Without Looking

Women of the Past

"He ...." Zian was beginning to feel confused as well. Guilty and feeling like you don't know what to say, "you come with me first!" he continued to pull Rista's hand.

The woman was dragged to sit. Help to seat Rista. Slowly Zian held both of his shoulders. Sit Rista down later.

Although feeling a little confused, but Rista obeyed Zian's wishes. He sat down as Zian told him to. Rista's feelings were getting tense. Afraid that there was something Zian had already hidden. In fact, perhaps all this time Zian had been hiding something. From what Rista heard, when Zian answered it sounded suspicious. Rista put the stick on the side.

While Zian, he blinked his eyes. Sighing removes the nervousness and then swallows the saliva for a moment. Zian believes it's time. For a response from Rista let it be a business later. Before saying Zian let out a long sigh made Rista even more anxious and thought Zian was indeed having a problem that Rista herself did not know.

"Mas, why did you tell me to sit down? So, do you want a story now, ma'am?" ask Rista.

Tense that felt as if it was being blown away by Rista's question. Holding both hands of Rista, Zian now tilted and stared fixedly at the face of the wife.

"Ris, do you really love me?" ask Zian.

"Why is that?" Rista turned her body. Facing Zian beside him.

"Are you going to stay with me even if I make a big mistake?"

Rista made to link eyebrows. "I mean. What's a big mistake, ma'am?" tanyanya's confused.

Zian sighed. Swallowing saliva at a glance, it felt like this second Zian had to be ready. If Rista would leave him because of this honesty. Not willing, Zian is not willing if he has to lose Rista but continues to lie will not be a solution to what happened. The anxiety and fear that enveloped Zian's heart would forever remain if this matter was not resolved. Ducking down, Zian felt as if Rista was looking at the foolish man who betrayed her.

"Rista, I am a fool, a liar and a man who has the heart to hurt women as good and sincere as you. Honestly I would never, if you left me because of this."

Rista silent. Actually he was confused about the meaning of Zian's words. Zian's words were so serious, Rista listened carefully to Zian's words without intending to interrupt.

"I'll be honest about who that woman is. You'll be mad I know, but I hope you don't leave me because of this. Since I love you Ris, you are the only woman in my life that I truly love. To that woman she is the woman of my past."

"The woman of the past?" cut Rista.

This time Rista dared to interrupt because he felt uncomfortable near Zian's explanation. Women of the past. Hearing that word made Rista remember Zian's conversation last night. Various questions came to Rista's mind. Rista's replica took off Zian's hand, causing Zian to falter but not try to hold back. Hand stiff. Sculpting in place. Looking up at Rista who was confused and looked shocked.

"Does this have anything to do with what you were talking about last night?" ask Rista again.

"Yes." Yeah." Zian lowered his head, but again raised his face a moment after he sighed again. "But, it's all Ris's past. I'll be honest now. Whatever decision you make, I appreciate it. She, Akira is the mother of Chandra and ... Chandra is my son, Ris." - Og Zian.

Instantly it was as if in the rain of a hot-tipped sword. Rista's heart felt blistered. Crushed melting. Zian's lies this time are outrageous. It was not a matter of lies alone, but Zian who did dare to cover everything. Standing up, Rista's feet felt stiff. The hinges on his feet felt dysfunctional to stand. Lemas dominated there, but Rista had to be strong. Zian looked at Rista who was fingering the cane after standing up. He wanted to take a step, but Zian swiftly held Rista's hand.

"Darling!" Anxiously stand up.

"Let go! Why didn't you be honest from the beginning, how long did you hide this?" Rista's breathing started going up and down holding back the anger as well as the pain. "How long, my mom? Or if I didn't, I probably wouldn't say, did I? Who do you think I am? I'm your wife mas. Do I not deserve to know your past? You seem to be covering all of this up. Why mas?" Rista's eyes began to heat up, it felt if he could not bear the clear grains had fallen from there.

"Rista, I don't mean to cover this up. I want to be honest and I'm waiting for the right time. Now I dare to be honest and dare to take any risks." Zian assures Rista.

"Divorce included?"

It was a shock that Zian heard Rista's question. Maybe Zian already knows the risks of this one. However, finding the real reality about this matter is really Zian can not afford. Still holding Rista's hand, now Zian tightened the grip even more.

"You sure? We can talk this out. Divorce is not the best way. I love you the same. It's impossible for me to tell you a story."

"You know mas? Chandra deserves to be with her mother. And her mother wasn't me but Akira, mas. They make mistakes and have to take responsibility. I'm fine, I'll try to avoid you even if it's hard, because I don't deserve you, ma'am." Although with a heart that plaintive Rista tried to strongly say all that. Her lips trembled withstanding the cry. Very tight inner Rista after saying a sentence that really does not want Rista expression.

"Darling, I'm not going to stop you. Akira is just the past and you are my future. You are my wife. I won't leave you behind for the sake of past mistakes" Zian said in a sad tone.

Rista speechless. Unable to say anymore. There was nothing he could say. If you have to be honest, of course Rista does not want a farewell. But how else? Rista doesn't know either. Swallowing Saliva Rista trying to calm down.

