The Little Doomsday of My Heart

Truth or lies ?

Seen from a distance there was a pair of eyes that were silently watching him.

"Abira.. why are you here ?" ask Kaffa

Abira glanced at the origin of the voice, how shocked it was that Kaffa.

Seeing that Abira was silent and never answered, Kaffa immediately sat down next to Abira.

"Why sit here ?" tanya Abira was scared by a little bit away

"Why ? it's a public place and everyone deserves to be here, including sitting in this chair. Want to reason to impress both ? relax Abira, this is a public place, look around you a lot of people. Don't tell me you're so cool with your own world that you don't consider those people. We are not both. This is a public place not a room" Kaffa said, looking at Abira, who kept his head down, not wanting to look at him

Abira just kept quiet without saying anything. This time he felt cornered by Kaffa.

"You're alone here" Kaffa asked again, looking around, no one accompanying Abira

Without saying a word, Abira just nodded.

"You know, talking to you is like talking to a wall" said Kaffa, who tried to taunt Abira.

Hearing that Abira was furious. He could not help but feel uneasy because Kaffa was sitting next to him.

"What do you want ? if there is no interest, go ! I know it's a public place, but I'm sitting here first" replied Abira who looked upset

Unexpectedly, Kaffa turned his body right in front of Abira. Although he continued to look down, Abira could feel the movement of Kaffa's body facing towards him. At that time his heart was racing, Abira was wrong, he was comfortable in that place and did not want to go home, but the presence of Kaffa disturbed him.

"Why have you been cold to me ? we're no longer in class and we're not competing with Abira"

Abira did not answer. He just bowed silently listening even though his heart was full of grief.

Kaffa took a deep breath and leaned his body on the chair body while staring at the vast lake before him. For a moment he enjoyed the coolness.

"Why did God make my way like this ? Even though you're being cold to me, but I'm sure you know very well that I admire you so much"

"You know Abira. The present me is the result of my feelings for you. I've been studying hard until I was so eager to beat you"

"But fate separated us all these years, I looked for you until I resigned and forgot about you. But now without having to bother looking, you come in my life again. We're so close. It's only tens of inches away"

"Like a dream it feels, let alone seeing your change. You're getting cold like an iceberg. That attitude is what makes me want to get closer to you. Although we never had any special communication in person, but realize almost every day we are on one roof and I keep watching you"

Kaffa.

"And I felt that admiration was coming to the surface. Your family also so kindly welcomed me."

Hearing all that Abira tried to hold back her cries. His face remains down. His clenched hands held all the feelings that were stirring his heart. What he heard just now made him realize one thing. That all this time he and Kaffa were looking for each other. Secretly admiring each other, the most important thing is that he made Kaffa change and Kaffa was the one who made him migrate. All of this is based on ambition that does not want to lose.

"What do you mean ? what do you want from me ?" asked Abira who was still not strong looking at her interlocutor

"Let's know. I don't understand this feeling myself...."

"You admire me but you love Alya" Abira said cutting off Kaffa's words

"Alya ? what do you mean ?"

"Already, everyone also knows that you are dating. Throw away those feelings of awe because I am not a woman worthy of admiration. I'm just an ordinary woman. Remember Alya !" abira replied firmly

"Me and Alya are close, very close, but we don't have any status. She's the girl I knew when Ospek used to be, we're one group. He was very kind to me, helped me a lot. Do you know Alya has a tumor ? he's a country boy who's alone in this town, I'm dealing with him and wants to return the favor by helping him fight the disease. Whether it's the hospital taking care of a lot of files, or even just taking him where he wants. Abira's weak physique"

Hearing that Abira just smiled cynically as if not believing everything Kaffa said. In his mind there was no woman and man who could purely be friends without any feelings. Abira tries to convince himself that Kaffa is not a good man because he does not ignore the boundaries of friendship between men and women even though it is based on pity.

