The Little Doomsday of My Heart

The harsh reality #2

At night, Abira couldn't stop crying. His memory memory continued to twist that bitter reality. Abira felt her chest so tight. The eye waterfall continued to flow until it wet his pillow.

"God forgive me for putting my feelings to the wrong people. O God, thank You for making me hesitate to love him wholeheartedly. O Allah forgive them for lying to me so that I feel what hurt" murmured Abira lirih

Abira continued to take part to calm her heart. A few minutes later he remembered the figure of Aaron, the man who intended to propose. Abira slowly wiped away her tears. He thought for a moment. If he hesitated yesterday about Aaron because of his feelings for Kaffa, but now Abira feels confident that accepting Aaron's proposal is not a mistake for him. The man has good intentions, even his love for Abira does not necessarily make him go beyond the boundaries of religion. He even took a good path, which was to propose to him. Abira thinks love can grow over time.

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After college, Kaffa headed straight to work. That is the routine every day. But he who had just arrived again was stunned by the scenery he slowly passed.

His eyes could not be seen the figure of Aaron and Abira who were talking about something. Moreover, Abira seemed to give something to Aaron.

During the course of teaching, Kaffa's focus was lost. Especially when he saw a smiling Aaron secretly stealing glances with Abira. Kaffa's heart felt a burning heat. I don't know what Kaffa was thinking at the time.

"I think my brother is happy again today. Smile continues" Kaffa's fishing rod

"Hehehe yes Kaf" replied Aaron blushing in embarrassment

"What's bang ? dapet sustenance huh ?" catch Kaffa again

"For this Brother is more than Kaf's sustenance. Brother will propose to Abira tomorrow night" replied Aaron enthusiastically

Hearing that was like Kaffa's heart stopped beating. Heart's cold. Slowly the energy in his body seemed to disappear. Kaffa couldn't believe it, but he realized it wasn't a dream.

"Ohhh heh em.. does your brother know his house ?" kaffa replied

"Not yet, but Abang has got his address.This is Abira himself who loved Abang earlier" said Aaron while showing a piece of paper containing Abira's home address which he took from his pocket

Without responding any more, seeing that Kaffa only smiled faintly to cover up the feelings that were in his heart. Kaffa really did not expect, his heart seemed to just break. The woman he loves will be proposed by someone he has always considered like his own brother.

Finding that fact, Kaffa's feelings riled up. In his heart he was eager to invite Abira to speak and confirm the truth. Despite the fact that he had accepted, but still Kaffa did not believe it before Abira said it.

Kaffa is planning something.

"I am called Mr. Ridwan, wait a minute." - Kaffa

Seeing the message, Abira immediately searched for the whereabouts of Kaffa who had walked out to the room of Mr. Ridwan. Seeing that there was no other choice for Abira than to wait.

Actually Mr. Ridwan did not call Kaffa at all. He was just a regular chat in the room. Kaffa planned it all to buy time until all the friends and children came home, so he could talk to Abira alone.

On the other hand Abira seemed restless, he continued to look at the clock many times because the time was getting late while Kaffa did not return.

"Bira"

The sound shocked Abira. Kaffa was behind him.

"I want to talk to you for a minute" Kaffa asked

"It's too late in the afternoon, we're late for home. I've been waiting for you too long" Abira slowly stood up, leaving Kaffa

Just a step. Kaffa stopped him.

"Wait a minute" said Kaffa reflex holding Abira's hand

Seeing that Abira was shocked. He also reflexively threw out his hand for Kaffa to take off his hand.

"sorry. I did not intentionally and did not mean anything. So please listen to me and don't keep avoiding" Kaffa said grudgingly

"Is it true that Aaron will propose to you ?" ask Kaffa without further ado

Hearing that, Abira's eyes widened. Where does Kaffa know about it. A second later he realized that the two of them were very close and it was certain that Aaron told him of his happiness.

Abira's memory recollects her and Aaron's encounter several hours ago.

"Ustadz Harun, called ummi Abira. Ummi wait in front" said one of the children

The boy was certainly Abira's man. Hearing that, without hesitation Aaron immediately approached her.

"What's Abira ?" harun's greeting shocked her

"Oh this is ustadz. em. this is Bira's home address, ustadz can come tomorrow night ba'da Maghrib to express the good intentions of ustadz" Abira replied giving a piece of paper containing his home address

Hearing that Aaron was very happy. Taken and stared at that paper which would become his future address. His pleasure was then bought again by the words of Abira next.

"Not for ta'aruf. But Bira has thought carefully that iftadz Harun can directly propose to Bira" continued Abira

Daarrrr.Aaron's heart is happy not playing. He continued to give thanks to God while looking at Abira's back which slowly went away from his sight.

"I thought you answered me !" kaffa's voice that broke Abira's daydreams of that memory

"Yes" Abira answered briefly, with a look on her face

"What ? why are you doing that Bira ?" kaffa said holding back his tears hearing the absolute reality he got

"Why indeed ? is something wrong ? that's my right"

Hearing that Kaffa's feelings peaked and exploded unbearably. Holding Abira's shoulders which made his head lifted and made them look at each other.

"Wrong. Very wrong ! That cold attitude makes you pretend to be aware of how I feel about you Bira. Why are you doing this, why are you closing yourself off from me ? You even accepted the proposal of the person I had always considered like my own brother. Don't break my heart again by losing you for the second time Abira !" Caffa Sarcass

Hearing that Abira could no longer hold back her cries. Slowly the tears came out and went down to wet his cheeks. His feelings also peaked and exploded unbearably.

"What feeling do you mean ? You keep saying about your feelings to me while your feelings are for someone else ! Even you've asked his mother for permission to marry him and you still dare to talk about feelings with me !" Sarkas Abira replied

"If it wasn't for my papa, I could go home alone without having to be with you every day even waiting for you !" abira continued while wiping his tears and left Kaffa who was staring there

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In his room, Kaffa looks pretty messed up. Alya repeatedly called her, Kaffa repeatedly ignored her. In his brain at that time there was only Abira, Abira who acknowledged the truth of the proposal.

"Where does Abira know everything ? What's wrong with me, Oh my God, why I love two people at once. I can't even choose, I can't accept Abira being proposed to"

Aarghhh... Kaffa kept moaning his hair

While elsewhere, Alya was very worried why Kaffa did not pick up his phone. His attitude has been quite strange lately as well. Alya contacted Kaffa's sister and Kaffa's co-worker in shock when she found the same answer that Kaffa had come home. But his heart again asked why Kaffa had not picked up his phone.

While Abira in her room seemed to be suppressing the pain in her chest. His breathing began to cramp irregularly. His closed figure made him have to hold all those feelings alone. Kaffa made his heart feel a dilemma. His head started to hurt. Until he fell asleep due to fatigue due to his own feelings.

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