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Dream Confection

Almost a month this Neng prepared his dream confection in his rented, which was originally a warehouse owned by Ibu Yuni measuring 4 x 10 meters in magic into a production room.

Early production Neng bought 5 sewing machines two screwdriver machines and one machine specifically for buttonholes and button pairs, employees Ibu Yuni, Mpok Atun and Ibu Ani, respectively, Neng works with a garment company that is far from his contract.

But after walking for one month there were five middle-aged former employees of Ibu Yuni who came to ask Neng for a job, they are mostly single parents and become the backbone of the family and are old enough so applying for a company is not accepted.

"We are paid whatever we want, ma'am, the important thing is that we can work and get halal money" said Ibu Sumi, a friend of Ibu Yuni.

Neng smiled and felt pity especially called by Bu by him, "Call me Neng Mitha aja Bu, like my mother and Bu Rt,"

"That means we're accepted to work here, right, Neng Mitha?"

"Okay, ma'am, but starting work on Monday, I'll buy a sewing machine first."

"Thank you Neng Mitha."

This Sunday Neng began looking for a sewing machine accompanied by Ani's mother, the stomach that began to look enlarged turned out to make Neng more easily tired, must often stop for rest and increase nutritional intake for the baby in the womb because Neng is often hungry quickly.

"Eat first, son, don't be too forced to walk,"

"Yes, Mom, I feel so hungry when I just ate two hours ago,"

"That's grilled chicken, and next to it is meatballs, which one to choose?"

"I want to eat opor ay--?" Neng did not continue his speech because at once remembered Mr. Al who really liked what chicken opor more added crackers.

"Why not continue Neng Geulis nonsense, if there is a chicken opor there Nak, warteg at the end of the road there,"

Neng enjoy chicken opor rice, sambal terasi and crackers while covered in tears, it has been almost four months not to meet the father of the baby in the womb sometimes there is a sense of longing that can not be expressed, either because of changing hormones or love that grows in his heart.

Although his mind refused, repeatedly convinced his heart not to think about the past he wanted to forget but heart beat therapy still could not be denied by Neng.

"Neng Geulis why are you crying, son?" mother Ani asked very worriedly.

"It's okay Mom, I don't know lately I feel cry and often want to cry for no reason" replied Neng.

"Sometimes it's like that, it's baby-congratulations, you should check with your doctor, you can see my grandson or daughter,"

"Yes ma'am, let's take me to the hospital tomorrow ma'am!"

Done eating Neng shopping for the needs of his confection, feel very lucky his business within two months can run smoothly, even now will add more employees.

The next day Neng was ready to go to the hospital, but Ibu Yuni enthusiastically wanted to come to the hospital, "Neng Mitha, I also want to come, I want to see a grandson or a daughter!"

"May ma'am, but you want to ride the angkot?"

"No problem, oya Neng Mitha should be getting ready to move home addresses and make family cards, mumpung your unborn baby." suggested Ibu Yuni when they were already in the angkot.

"Would you help me make it less clear about something like that,"

Arriving at the hospital, doing registration, as before Neng filled the husband's name with only his first name without using his last name.

Sitting waiting in front of Doctor Ogym's room, Neng's heart felt very relieved, feeling that someone was paying attention unlike when he checked his own womb without anyone accompanying.

When his name was called Neng was relieved that no one looked strangely at him because of the two prospective grandmothers who were chasing him.

Please sit Madam, waaah entourage of oma candidates to accompany?" joking Doctor Ogym while greeting the patient and the mothers who accompanied Neng.

"Iya Dok, who is enthusiastic even the grandmothers," replied Ani's mother.

Checked carefully by the Doctor and assisted by one nurse, increasingly makes the grandmothers more curious about the condition of the baby in the womb.

"Let's use USG first, so that the curiosity of oma is answered," said Doctor Ogym while allowing Neng to climb into the bed gurney.

After finishing smeared with jel Doctor began to move the tool he held in the belly of the pregnant woman.

"Waah already seen oma, your granddaughter champion, congratulations yes,"

"Thank you Doc, my grandson boy," Bu Yuni replied enthusiastically.

"Congratulations Neng Mitha, I'm so happy that I can be healthy until I give birth to Aamiin." Ani's mother was also happy.

"Receive Kadih Bu," replied Neng with tears.

His heart felt very unsettled because the more days his mind could not be separated from the father of the baby in his birth, the more his desire to meet the more he made his chest tight, tight, trying to hide the feeling of meeting the desire meeting because it is no longer possible to meet.

Neng only tried to think rationally and often monologued himself with his son while rubbing his stomach especially when he was alone in his room, "Don't ask for things that Mami can't fix Nak, Nak, we can't meet Papi, we have to be sincere, son, don't make Mami feel guilty because of the desire to meet Papi, I'm sorry, dear Mami, Mommy can't meet if you meet her, remember don't drool after birth."

After Neng employees increased, production grew with the increase in windfall, which was originally the result of stitches sent through online ojek courier services now have to use pic-up cars, so Neng decided to buy a pic-up car for his production transportation.

"Neng Mitha, who's going to drive his pic-up car?" ask RT Mother after Neng as finished buying a car wakaupun only used cars never buy in the show room.

"I'm Mom, who owns this car, promised to teach me how to drive and straighten out all the SIMs,"

"You're pregnant, son, what if something happens?" worried about Ani's mother.

"Don't worry Mom, I can and I can, the important thing is please pray, don't think of anything,"

"Be careful!"

"Yes Ma'am, I originally wanted to buy a motorcycle, but after thinking again it would be more useful to buy a car, let alone the owner offered to teach me to drive."

Finally, even though she was pregnant, in just two weeks Neng was able to drive her pic-up car, and had a SIM with the help of the previous owner.

Bu RT has also made a Family Card for Neng and Ani's mother, with the help of the RW chairman, Neng found the facility because indirectly he helped the residents get jobs even if they were old enough.