Wedding Story's

Eighty-Two (Reality and Loss)

My chest was hummed to see the condition of my fadil brother who was lying weakly in the hospital gurney. There is no more strong and strong brother Fadil. His body is thinning thin as the day goes by with the disease he suffers.

Leukaemia

My feelings were shattered when I learned that fact. The deadly disease that gnawed at Fadil's body was terrifying to me. The possibility of what might happen continues to haunt my mind.

" Mr Renata"

My conscious gaze was staring at the situation of the fissile sis from the crack of the glass door, disturbed by the call to my name.

She, Kartika who greeted me with her own eyes.

" What's up?" I asked, by putting aside my hurt feelings towards my honey.

" I'm the same Mas Fadil was not actually married Ma'am"

My forehead shriveled hearing his words

" Mas Fadil take me to his house only on the basis of responsibility to the late Father. At that time, Mas Fadil accidentally grazed the father. Before you leave, you leave me with Mas Fadil. Because you're afraid I'm gonna live a kara"

I'm starting to understand Kartika's plot "Then?"

" I didn't want to be invited by Mas Fadil at first, but Mas Fadil begged me to come with him and" Kartika paused his sentence

" What?"

" Pretending to be Fadil's wife"

My tears can't stand anymore. What does it mean

" What reason?" Overshipped.

" In fact, it is Mas Fadil who is more entitled to tell Renata the same. But, I'm afraid Mas Fadil doesn't have time to explain it as well"

" Why exactly?"

" Mas Fadil wants Mbak Renata to hate Mas Fadil, so that Mbak will not fall when Mas Fadil failed to fight his disease mbak"

Be ill. It hurts so bad. Why I was the last person to know about my husband's condition.

" Every second Mas Fadil always asks about Mbak, his son. Even Mas Fadil also asked people to supervise every move Mbak's movements"

I can't stand my own anymore. My legs feel soft like jel.

" And the peak, when Mas Fadil found out that Mbak was bleeding and was taken to the hospital. Mas Fadil was very disappointed in himself. And refused to continue chemotherapy again'

" Why did Mas Fadil refuse" I said

" Mas Fadil assumes it is no longer useful for him to continue to live, if only to keep the child and his wife can not"

" Hiks why you're not being honest with me. I'm your wife"

My gaze felt a little clouded "Kartika, please lead me to sit on the chair" I said softly. I'm afraid I'm gonna fall.

" Oh my goodness. This is Renata why?" I heard Mama's voice squealing with worry

" Kartika has told me everything Ma. Renata's mom has a right to know"

" Mother.. Sister kangen"

I smiled faintly at the words of my daughter "Mother is also dear"

" Drink first Re" Nana said, handing him a bottle of mineral water.

After drinking and squinting my eyes for a while. My condition is more stable.

" Sister mother apologizes for not being able to attend sister's school" I said to Fiona who was already leaning spoiled next to me.

Fiona nodded "Sister knows. Said mommy again in the hospital"

I glanced at Mama "Mama also knows Renata" said Mama

" Onty Nana has also told sister, but onty forbids Sister to meet mother when mother in care. Our mother is also treated here. So I just skipped from the door"

I just realized that this hospital is the same hospital I was treated for. Then I glanced at Nana asking for an explanation as to why she forbade my beautiful child to meet me. And the master just smiled an indistinct smile.

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At nightfall, I still faithfully wait for Brother Fadil in his room. Mom and the others have gone home. My mom also advised me to go home. But I still want to be here. How can I calm down at home if my husband is dying from his illness.

" I don't like the way you do it. You think I've been the same happy kid all along. Fayyadh is looking for you constantly, he misses you, his father Mas"

" HIX. You wake up. Come on. I know you're strong, I miss hearing your voice Mas, Ayoo wake up"

Niente. None of my words. Let's just say I'm crazy expecting a comatose person to respond to everything I say. But, some say that the person who is in a coma can still hear the events nearby. But I also don't know for sure about his fame.

My empty sad gaze is now wide open when I see Fadil's eyes slowly open "Mas.." I said.

Fadil looked at me softly. No words came out of his lips

" I'm calling the doctor, yes, mas"

Brother Fadil shook his head "I'm sorry Re"

  

I shed my tears when I heard the first sentence of Brother Fadil

" I'm sorry you. I want to keep on with you. You must be healed. The child is waiting for you at home"

" I'm weak Re, I don't feel strong anymore"

I threw away my sight. It seems that this heart does not like to hear Fadil's brother say that.

" I love you" Lirih Fadil

" If you love me, let's get excited. You can definitely heal up"

Brother Fadil shook his head "It feels so sad. I'm not strong"

I looked at him not like "You can leave me with a child. But you made them small but no father"

" Hiks.you have the heart, The child in my stomach was born without a father. You got a ha?"

Sis fadil set her breath that faltered "You are a strong, great woman. You can take care of our children"

The tears of my fadil brother that fell further sliced my heartache.  I'm whipping his cuddle. A hug I've been missing for the past few years, and I'll probably always miss. Later

" Papa I'm coming, Re"

I cried even more with the last words. I looked up at Brother Fadil who smiled "I love you" .

I screamed as the big sister closed her eyes "doctor, nurse please"  

" Mad. Wake up you mas. I haven't forgiven you. Wake up mas"

" Excuse me ma'am. Let us check the patient's condition first"

" Doctor, my husband must have woken up. Sister wake up my husband"

" Mother. The patient mom is calm. Let the doctor see it"

" Innalillahi wa innailaihiroji. Record the date of his death"

" Good doctor"

" DOCTOR SPEAKS WHAT. MY HUSBAND IS NOT DEAD. DON'T GIVE NGADA DOCTOR" I cried hysterically

" Patience mom. It's already the will above"

" Sister, I'm pregnant. My son is also waiting for his father at home"

" They're kids, they still need their dad" I said, getting weaker.

The nurse could see me looking at me with pity. Maybe anyone who sees me will be sympathetic to my situation like this.

" Why does this sick person love you. I'd rather you be with someone else than you leave me for good this way"

" I'm not ready to lose anymore, ma'am"

After that my vision was blurry and I didn't realize how else the next situation would be.

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Say goodbye with Mas Fadil Gaes huhuhu