TriAngels

TA 53

TA 53

The day after I nemenin kak Dea in the hospital he was taken home, Bang Gama is also still faithful nginep at home Kak Dea, I was ngizinin aja, although nyesek, but yaudah, yaudah, gag is also useful if you want to protest. And I'm really used to all this.

Every waking up I always encourage myself to be strong. Because I think who else would be excited if not myself. Sometimes I find it funny with my marriage and Bang Gama, what a marriage really like this.

even we rarely communicate if it's not really important, I don't know, I'm sick of it…

“Dek...” call Bang Gama while holding my hand.

Tonight he stayed at home, I was shocked at first, rather lazy when he was home, but obviously I did not show it, he could have raged all night.

“why?”

“thank ya”

“Create?”

“You were when it was nemenin Dea in hospital”

“It doesn't matter. How is the condition now?”

“Udah is much better, we are now also using ART, so there is a new Dea if I am here” said Bang Gama.

We??? hadeeee…

“Kemaren Dea does not talk strange right?”

“enggak” my answer quickly,

Can be amshong if Bang Gama knows when it's time to get him. And honestly I now even have bad thoughts to Kak Dea, lest he cuddle up to Bang Gama. I'm so damned for my trustworthiness and my bucket mouth.

“Kak Dea what to brother?” ask me to doubt

“Not saying anything, he instead said thanks already permission you guys to meet and chat”

I ngokng “Iya”

“But you guys didn't talk to me, did you? It's not gosipin I'm, is it?”

“obviously speaking brother! At that time my brother's ears were not hot?” ask me while sneering

He smiles “Review yes if until bad gossip”

“Ck... suudzon mulu” said as he held his hand.

“kamu nih, hold aja kayak do not feel at home so” is upset

“I want to take a drink bang thirsty, brother want too?” my reason

“Enggak” got upset while lying down.

I went out of the room and drank a glass of water, not to forget I also brought a full glass to keep in case tau bang Gama was also thirsty. Until the actual room Bang Gama already brushed while behind me, maybe already sleeping.

I also fall down while looking back at it, when I think of many things I often think of, thinking of going back to the past, wondering about my life in the future, and much more.

Suddenly I felt a hand coiled in my stomach, who else if not Bang Gama, I think he was asleep, this is the name of the benefits of kemesuman in opportunity.

“Udah sleeping?” soft tananya

“Udah” replied I was upset, somehow every Bang Gama approached me the inn so it became a sesel, like males that, sin deh.

“Ck. I miss you, can ya sleep while hugging gini”pintanya

Forced to turn my body and welcome his embrace, sekeselnya I he keep my husband, although our relationship is different with other couples, I can not deny also if there is a little kangen with Bang Gama, even though our relationship is different from other couples, and his embrace was also uh comfortable.

Bang Gama kissed my old forehead “Still Dek”

I just nod and keep my head in his chest, when I'm sick and tired of needing a hug. Although kelp but still only he can give a hug for me.

***

The next day I was even the neck of Bang Gama, it feels that quarrels in our household that is very common, whereas in the past the same time our sister Davin rarely faced, but in the middle of the house, I became a shadow of my household would be very happy if I married Davin.

“Bang, we haven't been to Mama's house in a long time, can ya” rayuku

“Can't now Dek, you know yourself Dea is sick, she needs me” he said firmly.

“Yaudah anyway, brother anterin I just nginep in Mama, brother whatever if you want to nginep in Kak Dea!” upset me

“do you want to go there without me? you are crazy! How will their minds be?!”

“Yes I can reason, brother out of town or what gitu” I said

I haven't been to Mama's house for a month, communication is limited to Bang Gama, I feel like I miss it.

“You why really ngeyel? Wh why? what do you want to say you went there?” snapped

“stop yes Bang! I've never said anything to my family!” I snapped no less high “I just miss my parents, wrong?”

“I know, but you don't be selfish, you know now how it is?”

“I? I'm selfish brother said? Who here is selfish?”snapped

“ngertiin me dong dek”

“doesn't know if I went to my brother? Free to say the same brother, the edges are also I who always get mistaken” said I while crying.

“you yes! I was tired of coming home from work, at home even taught noisier. Want you what the hell? I also gave everything to you, less money I love you like gini?”

This is why even spread everywhere the neck, I just ask to go home nengokin Mama Papa why should discuss the issue of money as well.

