TriAngels
TA 29'S
TA 29'S
after Renata said about brother Al who came to Dome yesterday, I could not focus. I chat kak Al no matter how many times there is no reply, even my chat no one read, he is clearly online.Why? was he on purpose?
Back at school I tried to stop by Al's house, but it was quiet. There's absolutely no one. I came home with a confused heart. But when I saw a motorbike parked in the yard I immediately smiled.
"Zi, this is what Valdi is waiting for" said Mama disperse my daydream.
It had been a few seconds that I stood still at the door, making sure it was really Mr. Al, until finally Mama realized my arrival.
Brother Al turned towards me, "Ra. "shy and he stood up.
Without a second thought I immediately hugged her, the shame of having Mama I did not think about anymore.
"Sir Al is evil, I'm very upset" I whispered.
"Yes, there used to be a bad Mama "siss Brother Al while trying to take off my embrace.
"don't want to" I argued, shaking. I hugged him tightly.
He sighed and finally let me, on his swab my head was soft.
"Zi, let go of his embrace, not yet muhrim! want you Mama to force marriage now" said Mama firmly.
I had to take off my arms and the "Ck manyun... Mama here,"
I looked at Mr. Al who smiled faintly, finally we both sat down, but I still did not want to be far from him, Mama until the drums, and finally parted because he wanted to go to the house of a neighbor who again had a celebration.
"Ra... How are you?" ask Al while holding my hand.
"Bad news! " my sniffles, he frowns.
"Why?"
"Sir Al why don't you answer the chat and pick up my phone! so why go to Dome but don't you find me?" pissed me off while bowing.
And everything is spilling at the moment, the sense of senility, annoyance, sadness, disappointment, kangen all feel collected, and I am not strong for my crying nahan again. Brother Al narik I'm in his arms.
He said nothing but silence, as he continued to swerve and rub my head.I was also silent, only the sound of my crying was heard.
"I miss Al" I muttered.
" Yes, I miss you too Ra" he replied as he let out a glimpse of my head.
After we were together again, just kept hugging each other, it felt like I did not want to take it off, the most comfortable place with the smell of the perfume that calms, I miss all this, and it still feels like a dream.
"sister Al when is he here?" ask me a moment after I take off my embrace.
"yesterday afternoon"
"And langsumg to the Dome?" I asked, she nods "why don't you find me?"
Brother Al is still in the room not answering my question, he nduk. I rubbed his cheek "why?"
"I don't want to bother you"
"Bother me? yesterday we all fell on a smile, but many are also nyamperin, no one feels disturbed." I soon shut my mouth.
"Don't tell me brother Al yesterday saw me as Davin's sister?" I asked while looking at him, brother still nduk.
"Sister. please don't think macems," I held his hand "I don't know if Brother Davin came, he came I just want to send you a bouquet of flowers and gifts from Brother Arga" my clear.
" Correctly believe me brother." I said.
"I believe in you Ra"
"Why not nyamperin? why didn't you call me?"
"I just thought about Ra"
"Think what?"
"Thinking about us" he answered.
I looked at Mr Al, my feeling was suddenly not good, Kak Al's face looked sad, but I tried to tepis all "sister Al when back in Jakarta?"
"Tomorrow noon"
uh huh? I was really surprised, that fast?
"I don't have a holiday, Ra, it just happens to be a bit of a leisure and I broke up to come here."
Brother Al looks at me, he smiles and nods, "Yes Ra, today I am yours"
"Sister Al is mine, forever. period!" I said firmly, Brother Al is just a faint smile.
"yes yes"
Finally, we spend the rest of the day muttering and sharing stories with each other. Until about 8 pm Al ngajak I went to his house.
"Ra, we have to talk" he said, I just kept quiet, my mind was guessing where it was headed.
Grasping my hand "Ra, I'm the same Mother has already sentin to move there, I don't know will come back here or not. And I don't want to keep being selfish to you."
"Sister... "
"I was horrified" he said, covering my mouth with his index finger.
"I've thought of all this Ra, I can't keep trying to tie you to our relationship, because I can't promise you anything myself. You deserve to be happy Ra,"
"I'm happy with Al"
"I know Ra, I'm happy with you too. But I want to see when we can do this. Before we get into more trouble, I want to let you go Ra"
I bowed, it didn't feel strong for all this horror.
"I'm the same brother Arga can't take care of you like before, you definitely need someone else here Ra, who is always there for you, who is always next to you, and that person is not me"
"Don't Al like me?"
"I still love you so much Ra, and because of my love I want to let go of you"
I nodded, very understanding of what he said, "may I hug Brother Al?"
He smiles and nods "You should be happy here Ra"
"I can't promise you, brother, but God willing I'm willing to take off Al"
"I'm sorry Ra"
"Sister Al must promise, keep the promise of brother Al to make success, do not disappoint Mother"
"God willing Ra"
"Promise to be happy with others"
Just like me he can't answer that promise.we're both silent, still hugging.
***I never thought this would happen
This sacred love story
You just leave it
For so long we both
… I didn't think it was so fast
'I'm looking for self-importance
Forget everything you ever said
You left me
… Go love, pursue your desires
While there is still time (Give love)
Don't mind me
I'm willing to split up for you
May you achieve all your wishes ***
After my brother Al nganter I came home, my tears really broke, Mama Papa to be confused, but it turns out that Brother Al has talked all with Mama, and Mama gave advice and encouragement for me.
In the room, I played Chrisye's song many times, until I felt tired and fell asleep. Even in my sleep I still dream of him, it feels so difficult..
ZIA: I BROKE UP!
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