Without Looking

Episode 23: Uncomfortable Feelings

Started guessing with the truth of the letter he held. Zian next stepped foot into the kitchen. The place where Bi Maya was sitting daydreaming. Apparently Bi Maya herself was thinking about the truth of the letter. Feeling disbelief Zian who was like a child to him, had once committed a despicable act to the point of having a child from that act. Drink a glass of water back by hand. Sighs later. Breath that feels heavy.

"Bi.." Call Zian.

Climbing Bi Maya heard Zian's voice calling out to her. Then he turned his body and stood up from sitting facing Zian.

"Yes sir." Sahut Bi Maya.

"What did my aunt say to Rista?" Zian asked staring in full search.

"I'm just saying Chandra's son was dumped by her mother and her mother asked her master and Non Rista to adopt her. Sorry sir, I was lying. But, I guess it's wiser than I'm honest." Said Bi Maya a little stammered, still down afraid Zian would scold her.

Zian breathed a sigh of relief. He held both shoulders of Bi Maya gently. His face showed calmness. The originally tense face was now gradually calm. Zian leveled high with Bi Maya after he sighed again.

"Thank God aunt is not honest. Thank you so much bi. Aunt's lie saved me." Reveal Zian after that release the grip on Bi Maya's shoulder.

Smile then Bi Maya, she dared to look at Zian now.

"Yes sir. Equally, then I'm sorry."

Bi Maya turned around about to step away into the room.

"Wait a-bi!"

Bi Maya halted the move. Slowly turning around, there was fear in his heart. Thought Zian might be angry now. Back Bi Maya looked at Zian carefully.

"Yes sir." Bi Maya Sahut.

Zian looked serious about what he was going to say.

"Please! Auntie keep this letter a secret! I'll clean it all up. Let no one else know about this!" Zian whispered, but it could still be heard clearly by Bi Maya.

"Good sir." Bi Maya Sahut.

Next Zian whispered again while clenching the letter in Bi Maya's palm.

"Keep, please auntie throw this letter away!"

With trembling hands held a letter from Zian. Then Bi Maya nodded in understanding. Although in his heart, he felt bad about having to hide something from Rista. The employer is not wrong, but must accept a lie of this magnitude. But again, Bi Maya couldn't be honest, other than doing what Zian told her to do. Back Bi Maya turned around after starting to step back towards the room.

Zian sighed, putting both hands into his pants pocket. His face turned then looked at Rista who was sitting stroking Chandra's hair. Feeling upset by Zian himself. Don't know if it's true or not, if that kid's flesh and blood. Feeling still in disbelief. Thinking in Zian's mind, Akira just wanted to use himself under the pretext of Chandra as an intermediary.

Zian's step-dropping walk down the white-covered floor. Walking quietly to Rista who was sitting on the sofa. He then sat crossed his legs right next to Rista.

"Where is the child going to sleep?" Ketus Zian's.

"In our room, we are. If left alone pity." Rista softly said.

"Let me carry! You go to your room by yourself, let's talk!" Zian firmly moved just like that. Leaving Rista alone in the Living Room. His facial expression showed astonishment at Zian's desire to bang on Chandra and without Zian's consent to carry Chandra away. Both corners of Rista's lips are retracted in a reflex manner. Feeling relieved and happy, maybe Zian will accept the child and they will adopt him.

After smiling happily. Rista decided to stand up. Lifting stick. Leading him forward began to step with the help of that stick. Of course, Rista followed Zian into the room.

Arriving at Rista's room fumbling the mattress. While Zian, he had already put Chandra to bed. Opened a suit attached to his body. Zian hung the suit between his elbows and wrists. He was about to step, but his steps came to a sudden halt as a familiar voice called out to him.

"Mas, you're still here, right?" Asked Rista who had been sitting on the bed.

Zian did not answer. Very lazy to answer Rista's questions that seem trivial and unimportant. He was silent for a moment and decided to answer with Deheman.

"Mas. If you want to take a shower, I already prepared warm water in the Bathtub as well as his nightgown is on the sofa, so you can immediately take a shower. I don't put aromatherapy, because I've been looking for but nothing." Rista explained.

Zian took a long breath. It sounds boring what Rista said. Every time I go home, Rista says it. It felt annoying to Zian. Not caring about the explanation was also Rista's concern. Zian chose to walk out of the room towards the Workspace.

Rista was shocked to hear the door of the room being violently closed by Zian. Wonderful Rista, what's wrong with him all this time? Rista is just trying to be the best wife for Zian. Aware Rista has a deficiency in terms of vision. However, she wished she had never lost her heart's vision to understand her husband. Wipe your eyes for a moment. Withholding tears that might escape again for the umpteenth time. Trying to calm down, sighing set him slowly, so that his heart could calm down. Wishing her heart could be immune with every word and action of Zian. Inching up into the bed. Rista felt Chandra's whereabouts. Brushed the boy's hair after Rista managed to touch his hair.

