What is my fault, sir?

Stay at Hotel

Almost dusk Neng arrived in the city of Bogor, riding some city transportation aimlessly made him tired. Just carrying a bag of rangsel with a few clothes stel, savings book, diploma and money case in the wallet finally Neng decided to stay at a hotel in the city of Bogor. Check-in for three days of paying with cesh money and ordering a meal at a restaurant in the hotel using the phone, fortunately all day he did not feel nausea and vomiting at all.

After taking a shower and enjoying dinner dishes are fried rice sea food and avocado juice. Neng bemonolog himself while rubbing his stomach, "I'm sorry Mami ya Nak, from now on we will fight both, we will be happy both, Mami will fight for both of us, don't bother Mami, ok!"

In the morning Neng began planning her next move. The first thing Neng did was to visit the mall in the city of Bogor. Buy mobile phones, clothes, pulses, internet data packages, food, snacks, cosmetics and daily supplies.

Neng enjoys her day of solitude without burden, sincerely, taking off all her past and determined to meet the future with the fetus that is still in her stomach. At midday Neng returned to the hotel where she was staying, after eating and taking a short break. He starts activating his phone, intending to contact Aunt Minah and Aa Jun, looking for a note paper of their cell phone number in his rangsel bag.

But unfortunately the paper was lost, it was dismantled the bag rangsel but still not found. Neng could only take a deep breath and monologue himself, only able to talk to the fetus that was in his stomach, "Now we are really just burtwo Nak, no Uncle Jun, no, Grandma Minah and the others."

Neng starts surfing looking for a suitable place for her to live, intending to find a job that suits her last education, as Neng intends to continue her ideals after giving birth. In the area around Jakarta and surrounding areas, there are many confection companies. Looking for information on confection companies that work with the surrounding community, doing stitches can be done at home and is not bound by time or employment contracts.

Neng had already marked four suitable places for him to live and work according to his plan. After that Neng also looked for a university that was in accordance with his ideals. I hope to go to college one day after giving birth.

The last day of the hotel stay before check-out Neng went to the clinic to have her pregnancy checked. At the beginning of registration Neng was confused to have to fill out the form because it must include the husband's name. Finally Neng filled out the real name of the father of the baby but without his last name is Alfarizi without using Zulkarnain.

Many pregnant women who are checking their pregnancy are accompanied by their husbands. There are also those accompanied by his mother, only Neng who is not accompanied by anyone. After waiting for a while Neng's name was called by the sisters.

"Mrs Ningtiyas Paramhita!"

"Yes my Sister."

Neng walked into the obstetrician's room alone, many looking in surprise including the nurse who had just called him. "Good morning Doctor," said Neng politely.

"Good morning, you alone, where's her husband?" doctor Obgyn asked as he extended his hand to shake hands,

"My husband has left for work, Doc," replied Neng.

"All right, Madam ...?" the doctor said he had not been able to continue his speech was cut directly by Neng.

"Call me Mitha Dok!"

"Ooo Mrs Mitha, in check from the beginning yes, because it's the first time to come to our clinic."

"Yes Doc."

Assisted by the nurse, the examination is initially checked for blood pressure, weight, height and questions and answers about allergies or other diseases around pregnancy.

"Good Doc."

Neng riding in the bed gurney. Lying on the auxiliary by the nurse and opening the aera of her stomach. Dabbed the jellies on her stomach by the sisters.

"Well let's start yes, you can while looking at the monitor screen, ok!" doctor Obgyn said the woman while moving the tool in her stomach.

Neng nodded and smiled. Concentration of viewing the monitor screen without blinking. Although the screen is only black and white but clearly visible there is a small clot in the middle of her uterus.

"Here is the fetus has started to grow, you can see it, the age is 8 weeks," said Obgyn Doctor again.

Neng shed her tears looking at the growing fetus in her womb. Just living alone now this made her as if she did not feel alone now after seeing the fetus move in her womb. Moreover, Doctor Obgyn began to harden the volume and heard the sound of a strong heartbeat.

"Why are you crying, ma'am, this should make you happy?" ask the curious nurse.

"I'm crying because I'm happy, Sus," Neng replied as she wiped her tears.

"Well, I printed her USG photo, which she showed to her husband after work."

Neng got down from the bed gurney after cleaning the remaining jel in his stomach. Sit back in the chair in front of Doctor Obgyn. "Has there been any complaints all this time, madam?"

"Only nausea and vomiting in the morning Doc, but these two days have begun to diminish."

"Ok, I made a prescription to reduce nausea, vitamins and do not forget to control every month to monitor the development of the fetus."

"Yes Doc, thank you."

Get out of Doctor Obgyn's room to the dispensary to redeem the prescribed medication. And directly back to the hotel using the car that was booked through the online application.

At the hotel Neng lay down his body while continuing to look at the photo USG in black and white while covered in tears, rubbed his stomach many times and talked to the fetus in his womb, "Son, "Son, Mami loves you very much, only you have Mami, forgive Mami we will only live alone, just alone, but Mami promises to give a lot of love even without Papi accompanying us, Mami hopes you will understand our situation."

While lying in bed Neng saw the television show there was a young pregnant mother drinking pregnant milk made by her husband with affection. Neng just smiled wryly while rubbing his stomach, "No need to leave, son, later Mami bought milk like on the television, what would she want to taste?"

Neng sat down and got out of bed and answered the question himself, "Ok, vanilla and chocolate, let's buy all the check-outs from the hotel."

The time showed at three in the afternoon, Neng started packing because it was time to check-sea from the hotel. And towards the first target that he will go to find a contract and a job that is suitable for him according to the information he got on the internet.