"We can't be selfish. Akira is more entitled to you. I do love you, but Akira he was with you first. I'm just a bully between your relationships. Let me go, mas." Rista sighed, "Akira is a good woman, mas" he continued softly.

Zian could feel Rista slowly palpating the back of his hand, after which slowly releasing the grunts he maintained. Sculpt for a moment. After realizing that Rista started to step up, Zian again pulled the woman's hand. Pulling Rista's body until it sank into a trap.

"Dear, I'm sorry. Don't go, Ris! I don't want us to divorce. I don't want to lose you. I'll take responsibility but not by marrying that woman." Zian gently stroked Rista's dilated mane.

Meanwhile, Rista was only able to cry bitterly. His hands tightly gripped the white shirt that Zian was wearing. Ristapun's body shook. Tight, very sick inwardly. The trust that has grown seems to wither because of the late honesty. Feeling fooled is not considered.

"Why are you bad?" lirih Rista is still in a trap.

"I know I'm evil. I'm sorry, honey. You don't cry! I don't want you to get hurt because of me. I won't leave you, I promise. There won't be another woman, you're my only wife."

"I have to what? Be happy? Or wounded? Why do you say it as if you were going to keep it? Why are you such an excellent liar who is good at saying mas?" Rista's voice snapped in tears. "Why am I so in love with you? How do I get you out of here, mas?" continued Rista while questioning.

Zian broke down the embrace slowly. Cupped both hands on Rista's cheeks. Gently remove the tears using the two ends of the fingers.

Can Rista feel the gentle treatment of Zian make the woman feel even more pain. Is this a lie?

"Darling, please don't be sad anymore! I didn't lie. I'm serious about what I said. I sincerely love you. I will never leave you either. It's not just a promise I'm serious about" Zian said.

Squeaking and difficult to speak, Rista spoke a thousand languages. His tongue is too hard to reply. What makes him weak? As if to believe Zian's words.

"Yes, Zian seriously Ris." A woman's voice shifted the focus of two people who were fighting. Zian immediately turned his head to look at the figure of Akira coming out of the treatment room with the help of a wheelchair. Akira approached them.

Just like Zian, Rist turned towards the voice. Slowly Zian took his hand off Rista's cheek. Staring in wonder at the woman who was now beside the two of them.

"Rista, thank you for believing I'm a good person but I'm not a good person. If I hadn't heard your talk, I would have been determined to ask Zian to marry me." Akira smiled and gently grasped Rista's fingers. "But I am now conscious. Nothing can be forced if God does not want to. God could have found me with Zian earlier, but he didn't. Because apparently God did want me not to be with Zian. Almost, I broke a household that was wrapped in love. I'm sorry Ris, but what Zian said was all true. Zian will still be yours. I'm just a woman of Zian's past. For Chandra, you have the right to have it but let me meet him even if only occasionally," Akira said solemnly.

Tears have been shed. However, Akira tried to calm down. Still he held Rista's hand, the woman did not refuse him just silence when his hand Akira held.

"You're mother. You are the one who has the right to Chandra. More precisely you are the one who is more entitled" said Rista with tears breaking. "You better get married raise Chandra together he needs a mother and father figure. For me, let me go. From the beginning I was never in your story."

"Sir Ris, I am the other one among you. I'm the one who has to go. I will go all the way and will not disturb your relationship. I tipped Chandra that's all I asked for," explained Akira who then released Rista's hand. Akira looked at Zian. "Never leave a woman as sincere as Rista! Don't look at the flaws! Deep within him you will never find a heart as pure as he is. I'm sorry I was so presumptuous of you."

Zian did not answer until Akira left them. Zian's eyes, which were staring blankly, now turned to look at his wife. Rista was silent just like him. Maybe Ristapun surprised as well as Zian.

"Darling, you're sorry, aren't you?" Zian held Rista's hand. Staring right in both eyes. "I'm not going to marry him. I just want you to be the only woman in my life."

Slowly Rista fumbled Zian's fingers through his arms, then slowly grabbed the man.

"Let me cry in your arms!" pinta Rista puts her cheek on Zian's chest. Clutching Zian's body tightly and crying there.

Without a doubt, Zian returned to hold the woman he loved the most. Pecking her hair and getting hugs.

"Dear, you can cry in my arms. And never leave me because of this." It felt like Rista shook her head, "I will try to be the best husband and never hurt your heart again. I love you, Ris. Forever," continued Zian and then again kissed Rista.

"I love you, mas."

Rista fighting in Zian's decapitation. However, Zian continued to calm Rista down. Gently stroked her hair to make Rista calmer.

With this incident Zian learned not to go back to lying. Better to be honest even if it's bitter. Then Ristapun realized selfish if he did not give a chance because his heart was sure Zian sincerely loved him. Love is indeed winding but at least Zian never the slightest intention to double it has been a proof of the seriousness of Zian dating even though he used to lie about love. However, the opportunity is not impossible not to give. Confidence in sincerity will surely pay off.

- Finishes

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