The Sanctity of Tarnished Love

Advice Advice Nina

Raindrops rang out, breaking the silence of the dark night. Occasionally a strong wind could be heard roaring through the trees growing by the roadside.

In the dimness of the candlelight, two women were sitting on mats while arranging pastries into plastic jars.

"Alhamdulillah yes Nja, your business is getting smoother. Hopefully in the future your business can develop well" said Nina while staring at Dusk.

"Yes Nin, thanks to you and Brother Alvin as well. Without you I wouldn't be able to open this business." replied Dusk with a smile.

"We are family, we should have helped each other" Nina said.

And Dusk only responded with a smile.

"Nja!" call Nina.

"Hmm."

"You why? These two days you are more silent, not as usual. You got a problem?" ask Nina.

Since meeting Ken, Dusk has become more reserved.

"I'm fine." replied Dusk with a long sigh.

"You don't lie to Nja, I know there's something you're thinking about. Tell me!" nina said while patting Dusk on the shoulder.

"Yesterday I went to see Ken." said Dusk slowly. There is no harm in telling Nina, maybe later it can reduce the burden a little.

"Continue?"

"I originally intended to tell him to stop loving me, but..."

"But what?" ask Nina quickly.

"But I gave him hope. I don't know if my decision is right, or wrong." replied Dusk quietly.

"How do you feel yourself? You still have feelings for Ken?" ask Nina.

"Not really, but I don't know, I'm confused." replied Dusk with a long sigh.

"What do you feel now? Speak up, maybe I can help you" Nina said.

"Actually a lot of things have happened in my marriage Nin" said Dusk.

"Anything?"

"I'm not pregnant with Dawn."

"Well! Are you serious, Nja?" nina shouted in shock. Alvin never told her about Dusk.

"I'm serious."

"Who are you pregnant with?" asked Nina while staring fixedly at Dusk.

"Ken."

"Ken, ma...former you? Why is all this happening at night?" asked Nina hesitantly. He did not expect that Dusk had gone through that much.

"You know what kind of pain Dawn is?" Twilight asked.

"Suffer heart."

"Not."

"Then?" ask Nina.

"HIV AIDS, during my marriage Brother Dawn never touched me, and he was never honest with me. This has caused our relationship to never be harmonious. And I ended up making a fatal mistake with Ken." said Dusk explained.

"O Allah is Twilight, as complex as it turns out to be your marriage. Why you never told me this whole time. I didn't even know you were going through that much" Nina said, embracing Dusk tightly.

Nina let out a long sigh, just right after marriage Dusk became more reserved, she was not as cheerful as before. It turned out to be as bitter as his life story. Now Nina understood why her family Fajar never cared about Dusk again. It turned out like that was the case.

"It is fitting that Aunt Rani never visited Dusk, because what was in her womb was not her biological grandchild." Nina's inner heart.

"Fear why?"

"You're close to Brother Alvin, I'm afraid you'll tell Brother Alvin. He'll be very angry. But it was also useless for me to hide it, in the end Brother Alvin knew everything." replied Dusk while staring at Nina.

"I'm your best friend Nja, I can definitely keep your secret. Even if you tell me, I won't say anything to Alvin. Then, who you've been sharing your burdens with, have you kept them alone?" ask Nina.

"At first it was, and then I told Ken. And that was the beginning of the mistake we made." replied Dusk.

"Where did Dawn get the disease?" ask Nina.

"From Adara."

"You are patient, Nja. Now if there's anything, just tell me. I as a friend, and also a sister, will try to always be there for you" Nina said with a smile, as her hand rubbed the arms of Dusk.

"I was confused by the decision I had to make. On the other hand I do not want to betray Dawn for the second time. But on the other hand I also think about my feelings, and also my son's future. What am I supposed to do, Nin?" ask Dusk while looking at Nina. From now on he will be more open to Nina, he needs a place to share the burden.

"May I have an opinion?"

"Of course, if you don't want to listen to your opinion, why am I telling you" said Dusk as he rolled his eyes.

"I'm afraid you're offended" Nina said with a chuckle.

"I'm immune to your words." sibir Dusk.

And that made Nina laugh even more.

"Not funny Nin, tell me what you think!" said Dusk quickly.

"Alright, listen carefully." said Nina while staring at Dusk.

"I know how you feel, you feel guilty for betraying Dawn. And you also feel lost for his departure.

But your future is also still long Nja, especially there are also children who you are carrying. You don't get shackled by the past, it's not good for your future, nor your child" Nina said at length.

"Life is not always beautiful Nja, a lot of bitter twists and turns that can happen anytime. Are you sure you can get through it alone? And about children, all children need the affection of a father Nja." continued Nina with a smile.

"So you mean..."

"Yes, there's no harm in you opening your heart to Ken. If you can't love her yet, but at least it's for your son's sake. Taking care of a child alone is not as easy as you imagine Nja. It's me, and Alvin's sister will definitely help you, but you also know we're equally simple. We won't be able to take care of him like Ken, he'll be much happier, if Ken takes care of him. Besides Nja, I think Ken loves you very much. After breaking up with you, I never saw her with another woman. I think from the past until now, he has not been able to forget you Nja" Nina said explaining her opinion.

"Do you think so?"

"Yes." replied Nina while nodding.

"But I can't take it yet Nin, I..."

"I see, I know how you feel right now.

You can tell Ken to wait for you, until you can heal your heart wounds, while learning to love him like he used to." said Nina.

"You're sure I can?"

"try to! Think of your son, he's your future. You once regretted hurting Dawn, now do not let you make the same mistake. Don't let you regret hurting your child." Nina said as she stared at Dusk.

"Thank you Nin, you're really my best friend. I'm so happy that Alvin's sister is married to you" said Dusk, hugging Nina.

"I'm also happy Nja, although Brother Alvin is far from romantic, but he is very responsible. You know, I was Nja's first woman, wasn't it so much fun" Nina said as she let go of her embrace.

"What's the difference between being the first, second, or third woman?"

"Obviously different Nja, if it's the first it feels special. Ibarata goods if the first is still new, if the second, the third is already used. You understand the difference." replied Nina.

"That's it." murmured Dusk quietly.

His mind began to look far away, in the life of Dawn, he was not the first. But in Ken's life, she was the first woman, and vice versa. Ken was the first man in his life.

Seriate