Of course Abira did not know clearly the life of Kaffa during this time. Especially the life of Kaffa with Alya. Abira only knows now that Kaffa is someone who understands and is very capable in religious science.

A second later Abira left Kaffa alone without responding to all his explanations.

Kaffa could only see Abira's back slowly moving away from his sight. He took a long breath back.

"Aarrghhhh greedy, you greedy Kaffa !" the Caffa sarcasm to himself

***

Throughout the night Abira seemed riled up thinking about all the events last day that continued to disturb his mind. Word by word came back to his ear. For a moment Abira cried, for a moment he immediately realized his situation.

"Ya muqollibal qulub.. O almighty One who turns his heart upside down, strengthen my heart above Your religion" the inner voice of Abira is very soft

Since that incident, Abira has kept his distance from Kaffa. When delivering her home, Abira did not wait until Kaffa came home as usual. Abira went straight into her room.

***

Classed.. Abira continued to pay attention to Alya with a hard to interpret look. His eyes were staring but looked sad and empty.

The lesson began, the lecturer asked them to count to divide a group of two people to cooperate in doing the task. Unexpectedly, Alya and Abira entered into a group. Doubt arose in Alya's heart because this was the first time he and Abira were in a group. Given Abira's cold attitude and tends to only want to work alone, Alya is getting unwell.

"Hm.. Abira... We do it in my room after this lecture ? how ? Malika does this task at the costan Nisa and Fara again group work so there are no people" Pinta Alya hesitantly

"Yes Alya" Abira answered briefly

Dikosan Alya they cooperate. The first time a group with Abira, the first time also made Alya realize that Abira is not as bad as people think. Abira is a good partner, even they occasionally slip the workmanship of the lecture with typical female chatter that makes them laugh together. Alya realized why only Rosa understood Abira, because it was not enough to know Abira just with a short chat and a momentary view.

Suddenly their activities stopped for a moment because of the arrival of someone.

"Assalamualaikum" said someone

"Waalaikumussalam" Alya and Abira answered simultaneously

How shocked Abira saw the person who came was Kaffa. Likewise, Kaffa was shocked to see Abira was raped by Alya. His heart was full of questions as to what the two of them were doing.

"What's Kaf ? how come here without telling ?" tanya Alya broke Kaffa's gaze which stared in shock at Abira

"Ohh this. anu. I want to take the book that was purchased yesterday" replied Kaffa stammering.

"Ohh that book, I'll get it for a second"

"this" said Alya handed over the book in his hand

"Thank you. I'll go first"

"yes together"

After his death Kaffa from kosan made the room quiet for a moment. Alya is back busy with her duties while Abira is busy with her thoughts.

"It looks like Kaffa is here often" murmured Abira

Abira looked at Alya who was sitting in front of her. Full of questions.

"Hmm. Sorry Alya, maybe I'm a little presumptuous. I want it, what is your relationship with Kaffa ? you seem so close. Again sorry before, if this question bothers you and if you do not want to answer, do not need to answer yes. I was just curious because almost all the kids in the class were talking about you" said Abira who ventured to ask her something she really wanted to ask

"Ohh Kaffa yes.he is my friend, we know because of one group during ospek, we are very close, because this is the first time I have a male friend after I graduated from the cottage. He's very kind to me, he's like a physics teacher to me. You must know Abira, my background is boarding school and we did not intensely study general subjects. I'm in trouble and there's Kaffa helping me. Even when I knew about my illness, she never left me and was always there to help me. Not only him, his family was so good to me. Just like Kaffa they also received me well regardless of my illness which always troubled them. I'm a country boy and I don't have anyone in this town, Kaffa and his family are like my second family"

"Regarding the gossip of the class children I did not think of it at all. They have the right to argue, whereas I have no right to force them to assume according to my will" Alya replied

Hearing that Abira was stunned. Abira lowered her head to hold all the confusion in her heart and mind.

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seriate..