The Little Doomsday of My Heart

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1 Week passed..

For a week, Abira tried to calm herself down. One week more he also used it to get closer to his Lord so that his faith did not continue to weaken.

Papa Abira who has returned from out of town requires Abira also to return home and start college. Abira hopes that God will help strengthen her heart and expand her patience to face the next obstacles.

That afternoon Abira came to his workplace to resign well to Mr. Ridwan, although he counted new work. Not to forget, he also said goodbye to his students.

Kaffa who saw Abira there really did not expect. Some days he looked for Abira and did not get results, but again Abira himself came in his view. Everyone in the room was shocked by Abira's decision. The tears of the children who were not willing to let go a little was able to shake Abira even though in the end he still insisted on his decision.

"Are you sure Abira ?" ask Aaron.

"Yakin Ustadz" Abira answered briefly.

Aaron who got the answer was very disappointed, with the tip of his eyes slightly glancing towards Kaffa. Aaron assumes that Abira's exit must have something to do with Kaffa.

After that Abira pamit.

The next day he started going to college..

And it's true that Rosa's worries really happened. Almost all eyes were staring cynically at Abira. But Abira's reaction was beyond Rosa's expectations. His worries about Abira's feelings did not occur. Although he saw Abira many times like taking a deep breath trying to accept everything.

"Ra. You should have told them the truth. Don't let them assume one eye Ra" pinta Rosa growled.

"What's Ros for ? looking for justification ? trying to defend ? those who like me don't need that and those who don't like me won't believe that. Leave it alone, pray I'll be strong to face everything. Let time give them all the truth" Abira replied resignedly.

Hearing Abira's answer made Rosa very moved and spontaneously embraced her best friend, hoping she could drain the power for Abira.

It would be a lie if Abira's feelings were not shaken to hear other people talk about the real bad that is not true. But Abira tried to strengthen himself and run the lecture as usual even though now his cold attitude is increasing.

Since that incident, Alya and Abira have been hostile. Alya who always looked cynically at Abira and Abira who were getting cold with her.

After college, Abira went to the lake to calm himself for a moment with a breath of fresh air.

All of a sudden..

"You know Bira, since that day I've been here almost every day wishing you were here. I had a week more disappointment but finally today I got the joy of seeing you again" Kaffa said.

Abira who heard it pretended not to pay attention to the presence of Kaffa who stood right beside him. Abira kept quiet and cool with her book.

Seeing that Kaffa was sitting next to him.

"Where have you been all this time ? I went to your house no one, tried to contact your papa and there was never a reply. I'm worried about you Bira" Kaffa said.

Abira remained silent.

"Bira !" kaffa said angrily closing Abira's book and seizing it.

Abira who was treated like that made the fire in her heart become smoldering.

"What do you mean ? I'm sorry for what happened back then, it's not true"

Hearing that Abira was furious, but tried to be calm and elegant.

" It's not true ? so what's right ? seeing a woman who has been so devastated that she just took off her head covering crown in front of the man she loves because you have fully enjoyed it together, that is true. Doing slander as if I was a cheap woman who seduced and first expressed love, that's right. You know because the whole class was talking about me, you know because your fate of a woman is questionable. Now with a low you're saying that all of that isn't true ?"

"Take back your words that you are now because of me. I don't want to be the inspiration of someone so disgusting as you. Use the innocence of women for your benefit. You use your religious knowledge to lure women like us ? the name ustadz should not be appropriate for you."

"I'm not Alya. If you expect to get everything from me like you got from Alya, it will never be allowed." Sarkas Alya.

Kaffa was determined to hear it all spoken directly by Abira.

"But I know you have the same feelings as Bira" Kaffa lures.

"But all I know is that my feelings are dead. For the first time I loved someone but was instantly broken by reality."

"I used to be amazed by your efforts. I used to look for you too. I used to envy you because you managed to defeat me, even though you never realized my presence. I know we're a college. I know your relationship with Alya. I know I love you too but my heart is not as dirty as you. Did I come near you once ? I tried so hard to take care of him and you just destroyed it. You made my heart go numb !" Sarkas Abira again.

Kaffa was further shocked by all the statements made by Abira.

"You guys are not honest with me ! You are also the ones who forced myself to be among you ! I should never have accepted the job ! I should never have had compassion on someone like you !"

Kaffa seemed to be made silent, Abira repeatedly strafed him with sharp bullets.

Satisfied with all the complaints he had expressed, Abira got up from his seat and intended to leave Kaffa.

"Bira.wait" stop Kaffa from holding his hand.

Abira quickly threw down the handle.

"I said get out of my life ! do not let me throw the same blow to your cheek as Alya did to you repeatedly ! because I'm not that kind of woman. I will not return pain with pain. Let Him who has full right over me give you my reward !" Sarkas Abira and left Kaffa.

Kaffa bowed.he grabbed his hair trying to convince himself that the one who was talking to him was Abira, the woman he loved.

For a moment he thought. Realizing that his feelings are now broken. Abira will never get it again. Kaffa continued to blame himself for the stupidity he was doing.

Abira who had stepped away from Kaffa's sight weakened with an unstoppable sobbing. His heart was beating hard, he still could not believe that he was able to say all that to Kaffa.

"I accept all Your statutes, O Allah" said Abira, clutching her chest.

Sometimes he wiped his tears that kept flooding his cheeks. Slowly catch his breath so he can calm down and go home.

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seriate..