The Little Doomsday of My Heart

Bitter reality

From that day on, Kaffa seemed like a different person. Even when with Alya, his mind still goes where. When Alya asked what was wrong with him, Kaffa again gave the same answer that he was fine. Alya certainly knew Kaffa was covering something up and Alya kept thinking about it. As a result, Alya's health went down.

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When in class ..

Malika was seen looking at Abira who was sitting near the window, Malika looked hesitant. It seems like he wants to ask something.

He dismissed his doubts for a moment and walked towards Abira's seat.

"Abira" said Malika

"What's wrong ?" replied Abira who was a little surprised by the arrival of Malika

"At least busy ? I want something" Malika said with a sad look

"InShaaAllah no. What's up ?" abira replied with a smile

"Hhmm.. You think secretly putting love to someone is wrong ?"

"Not wrong. Love is fitrah. Everyone has the right to give or to receive love. Especially in a secret way. It's wrong if we fail to express it"

"Fragal expressing ? meaning ?" malika asked looking at Abira fixedly

"yes, the meaning is like expressing love by courting, throwing love, holding hands or even more than that. You know QS. Al-Isra verse 32. God forbids us to approach adultery. We are forbidden to do so much less. This is God you told me to"

"Including loving someone who is already with someone else?" ask Malika again

The question made Abira shocked. Abira felt Malika was insinuating him. But a second later Abira thought back that absolutely no one knew about his feelings for Kaffa.

"Oh God, it's impossible. Why did I become a suudzhon" murmured inner Abira

"Ra" call Malika to break Abira's daydream

"Yes Ka, that's wrong too. What is it for, after all, to love a person who is clearly challenging God for breaking His commandments. It is better to give love to someone else who is more deserving, than to feel the pain of forbidden love clapping one hand"

Malika was stunned to hear that, their chat stopped when it turned out that the lecturer had entered the classroom.

While after Malika's departure, Abira looked out the window, she closed her eyes, biting her lower lip. His mouth was dull, but his heart seemed to have collapsed.

"Oh Allah what I say. Forgive my hypocrisy, I even love people who are already with others, even though each of them denies it but somehow my heart still does not freely love it" murmured inner Abira again

Actually Abira himself from the beginning did not want to be used as a place to get answers Islamically from every problem of his classmates. Mostly the problems of love and feelings. There are times when Abira is fed up. Abira was afraid that God would test himself on his every word. But he also realized he had to keep advising his friend in accordance with the knowledge he had. Abira could only pray that God would always mourn every step of the way.

When the lesson is going on all of a sudden...

"Alyas.. Alya" said one of the people who was shaking Alya's body

"Bu Alya fainted" said one of the others reporting to Dosen

Instantly the class became boisterous worried. Without exception Abira who reflexively stood up and wanted to approach. But his steps stopped when the lecturer Bu asked to take Alya to the campus clinic. Of course Malika, Anggun and Nisa are his best friends who have moved quickly to do that.

"The others continue the task that you have given" said the lecturer while leaving the class

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In clinic...

"Where is Alya ?" kaffa said with breath

The man was very worried about Alya when he got a call from Malika if Alya fainted. Luckily, Kaffa was not in college, so he could quickly approach them.

"Aren't you in Kaf's lecture ?" ask Malika

"My lecture eyes will start at noon." replied Kaffa with a worried look at Alya

Malika and the others had to re-enter the class because their courses were still ongoing. Kaffa told them to come in because he was going to look after Alya.

A few minutes later...

"Kaffa" said Alya slowly opening her eyes

"Alya, you are conscious" answered Kaffa holding tightly Alya's hand.

After a few hours Alya felt better. Kaffa forbids Alya to continue college that day and Alya complies. Kaffa continues to drive Alya home to his boarding house. Kaffa feeds Alya, accompanies her and comforts her until Kaffa's college hours arrive.

"I'm going in soon. You are not papa here by yourself, are you ? Malika and the others will be home soon. I called them"

Alya who was treated by Kaffa gently nodded her head lightly with a smile.

Cupp..

Kaffa kissed Alya's forehead while holding Alya's hand tightly.

"Take care of yourself, don't mind much, don't forget to eat and take the medicine" Kaffa said as he slowly left

For some reason every time Alya get such treatment immediately his heart melted and his pain healed. Though he knew, his health declined because of the thought of Kaffa. His body was limp due to lack of appetite and without eating he could not take medicine.

The next day, as usual, Kaffa sent Alya to college, although Kaffa forbade him not to go to college. Especially after Alya fainted yesterday, Kaffa was getting overprotective of him. But unfortunately at that time Alya insisted on wanting to go to college. The body that is still very weak makes Alya bad luck. Even Malika had left first.

Arriving in front of the building learned how shocked Alya was if all her friends were in front of the building. It turned out that the lecturer at the time suddenly reported that he could not attend, making his friends leave the class. Alya bowed resignedly that now he had been caught red-handed.

Some were even more shocked, namely Kaffa. When he saw that a pair of Abira eyes were watching him and Alya. At that time, Kaffa decided to take Alya back to his boarding house because of his weak condition.

It looks like Malika is sitting next to Abira because she is continuing her pending question yesterday. After Kaffa and Alya...

"Hmm ka.. can I change to ask you something ?" said Abira

"Sorry before, if you don't want to answer also papa ya. I wonder what Alya and Kaffa's relationship is ? You're his close friend, one more boarding. Must know a lot about them"

Because Abira has answered many of her questions, Malika was not reluctant to answer Abira's questions. Malika thought, if Abira asked that it must be because they saw the scene they had just seen when Alya was rammed by Kaffa.

"Ohh yes, you know Kaffa. Alya said you were once a school. Hm their relationship yes.what yes..if asked that I am confused what Ra wants to answer. As far as they have no status whatsoever, the two help each other, but really deket already like a book is the same cover. Kaffa is always worried about the situation of Alya, as well as Alya who is always worried when Kaffa is in trouble. But we know they like each other. Even Kaffa had asked permission to Alya's mother if she wanted to marry him while in the hospital first" said Malika explained at length

Deggs..

Hearing that fact at once Abira's heart was very cold, like something was slowly melting. His lips were unable to answer. His body instantly slowly weakened. Her tears wanted to be shed but she couldn't. How grievous was his heart now that his conjecture all along was true.

"Ra" call Malika to hold Abira's hand

The voice immediately resuscitated Abira.

"yes, ka ?"

"I am first. Later we continue to chat again, I have to go to kosan Kasian Alya" said Malika slowly stood up

"iya ka" Abira replied with a faint smile to cover up her feelings of sadness

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seriate..