Without Looking

Episode 26: The Heart

A few minutes later, Zian came out of the walk in closet neat with a white shirt and trousers. Looking at Rista, the girl seemed to be squeezing her fingers. It was unclear what Rista was thinking, Zian certainly did not know what his heart was.

It turned out that Rista himself was feeling anxious. In his mind was full of question marks as to what Zian would talk to him about. His heart seemed to be wondering what kind of thing Zian wanted to talk about. There is a fear that Zian will not improve their relationship, but angry because of his behavior earlier. When Zian changed clothes, Rista just remembered there was a possibility that her husband had heard the conversation with Satya, but did Zian not love him? What is he angry for? Zian's actions before changing clothes did not hint at anger, even the man seemed to be gentle. Still squeezed fingers that feel a little sweaty. His anxiety did not go away until he knew what Zian was going to say. Without Rista guessing, someone pulled his hand making Rista instantly stand up. I know it must be Zian.

"Come with me!" Pinta Zian directly dragged Rista.

Forgetting the white stick in the room. A little scared Rista, maybe her husband would be angry and not let her run away with the help of his cane.

Rista felt Zian's hand being pulled off. Then there was the sound of a chair. Before long Zian slowly pushed Rista's body to make the girl stand right in front of the table. Zian's hand turned to hold Rista's two shoulders. Pushing slowly down. Hinted for Rista to sit down. Rista complied and sat down on the chair that Zian had been sliding in.

Next, Rista could only remain silent not knowing what to say. Let it! Let Zian talk first. Just looking down on what Rista did while rubbing his fingers. There was the sound of spoons, garfu, and clashing plates. Rista was sure her husband was eating right now. He tried to calm down and just shut his mouth so as not to say a word.

"Tumben, why don't you bring it? Usually ask a lot of things." Zian suddenly.

Of course Zian was surprised also by the unusual attitude of the wife. Usually Rista would ask how does Zian work or how does his cooking taste? Although indeed Zian did not answer or just answered with Deheman. However, Rista was undaunted the girl always asked with care and tenderness.

Rista was still silent, but then he tried to neutralize his sense of sadness. He must immediately dismiss negative thoughts. Because, in fact, Zian's tone did not sound angry.

"Em, it's okay." Rista replied and smiled sweetly. "How does the cooking taste? Tastier? I gave you the recipe for the same mother Bi Maya earlier." Further.

Zian nodded while putting the rice on the spoon.

"Nob." Brief Zian.

Back to silence after that. No more chat. Zian focused on his food, while Rista he still heard a mix of sounds between touching spoons and forks. The last sound of the spoon and fork made Rista realize that Zian seemed to have finished eating.

Zian wiped his mouth with a tissue. Then looked at the woman before him. Include both hands holding the chin with that hand. Zian sighed for a moment. Rista's innocent face was also the anxiety that appeared on her face, making Zian a little hesitant to speak. However, Zian had to say that Rista did not expect either.

"I've got Chandra's mother's address, so I'll take the child to her mother soon. And soon he'll leave this house." Tutut Zian was serious.

Hearing that made Rista who had lowered her head earlier now raised her face. Feeling disbelief turned out to be an important thing that Zian wanted to convey. It feels sad that Rista's hope of having a little friend at home will end with hope alone. Zian is really looking for Chandra's mother. I even want to bring the boy back. Question after question suddenly appeared in Rista's mind. How could Zian bring Chandra to his mother? While his mother deliberately threw Chandra away? Then will Chandra's mother accept her child? If so, then why did he throw it here? And if not, what is the fate of Chandra?

These questions seem to ask to be asked. With a variety of readiness within. Rista slightly sighed about to refute what her husband said.

"But, how's Chandra? Is he gonna be all right? While his mother deliberately threw Chandra here? Remind me! Fill mail? His mother asked us to adopt him." Lirih Rista did not accept.

Zian was struck by lightning hearing Rista's question. He remembered the letter. How he had been cruel to such a gentle and sincere Rista. With the realization Zian had lied to Rista for the umpteenth time. Zian tried to calmly answer Rista's question. He took a glass of water beside the plate. Drink it for a while after returning to talk.

"I don't know about that. That's why I have to find out. Soon the boy will get out of this house."

"Mas! You have the heart, if his mother does not understand how mas? He's nitipin him onto us. Doesn't that mean his mom doesn't want him?" Rista did not accept.

Zian narrowed his eyes then stood up slightly hitting the table with a palm. Although the soft sound of the punch was still Rista heard making him a little surprised by the shock of sniffing the body for a moment.

"What are you thinking, huh?! Can you take care of the kid? Can't you just see? How do you take care of that kid?" Sentak Zian's.

I don't know, Zian felt so annoyed at Rista's rejection. Feeling very angry considering the child is his child, although it is not certain. However, when remembering Chandra made him feel annoyed. There is a possibility that his business life will also be destroyed if the child is really his child. Not only that, if Rista and her family knew Zian really did not know what to do. Talking about the child seems to talk about his mistakes in the past. And again the most frustrating thing was that Rista wanted to adopt the child. Don't want his anger to escalate. Zian preferred to move away from that place. Take a quick look at Rista. A look full of anger turned pity upon seeing Rista lowered her head and shed tears. Zian closed his eyes while taking a deep breath. Feeling that he was too outrageous, just because he thought about the truth of his flesh blood Zian to the point of yelling at Rista who knew nothing. Sigh again Zian and sit down.

"Sorry." Ogre Zian.

