of course I can, the more I like the happier I am"

"Ah, thank goodness. I'll call him let him come right away"

All my daily life a little diverting and discouraging my sadness because of the marriage to my two husbands. Namu all can not be denied, if the disappointment that is in me is still unfolding because the polygamous statement of my husband who never saw me even touch me during our marriage, which has been running for almost 1 year.