The Little Doomsday of My Heart

Grand Mosque

Both Kaffa and Alya cover up their relationship and lie to Abira. Kaffa clearly lied because he did not want Abira to think that he liked two women at once. While Alya lied of course because he was ashamed of Abira, he who graduated from the boarding school was defeated obediently with Abira who had no Islamic background at all. Alya also knew of the prohibition against approaching adultery, but because of Kaffa he seemed blind and deaf to it all.

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"Is everything true ? they're just friends.. Both of them gave the same answer.means my feelings have never been wrong ? but their closeness is unnatural.. Kaffa even brought Alya to his house and Kaffa even often to Alya boarding house.. Are they lying ?" abira's inner murmur continued to shower himself with questions

"God guides me, bring close what You think is good for me, and keep away what You think is bad for me" Abira said softly.

The lie made by Alya and Kaffa to Abira, made Abira think that all this time his feelings for Kaffa were not wrong. Abira assumed that all this time he did not love other people's lovers because Kaffa and Alya were only friends, not lovers.

Although Abira insisted that their friendship was unnatural because it violated the Shari'a, what Kaffa said about Alya's disease was true. Abira's humanitarian instincts confirmed her at the time. Alya does not have anyone in this city, if not her friends who else will help her.

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At work.. Kaffa continued to watch Abira who was busy chatting with her students. From a distance, Abira appears to show something on her mobile phone. The dazzled faces look from each of them. Kaffa was curious and tried to approach them on the grounds of telling them to come in because the study time was about to begin.

"Kids come in, soon the lessons will begin" Kaffa said as he looked at the screen of Abira's phone

Hearing Kaffa's orders, everyone immediately entered the classroom without Abira being excluded.

"Masjid Raya.. does Abira also want to go there ?" kaffa's inner murmur after seeing the photo on the Abira mobile screen

Grand Mosque is a mosque located outside the city where they live. Grand Mosque has just finished construction and is very famous in the media because of its charming architecture. To get there it takes about 2 hours drive. Everyone would want to go there even though they have to travel far. Masjid Raya is the same mosque that Alya wanted to visit, but at that time Kaffa did not support it.

Kaffa who was increasingly thoughtful and curious was secretly asking it to one of Abira's students.

"Iya ustadz, ummi Abira earlier showed us a very beautiful photo of the Mosque. Ummi Abira really wants to go there and he hopes to be there with us someday" said one of the children

Hearing that Kaffa smiled. He thought of something to realize Abira's wish and he was determined to try it without having to get a rejection from Abira. Kaffa is very confident that Abira will be very happy with that.

The next day Kaffa faced the chairman of the foundation. Kaffa suggested to Mr. Ridwan to take the children for a walk or education rihlah so that they are more enthusiastic in teaching while learning.

"Where is the plan going Kaf ?" ask Mr. Ridwan

"Masjid Raya sir, you must know that the mosque is being discussed very much now. The page is very broad. We will be able to study there. There's a small date orchard nearby too"

"MaaShaaAllah is good"

Mr. Ridwan who heard that was enthusiastic. He approved Kaffa's advice and will take care of his budget soon. Kaffa who knew that was very happy and smiled with satisfaction. Kaffa hopes that way Abira can melt into him.

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At home..

tingg.

"I'm working on something to make your wish come true and you have to come along to take care of the kids"

Abira's eyes suddenly widened to read the message. Abira wondered what Kaffa meant in the message. What efforts Kaffa is doing for him and why he is trying to do it all.

Although Abira was thoughtful and curious, still he did not respond to the message, Abira took a deep breath and spread her body. Almost every night Abira thought of Kaffa and Alya. Almost every night, Abira tried to throw away her feelings in spite of whatever efforts Kaffa was doing for her.

3 Days later at work..

"kids, please be quiet for a while because ustadz wants to announce something" said Kaffa.

"The next week we will hold an education trip to the Grand Mosque, prepare yourself. Later ustadz will give a letter for parental permission" continued Kaffa while staring at Abira

Hearing that, Abira was shocked. Heart's pounding. Abira reflexively raised her bowed head. Even more shocked at that time when he looked directly at Kaffa despite being a few meters away. He could clearly see Kaffa smiling at him. Fortunately Abira quickly regained her senses and again lowered her gaze.

"It turns out this is what Kaffa meant in the message. Where does he know that I really want to go to the Grand Mosque, especially with children" murmured Inner Abira

Suddenly Abira remembered something. When Kaffa approached himself and the children that day.

"Why are you doing this to me Kaf. You keep making me feel all wrong."

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"Kafs.. Next week, accompany me home. I want to introduce you to my mother and father and my other family" Alya asked with a happy face

It is different from Kaffa. He who heard that while drinking instantly choked.

"Huh...what..to your house ?" kaffa replied

"Yes to my house. Why ? you will also take me to your home. Is there a problem ?"

Of course that's a problem for Kaffa because next week is his trip with the children and also his work team to realize Abira's dream. It is impossible for him to do all this, but he who does not follow.

"Sorry Al, I don't want to, but I've got extra work with my friend and I've done it" Kaffa told a lie

"Oh, I'll have another time"

Although Alya seemed relaxed about Kaffa's rejection, his heart thought of something different. Alya assumes that Kaffa avoided meeting his mother given the events of that time when their first meeting was not good. Alya tried to understand that and thought that Kaffa also needed time.

Kaffa has no problem with that. Kaffa refused because what he thought at that time was realizing Abira's desire. His feelings for Abira make Kaffa more often lie to Alya.

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seriate..