Without Looking

Episode 29: Change Loss

Rista's ship headed for the bed by Zian. Slowly removed Rista's shoulder. Zian's hand turned to take a bowl of warm soup over Nakas. Rista who had been sitting sweetly, slightly frowned when she remembered Zian saying Bi Maya brought food to the room.

"Mas, why are we eating here?" ask Rista.

Zian spooned the soup and then touched the tip of the spoon to Rista's lips. Rista happily accepted a bribe from Zian, he chewed on the vegetables and rice that Zian had fed while waiting for Zian to answer.

"It's okay. I just want you today. This is proof that I want to change and try to be the husband who is responsible for you" Zian said with a sweet smile.

Rista membalas senyum itu. Meski tanpa melihat Zian yang tersenyum, Rista merasakan ketulusan dari apa yang Zian ucapkan. Terasa ujung sendok mulai menyentuh bibirnya lagi. Rista kembali menerima suapan itu. Kening Rista sedikit mengkerut.

"Mas, why don't you eat?" rista asked after swallowing her food.

"I ate too, when I finished your bribe" Zian replied as he put in a bribe for himself.

Rista smiled, but then her smile faded.

"But you didn't lie to me?" rista said she was doubtful.

"Dear, I'm not lying. This is me again nguyah." explained Zian who was chewing. "Udah ah, we don't talk much just yet! You eat again, right? Wanna take what? It's got the chicken, there's Tofu too. What do you want to wear?" he continued while stirring the soup.

"What aja mas. I love it, you eat some more!" Rista smiled sweetly.

Trusting Rista now, her husband would definitely be completely sincere now. There will be no more lies. Zian must have acted sincerely and would have loved her sincerely as well, which was what Rista thought. Thinking every action of Zian is sincerity without a single lie.

Zian just smiled, then returned to feed Rista. Breakfast this morning they did with each other bribes. Zian led Rista to bribe him. After breakfast, Zian picked up a tissue and gently wiped Rista's lips. His eyes were fixed on those tiny pink lips, lips that made Zian feel opium to always kiss him whenever he had the chance. The lower lip of Rista with the tip of Zian's thumb.

"Mas!" rista Mumbles.

There was no reply from Zian, but his fingers began to slide past his cheeks and then crawled towards Rista's neck. The fingers stroked Rista's neck, making the owner sigh slightly. Rista's sigh made Zian crazy, he pulled Rista's neck so that Rista's lips touched his lips which would have been ready to return to taste soft lips. Their distance was so close, the roar of breath of the two clashed against each other.

However, Zian's attempt to kiss Rista's lips again failed, due to a knock on the door outside the room.

"Master, madam I'm sorry to bother you. But, this Den Chandra wants to meet the madam he said. May I come in, madam?" yelled Bi Maya while knocking.

Retracting the hand that had gripped Rista's neck. Zian's efforts failed, he snorted a little annoyed. Zian stood up after that he opened the door to find Bi Maya who was standing with Chandra who was also standing in front of Bi Maya. The boy looked at Zian for a while then looked down fearfully at Zian's gaze.

Zian moved his head to the side hinting to enter.

"Let's go in!" tell Zian in a cold tone.

Chandra looked at Zian once more, but not for long. The boy immediately entered barging when he saw Rista who was sitting on the bed.

"Mother!" chandra shouted immediately running to hug Rista.

Both of Bi Maya's hands holding Chandra's shoulders slid off instantly as Chandra entered barging in. Bi Maya is shocked by herself, because she can't hold Chandra. However, his shocked face calmed down. When Zian said, "it's okay. Aunty can continue aunt's work. Chandra let me take care of Rista." Zian insisted, making Bi Maya understand and slightly nodding her head.

"Okay sir, excuse me." said Bi Maya then passed to the room.

Closed back the door when Bi Maya had passed. Zian then stood in front of Chandra who was treated so spoiled by Rista. Watching every action they take. Rista was as familiar and gentle as she was the birth mother of Chandra herself.