"Dear, whoever you are. Mommy is so happy that Chandra came to this house. Mother has a temen. May Mas Zian want your Nerima. So, we can play every day." Lirih Rista then again felt and kissed Chandra's forehead.

The boy moved slightly, but his eyes were still tightly closed. Sleep well. Sensing Chandra's movements, Rista rubbed Chandra's front hair back. Groped the boy's forehead and gently stroked his forehead. Lie down next to Chandra, hugging the boy. Feeling calm after hugging Chandra, Rista closed her eyes. Sleep next to the boy.

Early in the morning, after almost all night, Zian felt annoyed to remember what happened. Had to sleep in the Upper Room on his own, because there was Chandra in his room. Plus he kept thinking about the truth of the letter from Akira. This morning Zian was determined to meet Hendri and strafe him with many questions. His feet were perfectly wrapped in black shoes. Also do not forget his neat clothes are ready to slide into the office where he works. However, there was a sense of awkwardness when Zian went to the dining table. He didn't see Rista there. There was only a little boy who claimed to be his son was sitting glancing at Zian at a glance and then looked down again. Chandra seemed to be frightened by Zian's gaze as if he wanted to eat her alive. Seeing Chandra Zian's reaction didn't matter. He tried to focus on his breakfast the next morning

I don't know why Zian felt something was missing. The figure of Rista who used to sit in front of him is now not there. Pissed at Zian himself, probably feeling no interlocutor. Although in fact, it was Ristalah who always talked all this time. He paid a lot of attention when he had breakfast. Angrily Zian threw the substation on the table after which he stood up.

"Where else is the blind man?!" Gerrutu Zian pushed the chair. Then step off the Dining Table.

Don't know where it came from. Worry now binds Zian's heart. Feeling worried Rista went out. Rista did not know the complex road. Zian was about to step out of the house. However, he suddenly heard Rista's laughter from the backyard. Quickly Zian out to the backyard. Slowly his hand slid the glass door. His eyes looked in wonder. He continued, but stopped returning. His ears heard something that upset his heart. But it shouldn't be like that. Silent at Zian's place, not wanting to get close to Rista who was chatting with the man he knew was Satya.

"Yes Sat. I love you too." Rista closed his mouth for a moment, seen listening to the person behind the phone say. "Yes-yes my little brother's a prank!" Said Rista again.

Their conversation was still Zian listened to. Something happened to his heart, like the annoyance of hearing Rista so affectionately say to Satya. Know Zianpun if it shouldn't be a problem. Isn't it with Rista close to Satya, Rista can soon find her true love? Perhaps, Satya is indeed Rista's true love. That way, Rista and Zian will quickly split up. And of course it will make Zian happy, because he finally managed to escape from the blind girl. However, it was not so with what Zian felt at the moment. His heart was slightly touched hearing Rista's conversation. Shocking anger or upset. It might even be another sense that Zian himself did not want to mention jealous. It was a shame that Zian was indeed jealous of Rista. Jealousy is a sign of love, as most people say.

With two hands folded under the chest. He looked carefully at Rista who just ended with a conversation via phone. Slowly Rista lowered the phone from the side of the ear and then put the phone into the pocket of the skirt. Of course Rista was unaware of Zian's arrival. Calmly Rista stepped up to bring herself back into the house. Zian's voice suddenly made Rista stop a step.

"Remain here?" Sinis Zian is approaching.

"Mas!" Rista then continued. "I was calling Satya mas. He said Satya wanted to come here. Can mas?" Said Rista looking hopeful.

Hope Zian lets Satya come to visit their house. Thinking with Satya he could forget a little with Zian's cold attitude towards him. At least, there are people who can hear his complaints.

Stopping Zian's steps, he turned his gaze Upset. I don't know what? What about Rista who didn't accompany him to breakfast or Rista who would bring another man into the house? Zian brushed off everything he didn't understand. Turn around trying not to care.

"Whatever! I said 'you can take any man'. But remember to keep our charade!" Zian's Message. The man then stepped away. His appetite disappeared suddenly. Rista left without saying goodbye. Just walk through the dining table. His feet kept walking out of the house to immediately pick up the car and drove him away from the house.

It feels like he is disappointed. But disappointed for what? Didn't he emphasize that Rista would be free if he got his true love? But, there was such an unease in Zian's heart. Hearing Rista's request earlier. He quickly got in the car. He left the white gold house.