The Sanctity of Tarnished Love
Increasingly Critical
"Doctor!" call Dusk, because Arrion still hasn't answered his question.
"It is important that we try, and pray, for the result that we leave it to God, that it will be better." replied Arrion as he stared at Dusk at a glance.
"May you understand what I mean." Inner Arrion.
Dusk did not answer Arrion's words, a little he understood his words. Dusk stared at the pale fingers in his grasp, a circle of tears back in divorce soaked his cheeks.
"You're a great man, brother, I'm sure you will survive. Forgive me for desecrating your sincere love, but please, don't punish me in this way. I don't know how to walk, if there's no one to follow me. Wake up Brother, I miss your smile." said Dusk in his heart.
Shortly afterwards, Dusk and Arrion were startled by a green wave line on the monitor that started to move straight. Arrion quickly moved out of place.
"Please come out at dusk, I'll check the state of Dawn!" arrion said quickly, then he hurriedly prepared his tools.
"Good!" answer Dusk as he moved from his seat, and then stepped out of the room.
"May Brother Dawn be well, O Allah please save Brother Dawn." Inner Dusk while closing the door of the room.
Dusk sat in the waiting chair while looking down. Her tears came back without excuse, her lips incessantly chanting prayers for her husband.
As Dusk was dissolving in his grief, suddenly a man came calling his name.
"Alley!" call Alvin as he steps toward Dusk, and sits next to him.
Dusk raised his face, he turned his head and looked at his sister.
"Bag Dawn Brother!" said Dusk with increasingly broken cries.
Alvin grabs his sister's body, he embraces her tightly while rubbing her arms.
"Don't cry! Calm your heart, and pray for him. Begging the Creator, may it provide salvation for Dawn." said Alvin quietly.
"Critical Dawn Brother, even doctors can't guess when he'll wake up." replied Dusk while still sobbing.
"You are patient. The doctor is just an ordinary man, leave everything to God. Break your heart, pray for Dawn, it is better than crying like this Dusk" Alvin said as he wiped the twilight tears.
Dusk nodded, then he let go of Alvin's embrace. Dusk wiped the remains of his tears, and then he moved from his seat.
"Sister Alvin is right, I'm going to the mosque now" said Dusk slowly.
"That's great. Remember Dusk, don't force what you want. Trust everything to God. Asking for something is okay, but remember God knows better what is good for us. Don't complain when your prayers haven't been answered. Rest assured, whatever God lays out for us, that is best" Alvin said, patting Dusk on the shoulder.
"I understand Brother." replied Dusk.
"I do understand what you mean Brother. But it is my heart that refuses to understand. Although I know God's destiny is always beautiful, but I still want Dawn to stay beside me until later. If only I could choose, I would rather not first, so that I would not feel the pain of loss." Inner Dusk as he stepped away from Alvin.
Dusk continues to walk towards the mosque in the hospital area.
Dusk took the water wudhlu, and then entered the mosque, coincidentally when it had entered Ashar time.
The twilight grabbed the face that was there, then he put it on, and began to face the Creator.
A few minutes later, Dusk had finished his prayer. He sat down and raised both his hands. Tears slowly began to drip from the corner of his eyes, drenching the white face that wrapped his body.
"God forgive all my sins, and also my husband's. Forgive the servant who has desecrated this marriage with something despicable. And forgive also the faults of the servant's husband in the past. O Allah, please heal Dawn, save her, and let us return together. Give us time to correct all the mistakes we have made. Servant please O Allah, I beg you to allow Brother Dawn to continue to lead the servant." said Dusk on the sidelines of his cries.
Dusk rubbed his face, and then he bowed languidly. The one-night mistake he had made, just flashed through his memory. Pain, and tightness began to rage in his heart.
Dusk closed his eyes while holding his chest. He deeply regretted his error, but all of it has now been for free. Everything has happened, and time cannot be played back.
A few minutes later, Dusk rose from his seat. He took off his face, and put it back in its place. Slowly he stepped out of the mosque, and headed back to the ICU room.
After praying, and complaining to the Creator, the heart of Dusk calmed down a little.
***
There is no use for true love
There is no meaning to the pureness of promise
The taste has been stained
When the heart has been betrayed
Wrapped in mourning wounds
No more saying
After the temple to paint the taste
Quite silent in disappointment
Waiting for destiny to speak
Dawn Mahardika
***
The hour hand showed at 10:00 p.m. Alvin, and Dusk were still sitting together in a chair, in front of the ICU room. Sometimes they take turns to accompany Dawn. Since yesterday Fajar has not been aware, even the situation is getting worse. His heart rate is much weaker than it was yesterday.
Dusk still continued to cry, even since yesterday he had not slept, and also had not eaten. Alvin persuaded him many times to fill his stomach, but he always refused.
"It's noon, I bought breakfast" said Alvin, staring at his sister.
"I'm not hungry yet" replied Dusk.
"But you haven't eaten Nja. You may not be hungry, but think about your baby. She needs food, you want her to be okay, right?"
"I.i.m..."
"Already, stay here I'll buy you breakfast. Hungry or not hungry, you should eat twilight!" alvin said firmly. This time he did not accept rejection from his brother.
"Alright Brother." replied Dusk relented.
Alvin moved from his seat, but he had not yet stepped, suddenly Bu Rani, and Mr. Hery came to them. They came a little late, because yesterday they were still in Medan.
And Farah, she was at her in-laws' house outside the city, and yesterday her number could not be reached. To date, she has not heard from her brother.
"Mama!" greet Dusk with a fast beating heart. Soon everything will be revealed. How did they react when they knew what disease the Dawn suffered.
"What happened to Dawn, why was she suddenly critical?" asked Bu Rani in a slightly high tone.
"Ma, relax!" said Mr. Hery to his wife.
Dusk let out a long sigh, he understood how Bu Rani felt. He must have been very panicked, and worried when he heard the news that his son was critical, because all this time his son looked fine.
"Sir Dawn hurts Ma." replied Dusk quietly.
"What's he hurting, now how's he doing?" ask Bu Rani.
Not yet had Dusk answer Bu Rani's question, suddenly the door of the room opened. Arrion seemed to be standing there, rubbing his sweaty face.
"Doctor, what pain does my child have, and how is he? Can I see a doctor?" asked Bu Rani quickly, as she stepped closer to Arrion.
"You may see it, but alternately, do not enter together. Actually, my son is suffering..." Arrion still hung up his sentence. He glanced at Dusk, and then let out a long sigh. If he were to tell the truth, surely the mistake of Dusk would be revealed. But if not to say it honestly, that is also impossible. As parents, they also have a right to know what happened to their children.
"What's with the doctor's Dawn? What pain is my child? Tell doctor!" said Bu Rani quickly.
"Mother's son has HIV AIDS, now that he is in critical condition, he is in the final stages" Ms Arrion replied firmly.
"I'm sorry Twilight, I have to tell you the truth. As the doctor who handled it, I can't possibly keep all of this a secret forever." Arrion inner as he glanced at Dusk.
"What!!" shouted Bu Rani, and Mr. Hery simultaneously.
They were completely shocked to hear the answer, which Arrion had just thrown out.
"But all this time Dawn was healthy, where perhaps she had the disease. Tell me if this is all just a doctor's fault! This is not really a doctor!" shouted Bu Rani while holding her chest.
"Sorry Mom, this is all true. Dawn has long suffered from the disease." replied Arrion as he looked at Bu Rani.
"No way! This is impossible!" shouted Bu Rani with a louder voice.
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