"Mother, Chandla Kangen! Chandra wants bobo ma mama." chirped Chandra looking up at Rista expectantly.

Rista smiled sweetly, she gently stroked Chandra's hair after which said,

"honey, it's morning. How about bobo again, let's have breakfast! Chandra has breakfast yet? Papa Zian was bribing mother soup, Chandra want?" tawar Rista still rubs Chandra's hair.

Zian felt unaccepted, even frowned a little annoyed.

"Papa Zian?" he recalled what Rista had spoken.

Hearing the tone as if rejection from Zian Ristapun asked, "why mas? Nothing, we consider Chandra our son. Not that I have not found his mother, for a while let us be his parents." exclaimed Rista then stood up and held Chandra.

He held Chandra's hand. Lifting him up after that had Chandra introduce herself to Zian.

"Come baby! Same old acquaintance as Papa Zian! You've never met papa Zian!" pinta Rista gently.

Forced Chandra to end his embrace of Rista. Looking up at the face then turned around and looked at Zian who was looking at him sharply. Instantly Chandra lowered his head and again drowned his face in Rista's embrace. Afraid to see Zian's gaze. Chandra's actions certainly made Rista shocked, the woman again gently stroked Chandra's head. Feeling Chandra's tiny hands tighten the embrace.

"Darling why?" ask Rista.

"Fear." Chandra brief.

Rista knitted an eyebrow then asked,

"why afraid, baby? Papa Zian is good, yakan pa?" ask Rista to Zian.

"Hm." dehem Zian brief. The man was still standing in place.

"Mas, you want to accept my proposal. For a while mas. You must love Chandra, he's a nice, funny boy. You are here now!" pinta Rista raised her hand.

Zian understood with Rista's intention, though somewhat objected Zian finally grasped the hand. Ristapun led Zian's hand to hold Chandra's hand. Chandra was still afraid, he looked at Zian who was staring at Rista hesitantly.

"Darling, Chandra now you have papa huh? Papa Zian's. This Papa Zian is kind, he is also considerate. Chandra would have loved papa Zian. Chandra wants to? Dear papa Zian rich Chandra love your mother." said Rista so subtly give Chandra understanding.

Zian was silent to Rista's words. In Zian's heart feeling really bad, seeing a sincere Rista made Zian have the determination to never reveal Chandra's true identity. Zian's mind as if tapped, his feelings grew even more tenuous due to Rista's sincerity. The man then looked at the two beautiful eyes that resembled him. He gently held both Chandra's shoulders. The child just stared inexplicably at the face of Zian who was looking at him gently. A sweet smile was now engraved on Zian's lips. The smile that made Chandra slowly released her embrace on Rista's neck.

"Darling, Chandra wants to have rich dad om Zian?" ask Zian.

Chandra was silent then looked at Rista who was just smiling hearing Zian's question. Chandra who was still innocent, he smiled a little look at Zian after that nodded, a sign he was willing to accept Zian as papa.

Zian pulls Chandra after it takes Chandra from Rista's lap, holding the boy in his arms. There was no rejection from Chandra, the child even hugged Zian's neck back. The child's embrace made Zian stunned to feel a hug from Chandra as if making Zian feel comfortable and like there is an interest in Chandra. A sense that may be like an inner bond between a father and son. Then Zian slightly pinched Chandra's little puffed cheek.

"Now we have breakfast, Chandra wants to be bribed?" ask Zian.

Let go of a hug on Zian. Chandra's hand twitched to reach Rista.

"You're bribed by mother." he whined.

Rista who realized Chandra's voice was on Zian's lap, making Rista fumble. After getting that tiny hand, Rista kissed Chandra's hand for a moment.

"Honey, mama's gonna bribe Chandra huh? But Chandra wants Om Zian to be Papa Chandra?" ask Rista.

"You mother."

