The Sanctity of Tarnished Love

Honesty That Pain

"I'm sorry, honey. Forgive my rude attitude from yesterday." Dawn tightened her embrace.

"I'm sorry too, brother. I left yesterday without informing you. I shouldn't have done that." Dusk answered while rubbing the back of Dawn.

"If I don't go, I won't lose my chastity. Brother Dawn, forgive me," said Dusk in his heart.

"Where are you? I kept looking for you, but I couldn't find you" Fajar asked as he let go of his embrace. He stared fixedly at Dusk.

"I ... go home" replied Dusk quietly.

"Going home? But yesterday I was there, your house was empty, honey." Dawn frowned.

"What time does dawn come home? I got there late in the afternoon and my house was empty. Brother Alvin is out of town" said Dusk.

"I'm daytime, it's worth it that I can't find you. Then, before you go home where are you?" Dawn asked as she slipped her twilight hair behind the ears.

"Yesterday I passed out on the street, and I was helped by someone and taken to the hospital." Dusk lowered. Remembering about Ken, his heart was again crushed by feelings of guilt.

"You fainted? Honey, what happened to you? Now how does it feel, which one hurts, tell me!" said Dawn quickly, grasping the hand of Dusk and looking at him from the tip of the foot to the tip of the head.

"I'm okay, brother. Yesterday was just a little bit tired and probably also because I haven't eaten since morning" replied Dusk. He tried to smile, even though his feelings were very messed up.

"My heart still hurts, brother. I have lost something precious, which I should have kept and offered to you" said Dusk in his heart.

"I'm sorry, honey. I should have controlled my emotions. Let's sit there!" bring Dawn. He guided Dusk and took him to step closer to the bed.

Dusk according to and follow the will of Dawn. Now they sit face to face on the bed.

"Dear, I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you all this time. Now, I'll say everything. Ask me anything you want to know about me, I'll answer it. I won't hide anything anymore" Dawn said seriously.

Dusk's heart beat fast and a sense of tightness re-emerged in his chest. Dawn will speak honestly to him, has he accepted the reality that is too bitter? Why is it that Dawn is telling me so honestly? Why not yesterday? Had he known the truth yesterday, he might not have lost his holiness.

"What do you want to say, brother?" ask Dusk slowly.

"You remember Arrion? Someone you used to call and who met you yesterday. He is a doctor and I am a patient. I'm going to Singapore to meet him. I'm going for a cure, honey." Dawn started the conversation while looking down.

Dusk flinched, it turned out that Dawn was really sick. What pain, why not dare to touch it? Now how's he doing? Why does it look okay all along?

"You're sick, brother. May I know what pain you have?" ask Dusk with trembling. His heart was beating faster and his eyes began to tear up.

"I had HIV AIDS, and I was late to realize it. Now that I'm in the final stages, I don't know how much longer I can last. That's why I never touched you, I don't want to pass the disease on to you, honey," Fajar replied, biting his lip.

"If all this gets you away, I'm ready to take it, honey. I am indeed too despicable for you who are so noble, "inner Dawn.

Dusk covered his mouth with both hands. Then he slid into the arms of Dawn. Round after round of clear circles began to divorce wet his cheeks. This fact is very bitter, especially when remembering the situation he is now.

"Why didn't you say all this from the beginning, brother? Why now?" ask Dusk on the sidelines of her crying.

"I'm afraid, honey, this disease is a disgrace to me. I was afraid that you would abandon me and could not accept my situation. You know where HIV comes from" Fajar replied. He hugged the body of Dusk and let the woman shed tears on his chest.

"But you should be honest, brother, that way I can understand and not misunderstand you." Dusk spoke while holding his chest.

"You know, brother, my misunderstanding is fatal" said Dusk in his heart.

"I'm sorry, honey." Again, just an apology that Dawn said. He hugged Dusk tighter and let it dissolve in crying.

After a few minutes had passed, Dusk released the embrace of Dawn. She wiped her tears and looked at her husband.

"Sister,"" call Dusk.

"Ask what you want to ask. Say whatever you want to say," Fajar replied while wiping away the remains of the Twilight Tears.

"Are you in the final stages, brother?" ask Dusk.

"Yes." Yeah." Dawn nodded.

"When did you get that disease?" ask Dusk.

"Since a few years ago, when I was still in a relationship with Adara. But I realized too late. Dizziness, tiredness, and the fever that I often experience, I think it's because I'm too tired to work. But it turns out that it is a symptom of this disease" explained Fajar.

"You got it from Adara?"

"Yes." Yeah."

"Then how is he doing now?" ask Dusk.

"He was dead, a year and a half ago. He died right on the day of our wedding" Fajar replied.

"What!"

"At first someone told me he died of illness. I don't care about him, because to me he's just the past. That day is my happy day with you. However, the next day Arrion told me that Adara had died of HIV. Adara was one of his patients, and he knew that I had a relationship with Adara. Then I went there to check on Arrion. It turned out that I was positive, even the illness had long since gnawed at my body," Fajar said at length.

"Where did Adara get the disease?"

"He played dirty tricks when he started his career. He traded success for his body. Stupidly I didn't realize that, instead often spent the night with him. I'm really despicable, honey, I've never thought about sin and karma. Actually I do not deserve to be with you who are so perfect," said Fajar with eyes fixed.

"Don't say that, brother, I'm not as perfect as you might think. I also have mistakes and mistakes" said Dusk.

"I slept with another man, but still legally became your wife. I am also despicable, Brother, I am not much different from you," said Dusk in his heart.

"Sister," call Dusk.

"Hmm."

"Why have you never touched me? By using contraceptives, isn't it safe?" ask Dusk.

"No, Honey." Dawn shaking.

"Arrion said to me, the HIV virus is very small, even much smaller than the pores in contraceptives. It's a very small possibility of contracting it, only 10-20%, but .. I don't want to take any risks, honey. I cannot limit my association, so this karma is enough for me to bear it. I don't want to involve you. I love you so much, I don't want to ruin your future" Fajar continued, cupping his twilight cheeks.

Dusk speechless. He can't say anything. Only tears kept dripping without pause.

"I didn't dare kiss you this whole time either. Not because of anything, but because I was afraid I could not control myself," said Fajar because Dusk was still silent.

"Darling, I've said everything. Now the decision is in your hands. If you want to go, I'm sincere, I understand. I love you, I will be happy as long as you are happy. I don't want to hold you in a bond that leaves you hurt. Forgive my selfishness all this time" said Fajar with a bead full of wounds.

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