Wedding Story's

Forty-Three (Decisions)

It's my third day in the postpartum hospital. As long as I am still waiting for the arrival of the brother fadil that I feel will only be in vain. The promise to return was just to nenangin me at that time, make me hope. And back to pain because it was decided a mere hope.

" Mother, kiss the grandpa" Rengek fiona from down there to me. I smiled at fiona "Dedeknya again bobo kak, later again yes"

Fiona blushes her lips because she doesn't want "Whose sister is here?" Ask Fiona who was alone in my room

" Same oma"

I smiled bitterly. Mama's still mad at me about me calling fadil's brother dead. Coming to the hospital just to send food, see his grandson bentar. After that, go home. Talk to me soberly. Now I feel really alone

I looked at my little son who was lying next to me. His peaceful face while sleeping persisi like his father. I'm pregnant, I'm nervous, and maybe I'll raise him alone, but I don't have any resemblance to my son at all. Sadly, fortunately his father was handsome. At least I'm proud to have such a handsome son like his father.

" Mother.want an apple" Fiona handed over the apple that was near the hospital bed I was in. I know what Fiona means, have the apple peeled.

" take the knife, brother" I ordered Fiona

I peeled the skin of the apple with my heart, while hearing fiona's chatter about many things. Sometimes I respond to her words that I need to respond to.

" Good day mama mudaa"

I rolled my eyes lazily seeing who was frenzied from the door there "Na, my son is sleeping huh. Shame cry, I plug your eyes using a knife" Sinisku while directing the knife I still hold to peel the apple fiona.

Nana chuckles, want me to cuss a gun or a machete like will not fear him. Even the action is considered like a joke.

" Silent dong re. Not very"

" Onty nana what bring" Cheers fiona splashy. It's a habit, if you come always bring a gift for fiona. So yes fiona is a habit and always collect gifts to nana.

" Be calm dear, onty where may forget the same pounding onty super duper this beautiful" said nana while busy with the package baroque that she was carrying earlier.

" Sister, his voice" Tegurku on the fiona who had jumped up and jumped excitedly got a gift from nana

" Mother you envy" whispered nana to the fiona I could still hear. I glared my eyes at Nana. Can he get me the same rosipin as my own son

Fiona giggled at my reaction. That's the kid that one. If there is nana, I don't need me anymore. Want to keep going onty.

Fiona was busy with the barbie that Nana brought. I think I can open a toy store. Fiona toys are a lot. I like to get dizzy sometimes where I want it.

" Yes.."

Nana took her eyes off the fayyadh natapin, my little son who was a handsome bobo, turned to look at me

" Later help clean the mother's house"

Nana frowned "Why, does anyone want to nquatin?"

I nodded "I'm"

Nana glared at "Emang at her home oma fiona why?"

I hesitated. I thought about this from last night. And perhaps this decision is the most obvious one.

I smiled bitterly "I'm who na. Fadil doesn't know where?. I want to live there."

Nana shook her head in disbelief "lo is the house's son-in-law re.., Lo has the right there" Nana said, stressing her sentence

" The daughter-in-law who had to be exactly"

" Why the hell re, all this time I saw you good. Why is it like this now?"

" I want to open a new page, organize my heart and new life with my son, without the presence of mas fadil" I said

I looked at Nana who was staring at me pity. I don't want to expect a fadil anymore. Maybe he was happy with fania, the love of his past.

I immediately stared at aran fiona who was still cool with his new toy "I brought it"

" Lo sure, his oma ngizinin you take him?"

I shook my head slowly. I'm not sure of my intentions. But fadil's brother has nitipin fiona on me. Fiona is now my responsibility

" It depends where Fiona wants to live. If he doesn't want to come with me, no problem. The important thing is that he is happy, I am happy too. Yes, although heavy, but I can what?"

Nana has mewek, her tears have been stirred "Don't cry na, ntar fiona heboh clay onty his favorite nangis" Tegur ku. If aja fiona sampe clay, behh berabe his business. Could he cry. And I have to bother making nenangin.

" I can't tell you anything but continue to support your decision"

" Don't hesitate to ask me to help re.."

I was overwhelmed by Nana's words. If we had not lost the fayyadh who was still a henchman to guarantee the eyes, surely we both had embraced a spoiled embrace like teletabis that. But, since there was a fayyadh still sleeping, his embrace in the cancle aja first. There's still another time.

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I looked at my mom who was busy cleaning up my stuff to take home. This afternoon I can go home. But, I still hesitate to pass on my decision to mama. I was afraid to think about what my mother's reaction was.

" lady..Rere went home to mommy's house"

Mama suddenly stopped her activities that again made up clothes, staring in my direction

My nyaliku slightly shrieked at the gaze of mama, mama still did not mengubris my words.mama continued her activities nyusupin my clothes and fayyadh.

" Rere seriously ma" continued me again because there was no response from mama

" Why?"

" Rere wants to be independent ma"

" Want to be independent what the same heartache mama" refuted mama quickly

I shook my head quickly. No, I don't feel the same pain as Mom. I even miss talking in front of my mom

" Not ma.. Rere is not at all hurt by mom. Just, rere ma-"

" If you stay at your mother's house, you will lose your responsibility" said Mama quickly

I smiled bitterly. This is what I want, not a burden for my mother to be equally papa again

" Yes, no papa. Insha Allah rere can" answered I'm sure.

Mama breathed her disappointment. I know my mother felt disappointed at my decision, only my mother did not hold me back at all to stay at her house. Brarti I've been a burden all along.

" Fiona rere bring ya ma" I said afraid of fear

" No. You're not who he is"

Nyess. It felt so good, hearing my mother's words. " Don't be so smart. Want you to feed me what my granddaughter is" Cynical mama.

It hurts so much to see my mom coming to me. Very wrong talk me, until you can make this mushroom.

" If mama doesn't allow rere to bring fiona, Rere will try sincerely. The important good fiona both keep rere already relieved."

I drew my slightly decapitated breath holding back my tears that wanted to break "Thank you for all this time ma. Unfortunately mama ke rere will never rere lupain"

Mama ignored me, mama busied herself with other things. I don't know what else to do. But I'm relieved, I've spoken directly to my mother about my decision to stay alone.