Zian smiled sweetly. Feeling this moment is very different from his previous life which was not getting the affection of both parents. His heart felt so calm when he saw a beautiful smile on the lips of the wife. Also, Chandra's laughter was so carefree when Rista tickled the boy's waist, making Zian feel the love that was lacking in Zian's life. Unceasingly a smile continued to be etched on Zian's lips. Spontaneously Zian pulled Rista's body and gently kissed her temple.

"Thank you dear." whispered Zian after peeping Rista.

The woman just bowed down feeling embarrassed, while smiling sweetly.

"What if we had breakfast in the Dining Room? Let Chandra mama bribe you?" pinta Rista's.

Rista then touched the stick by the bed, after getting Rista's walking stick first. Zian watched Rista's every move. Feeling unheard of from Zian's feet, Rista paused for a moment.

"Mas, you're still in them huh? Let's have breakfast!" bring Rista. Zianpun stepped up, he touched Rista's shoulder from behind.

"Yes come!" sahut Zian, after that tailed behind Rista towards the dining table.

The morning was getting more beautiful. After breakfast the three of them went to the backyard. Playing there, Zian deliberately held a mat for them to sit back. A happy smile appeared on Zian's face. Zian's cold demeanor seemed to melt with the actions as well as the tenderness that Rista showed. The woman became special in Zian's eyes. Her cheerfulness also opens up space in Zian's heart to put Rista as a special woman there. Zian's eyes unceasingly looked at Rista who was fumbling for Chandra's whereabouts.

"Where huh? Where's Chandra? Mother does not hear his voice" said Rista while fumbling.

Chandra just shut his mouth holding his laugh, suddenly Rista's hand touched Chandra's leg, his leg tickled Chandra which made the boy laugh loosely. Rista further tickled the tiny leg.

"Where are you going to run? Mother knows where your voice is." Chandra immediately inched closer to Zian, taking refuge behind Zian's body while giggling with laughter.

"Ah, Chandra's voice is here." said Rista who fumbled closer to Chandra's laughter.

Zian's smile incessantly stared at Chandra's cuteness as well as his wife's smile that continued to crack. Such a sweet smile and calm Zian's heart. However, Zian was suddenly flabbergasted when Rista accidentally felt Zian's thigh being thrust forward. Aware of his hand touching Zian's thigh, Rista quickly pulled the hand down and apologized.

"Sorry mas," muttered Rista quietly.

Zian who saw Rista lowered his head just smiled. Feeling that the atmosphere was awkward, Zian without asking Rista's permission immediately pulled Rista's hand and drowned her in a hug.

"Horay! Papa got this mother! Come on Chan here! It's time for you to tickle your mother." Zian cheered melted the atmosphere.

"Mas!" Rista looked troubled, but a smile rose on her lips. Then Rista let out a laugh as Chandra tickled her leg. The woman laughed feeling amused at her feet, she even unconsciously hugged Zian's hand because she was amused and Zian instead held it with a hug. Zian deliberately even more clutching Rista.

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After that day, Zian and Rista became a real married couple. Zian really proved his sincerity in loving Rista. It is undeniable that Rista has apparently succeeded in conquering Zian's heart even though it has not even been a year. The tenderness and affection of Rista made Zian melt, though Zian still felt anxious given the DNA tests he had not yet known. Zian used a sample of Chandra's hair for a DNA test he took while the boy was asleep. Then today it has been about two weeks since the test and the results have come out.

Zian who was in his room was surprised by Hendri who suddenly entered to say hello.

"Excuse me sir, I'm sorry to interrupt. But the results of the DNA test have come out." said Hendri while thrusting a white envelope.

Instantly, Zian shifted focus away from his laptop. Glanced at Hendri at a glance then opened the envelope slowly. It was read by Zian word for word from the results of that test. Zian's eyes widened after reading the test results. He slowly put the letter on the table. Zian sighed, pressing down on the table slightly under his body. Hold the body with both hands. Zian's breath was again heard, a sigh that felt heavy.

"I've guessed this" murmured Zian...