“I don't need money brother!” snapped

“Ngapain you cry like that? As if I were bullying you, slap you”

“Abang never slapped me, but do you realize all that brother said hurt me?!” snapped

“you don't have to be more!” snapped it.

“whatever... It's up to you to say what” I said slowly while continuing to cry. “Abang never know what I feel in this house, brother never know how depressed I am!”

Before long he came out of the room by slamming the door hard, my heart felt to be dislodged, until when I had to survive like this…

This whole day I was sitting in my room, Bang Gama somewhere, to the office or to the house of his betel wife I don't care. Even I'd be happy if he didn't get back to me, that's as bad as my mind…

Last night Bang Gama did not come home, although he did not tell but I understand for sure he went to the house of Kak Dea. Mama Papa asked me, I said she was going to Surabaya again.

Living with Bang Gama seems like I'm used to lying, he always tells lies for good. Where there is such a thing, the name is a lie.

I myself am confused as to why I survive in a marriage like this, there is no happiness, no tranquility, comfort, I am like an egg on the tip of the horn, retreating wrong, even wrong.

***

The next day Bang Gama came home with a tangled face, whether he had just woken up or something, which was obviously not nice to look at.

“hunt ready, we go to Mama.”'s house

“No need”

I think I'm still upset, I know we went to the neck, but I hate his own attitude. Not at all telling me, suddenly came and went to Mama's house. I'm also upset because he doesn't care about me, whether I'm here is considered.

“You want what the hell? Yesterday asked Mama, now I say no need” upset

“I don't want to say selfish wife and don't know myself!” my annoyance.

Bang Gama breathed a long sigh “Udah yes, I'm tired, stressed, so you don't have to mincing. Cepetan get ready us to Mama now”

If I'm sure Bang Gama can not be denied, I finally participated too, than he did not bother me at all to Mama, even more bothered.

“Do not bring clothes, we do not nginep. You I anterin, ntar the night I picked up” he said while changing clothes

“Abang where to go?”

“meet people” answer is short.

Tumben he let me go to Mama's house alone, usually he never want to take off me alone if you go to Mama's house, I don't know, justin.

Slowly I looked at his tired face, look sad.I know Bang Gama is not a bad person, you could say he is very good and royal. But he's easy on emotion, and his way of talking is often rude.

He is also a responsible man, and a hard worker. always trying to reduce my will, especially if the material affairs, everything he handed to me, of course after being divided with Brother Dea.

I approached him, I held his hand “Abang why? any problems?” he could at least if I spoke softly.

He breathed a long sigh “Papa's habit, he always thinks I'm not doing anything. And more trust to others”

“Papa behave like that there must be a reason, and brother himself must show the ability of brother” I said while looking at him

“aku know, but still a sprain, let alone must be coupled with others”

“Sabar Bang, his name parents thought we can not guess.” I said while rubbing his shoulder.

“If you are busy again, sometime go to Mama”'s house

“Gak papa, earlier Mama also nelphon nanyain you. Part Kak Arga again to Semarang with his wife and child, kasian Mama Papa himself” he said

“Iya” I replied with a nod and rushed to prepare

But Bang Gama took my hand and instead swooped me “Maafin brother yes, thanks for being patient ngadepin brother.”

“Iya, I also apologize yesterday angry to my brother.”kata, but with a manyun face

“still sprain?” soft tananya

“abang tuh habit, if again prone everywhere never said, brother did not think how I am here, confused asked Mama. If you come to Kak Dea what's wrong with talking to me? I never banned either. But can you tell me” upset me

“I'm sorry, I don't do that anymore. We are both emotional yesterday, so I think mending I love you when” he said while ringing my head.

This is how Bang Gama, sometimes there are times when he will explode emotions, saying rudely. Sometimes very understanding too.

After marriage I really know what his true nature is, and it takes a long time to understand, because every emotion I also sometimes follow emotions.

Before long we went to Mama's house, along the way Bang Gama told me about his problem in the office, when I thought I could only give support and encouragement.

Until Bang Gama home Just salim to Mama Papa and immediately go because there is work.

I have a casual chat with Mama Papa, every time I come here and Bang Gama always try to look happy, Mama Papa also squirms it into seneng.

I do not want to increase the burden of both of them in his old age, so as much as possible I avoid everything that Bang Gama dislikes when at home, lazy if you have to face here.

Tok…

“Ma there is a guest like” I said when I came out of the kitchen

“try opening Zi door earlier mama key because, maybe Gama”

“cook the hell,”kataku while walking to the front door, and open it.

Chequek…

“ka-kak?”

***