Rista who was holding back cries sounded a hiccup. Trying to speak to express the feelings he feels. It feels very painful, Zian always brings up his shortcomings. Just because Rista can't see doesn't mean Rista can't do anything. Whereas all day Rista tried to take good care of Chandra. Starting from bathing to fondling the child. It was difficult for Rista, but she kept trying. He only remembers what his mother used to say when she bathed Diana as a baby and that he practiced while bathing Chandra. Fortunately because of Bi Maya's help, Rista was able to do it. It was as if Zian did not understand Rista's feelings. Rista just wants to be a good wife and do various ways in order to conquer Zian's heart. But Zian did not understand. Squeezing hands that feel clammy.

"Mas, am I bad? Until you judge me like that? If it's because I can't take care of Chandra. Just calm down! I'll learn to take care of him, don't worry!" Lirih Rista interrupted by tears.

Stunned for a moment Zian heard Rista's words. It seems Zian is indeed outrageous. Zian stood up to step closer to Rista. The man swept away the tears on Rista's cheeks with his fingers.

"That's not what I meant. I'm sorry, but we really can't do the boy's autopsy." Zian said softly.

Sensed by Rista fingers that wiped the tears slowly escaped from her cheeks.

"But why?"

Zian sighed for a moment before replying.

"Because I already know his mother's home address. I'm gonna talk to her mom, she shouldn't throw her son away like that."

Rista was disappointed. Feeling sad because Chandra has to leave and after that Rista will definitely be lonely. Zian who saw that felt pity.

"You don't be sad! The child must be with his mother. We can't be selfish taking care of him." Said Zian then stepped foot leaving Rista alone at the dining table.

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Like this morning, Rista was combing the boy's hair. Chandra appears to be a henchman with a Poly Robot that Satya gave him the other day.

"Dear Chan, like the robot?" Rista asked softly as usual.

"Mother's love, walna bilu rich on tv." Oceh Chandra plays the robot in his hand.

Rista smiled happily at Chandra's reply. His hand was still palpating and gently combing Chandra's hair which was a little. Suddenly his smile faded considering what Zian said last night. Today, Saturday and today Zian will meet Chandra's mother that means Rista will lose Chandra, maybe tomorrow. The boy will go with his mother and leave Rista. Will Chandra still remember her as mother? Rista's reflexes hugged Chandra from behind.

"Darling, if you don't deket Chandra. Chandra's gonna want to be the same mom?" Rista sounded sad.

It felt painful when Rista asked that. Tears fell without him noticing.

"Good mother, dear Chandla mother." Chandra.

After saying that, Chandra turned around and hugged Rista tightly.

"Chandla dear mother." Said Chandra again managed to make Rista become more and more so with her cries. The more Rista gnashed a hug at Chandra.

Rista did not want to let go of the boy. Although not a nobody, but Rista has fallen in love with Chandra's innocence and cuteness.

About a few meters from the Living Room. Zian noticed Chandra and his wife's closeness. There was a question tucked into Zian's mind. Will the woman remain the same, if she knows the child is her child with another woman?

Zian walked over to Rista. Trying not to care about the atmosphere that happened.

"I'll be home later that night. You don't have to wait for me to come home!" Zian then walked out. At first glance he saw Rista who was still hugging Chandra.

Can Rista hear well what Zian said. He was getting sad. Convinced of his heart, Zian will immediately meet Chandra's mother after returning from work.

From morning to evening even at night Rista did not want to be far from Chandra. The girl continued to play as well as bathing and feeding Chandra. Bi Maya who already knew everything, felt sorry for Rista. Rista is so gentle, well. She loves her husband's son so much. Even if Rista knew, of course Rista would be very sad and disappointed. Trying to understand with the reason that Rista gave. Bi Maya lets go of everything Rista does with Chandra. Feeling disappointed was also angry at Zian, but Bi Maya tried to calm down and be patient. What power he is only a domestic assistant, no right to interfere in the affairs of the employer.

At night, Rista still did not sleep. Although Zian had already confirmed that not to wait, but Rista kekeh wanted to wait for her husband. Sitting in front of the Pantry Table, Rista lowered her head to face on the table.

"Non, what's non-sleep?" Ask Bi Maya.

Seeing Rista who was down on the table, made Bi Maya think Rista slept there.

"M." Mmm." Rista Sahut.

The girl raised her face after that fingered the table looking for something there.

"Non find what?"

"Drink bi, where do I drink bi?" Rista's question was still palpating.

Bi Maya swiftly put the plate and cloth in hand. After that his hand turned to reach the glass filled with water beside the spoon container. Give the glass to Rista.

"It's non."

Rista took the glass that Bi Maya had placed on the palm of her hand. Drink later. Bi Maya glances at Rista, continuing the work after Rista feels fine. It was only about a few seconds that he turned around, all of a sudden...

Crack...

The sound of the glass breaking made Bi Maya startled to instantly turn her body around. He saw broken glasses strewn on the floor. His eyes widened to see Rista's hand hovering above the shard of the bell. Bi Maya quickly approached Rista. Anxious too, afraid he felt.

"Astaghfiullah! Isn't it okay?" Bi Maya asked worriedly, she pulled Rista's hand which floated up. Examining every part of Rista's palm. Sighing in relief then knowing the hand was fine.

Bi Maya looked at Rista's shocked face. I might have heard the glass fall.

"Non is okay? Why is it like this non?"

"I also don't know bi, maybe too late nyimpen glass so fall." Guman Rista slightly stammered then held onto his chest. "Bi, how do I feel bad, bi? Is this just my hunch? I'm afraid something happened to Mas Zian. He hasn't come home yet, but it's too bad for bi." Rista.

Bi Maya quickly hugged Rista. Drowning Rista's face in her arms.

"Non don't think negative! It was just a hunch. Sir must be fine. I'll be home soon too." Bi Maya.

A little calming what Bi Maya said. Rista did not answer only to hug the woman who gently held her.