Wedding Story's

Seventy-nine (surrender)

" Re.nghamunny what?" Nana's greeting surprised me who is currently in the middle room. I've been living in my mother's house for a week with fayydh and faza.  His house is not what it used to be. Due to the fire last time, the fadil brother repaired this house to be wider and certainly better than before the fire.

" No dodging na" I replied to the nana who came with the faza.

" I'd like to say goodbye to Re. Going to the cafe, it's over lunch time anyway" said Nana while handing the faza to my sling. Surely I received the faza straight into my lap.

" Kok has not bobo noon anyway son.abang aja already bobo loh" faza even laughed when I spoke. I'm starting to understand my beautiful child when I talk.

Nana moved to grab her brown leather sling bag, and immediately went back to the cafe to work. " Na, tomorrow we go to fiona school" I said before Nana really left.

" Why what?" Nana asked with a lift next to her eyebrows.

" Fiona's school will receive a report tomorrow"

Nana exhaled slowly "sure?"

I nodded definitely "What to doubt. I want to squirm my son. Wrong?"

Nana nodded "okay. Tomorrow I'm in the morning" break up nana.

After Nana left home, she went back to silence. Now it's just me, faza and fayyadh. Faza is sleeping on my lap. It's supposed to be Faza's bedtime.

I stepped slowly carrying the faza into the room. Honestly now make a sling faza aja it feels difficult, because the stomach is getting bigger. But inevitably it still has to be carried. Faza has not been able to make the way "Sleep well, my mother's child" kisses the forehead of the faza and fayyadh who sleep next to each other.

" father.later play ya same fayyadh. Once ajaa. fayyadh has gone well"

My movements stopped when I heard the fayyadh rapprochement. My heart hurts so much. As soon as the miss of fayyadh to his father until the dream. We stayed here for a week, even though the fadil brother never visited, asking his son over the phone was not. Behold, what a fatal mistake I have made so bad brother put his hatred on me.

****

The sound of rain splashing on the zinc filled the silence in the afternoon this afternoon. It's already starting the rainy season. Some days every day the rain comes in a row, sometimes inhibiting activity but Rain is a grace that must be grateful not.

Hearing like someone was on the porch, I peeked out of the window. It turns out there is a meatball trader in the shade. Indeed, the terrace of this house after the renovation became wider. There is no fence for this house. It was my request intentionally. Because I think the house that is not fenced it seems more friendly than the house that is fenced.

My hungry soul so thrashed around imagining spoon after spoon of hot meatball sauce eaten when it rains like this must be steady. Be me out to fulfill my wish at this time. Put another child to sleep.

" Bang, the meat is 1 portion" I said to the seller who was a little surprised by my arrival.

" can mbak. Wrapped yes" I nodded.

" i'm sorry, ma'am, hitchhiking here. It happened to be the nearest shady place" said his meatball brother was not tasty.

I smiled "nothing bang. Just relax" I said as I continued to pay attention to his brother who was very good at preparing a serving of meatballs for my order.

" how much bang?" I asked after seeing my meatballs were finished wrapped.

" no need to mbak. Consider me a shady payment here" refused his meatball brother.

"  I don't want to bang. I will buy. So this is the money" I said, handing over a fifty-thousand note, after which I turned away "this is the excess money" shouted his meatball brother.

" make a brother" I said with a brief smile.

I walked into the house slowly. My feet were wet with splashes of rain outside. The core also felt slippery earlier.

A plastic package containing meatballs I carried with passion towards the kitchen. I forgot about my feet that were still a little wet.

BUGHHS

Balance disappeared. It felt like a dream, suddenly I had fallen on my stomach on the floor.

" Allah.please.please" I murmured. It really feels so painful.

" Please.." I shouted a little strongly. I hope someone hears my screams.

" Mass fadill.please our son's mass"

" Fayyadh.please mother son" I cried hoping fayyadh would hear me.

" Please.O Allah help me" I murmured more and more. There's nothing else I can do but surrender. And eventually my vision faded until everything went black.

****

The pain in my stomach made me realize, I remember what brought me to end up in this hospital room.I thought it was just a dream, it was indeed reality.

my hand reflexes to my stomach.I breathe a sigh of relief when I feel my stomach is still bloated. At least God is still kind enough to keep the fetus in my stomach.

" I'm sorry mommy, son.. Mommy almost did you harm" I explained as I continued to gently rub my stomach

" Healthy continue mother's child"

The clear liquid that came out of the eye patch can no longer be held. crybaby indeed. but honestly in conditions like this I need support from fadil. From someone I can't get his name out of my heart, even if it hurts too much.

" Children are alone at home" I muttered as I remembered the last time fayyadh and faza were asleep. I tried to raise children their age unable to be left alone at home.

" Want to do re.." Nana walked quickly to me.

" My son, na. alone at home.I have to go home" I said

nana stopped me who was about to remove the infusion needle from my hand "Lo hasn't recovered yet - don't be crazy!!!"

I was stunned to hear the snaps coming out of nana's mouth "Na. I'm not strong anymore na, I want to give it up na" isakku.

" Diem. do not have to talk that is not cool. now focus the same situation lo. your child is safe with my mother" said Nana.

I lie back with tears that keep flooding "Mas fadil no nengokin me ya na?"

" Sleeping re. do not need ngarepin impossible.lo still ngarepin men like him. Which husband who has the heart to digelantarin the same child his wife who is pregnant. jerk" said emotional nana.

" I don't think my son likes you, you're talking about his father"

nana suddenly rounded her eyes did not understand "this is in the stomach immediately kicked the eardrum" I said.

" Daughter onty, sorry onty yes.but your father is evil as your mother nak" Now nana rubbed my stomach while inviting the fetus in my stomach to talk.

" Thank you na"

" Make?" Ask nana

" Make everything you've done to me. I don't know if for example there is no lo. I think it'll be a long time ago blush" I said.

" Here you are, do not have to melow. now the pregnant woman must be cured, so she can go home"

" Couldn't go home today?" I asked to remember tomorrow I want to attend an event for rafor fiona.

" Not to be sad"

" Morning is na"

nana breathed a sigh of rage "Yes so much rest, so I can go home, but if tomorrow morning I can't."

" Tomorrow fiona for the report card na. I have to come"

" Fiona has no shortage of people to make her there Re"

" yes, but it's different. I don't want fiona disappointed na"

Nana finally relented "Liat tomorrow.if circumstances allow, we go home" said nana who made me instantly excited.