The Stupidity of Me Who Believes in Love

It still hurts

"I met Kafeel yesterday during a visit to the capital." said Rian then immediately stop the movement of the hand Kinara who was arranging some pieces on a small plate to be given to Rian.

"Cafeel?" he said in his heart with an erratic feeling, for some reason his heart felt a little throbbing when the name came back to his ears.

"I'm sorry Ra I didn't mean to." said Rian then, who realized that he had said something that Kinara might not want to hear for now.

Hearing that Kinara then smiled while sighing long, then put a plate containing fruits that have been cut in front of Rian for him to eat.

"Well, it's just the past, it's time for me to learn to forget Kafeel. Didn't I come here to forget everything? it would be a waste if I still think about it." said Kinara but with eyes that did not dare to look at Rian because the moment between his words and his heart was completely opposite. Slowly his eyes began to heat up and glazed, why does it still hurt? although he had gone so far as to forget Kafeel, but why when he heard the name again said his heart again shook without ever asking for a single thing.

Rian who knew Kinara was deceiving himself then immediately grasped Kinara's hand that looked slightly vibrating, making Kinara who was tidying up the food and then stopped his movement when Rian's hand tightly grasped his hand.

Tests...

Kinara's tears suddenly fell and dripped right in Rian's hands making Kinara look down even more so that Rian did not see himself while crying.

"I don't think it hurts, but it still hurts. I failed because I was in a duel and it broke my heart. It's just that for the second time when I was trying to rebuild a trust, I again failed again and broken the trust itself that turned towards me." said Kinara with a slight falter while holding back her cries. "You know what it's like? it feels like many times the pain yan.. hyks hyks" said Kinara then can no longer hold back his crying.

Kinara covered her face with both her hands spilling all her tears there. Rian was speechless at a loss to react to how at a time like this, eager to feel Rian hugging Kinara at this time while calming Kinara down, it's just that Rian felt he didn't deserve to do it for now because Rian still appreciated Kinara's figure so he was reluctant just to hold her.

"May I hug and calm you down at a time like this Ra?" he said inwardly asking questions that of course would not be possible to hear by Kinara at this time.

Rian who was confused should how? then spontaneously pat Kinara on the shoulder slowly trying to calm Kinara down.

"Crying is not to be held, I know it feels betrayed is sick but when our partner does not believe in us it feels more painful Ra. There is nothing to choose from either because both are equally painful." rian said as he continued to rub Kinara's back trying to calm her down even though Rian knew Kinara's pain would not be reduced just by hearing a word from her.

*****

Apartment units Kafel

As reported by Rendy this morning, Adhitama actually came to his residence at night without prior notice.

Inside the living room, Kafeel was gulping down alcohol for some time, but still did not reduce the feeling of a fuss in his heart.

"Stop Kaf! how long are you gonna keep going like this?" adhitama said as he grabbed the glass of Kafeel containing alcohol in his hand.

"Pa...pa.... has papa come a long time?" kafeel asked with a slightly floating tone. Kafeel was not completely drunk, he was still aware of the presence of Adhitama there, only his current gaze was swaying and seemed to be floating but still fully conscious.

"You shouldn't have tried to fall like this!" said Adhitama then while putting the glass that was about to be drunk by Kafeel was a little away.

Kafeel who heard it then just smiled and then put his head on the table because his head suddenly throbbed and felt dizzy.

"Papa can only advise, in fact what papa did when he was divorced from mama is worse than what Kafeel is doing today." said Kafeel with a slight smile, said, making Adhitama who heard it was shocked that Kafeel knew about it.

"Papa and yourself's situation is different, you can fix it but papa can't because your mom really has gone from your side." adhitama said with a soft tone in every word he said.

Kafeel who heard that then immediately raised his head and looked question mark in the direction of Adhitama.

"Didn't you meet my mom? then why is papa sad?" kafeel asked curiously while massaging his throbbing temple from drinking too much earlier.

Got the question Adhitama then sighed long and then smiled. "Why did you meet your mom, you know? even though she is no longer young, she is still beautiful and never changes the same as when papa first met her." said Adhitama later while imagining the beautiful face of Ratih in her shadow.

"Papa advised me to try but papa is now desperate. Isn't that a lie?" kafeel said in a satirical tone directed at Adhitama.

"Of course not Kaf's lie, papa just doesn't want you to fall in the same hole as papa. Enough papa alone who fell and you do not." said Adhitama again give advice.

"If you don't have to worry because Kafeel is trying everything possible to get Kinara back on Kafeel's side" Kafeel said.

Adhitama who heard his confidence then immediately smiled while patting Kafeel's shoulder slowly as if giving full confidence to Kafeel to continue his steps.

"Good son, make your failure in building a household yesterday as a lesson and start a new life. You're an adult now, papa is sure you know better what's best for you now and in the future." adhitama said again while still patting his son's shoulder slowly but repeatedly.

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