The Beautiful Doctor is My Mother

Desperate Asa

Your name is still stored in this galaxy of hearts

It is stored among the universe of souls

It's stuck tight

All the way through memories

I feel your presence is still with you

If you hear the deep voice of the heart

I honestly admit

I still keep the flavor

Even though you've both now

Hearts and feelings are the same

Will not fade erased time

Even if we are no longer together

Always your shadow is stored in the soul

Keep on staying and always take care of me

Although now everything is different

The moment you left

I'm not gonna let this taste die

Let it continue to lean on the heart

I won't regret it

Even though I can only have it in my dreams

I will forever be lost in illusion

Because your love I will never have again

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APARTMENT

at two o'clock in the morning, his eyes are still difficult to be beaten. thousands of pieces of wound present in his eyes.this man is frail, his soul is really hurt by love that he may never have.

" anggiieeeeeee. "the voice of faisal echoed in his apatemen. The screams in between the tears of regret, the woman who grew love and gave him true wounds really made him crazy.

He walked in the minibar in front of him, stumbling as he tried to approach the bulkhead that blocked him, with all his energy in taking the glass bottle in front of him then..

Pyarrrrrr...

The bottle was smashed on the glass table of his apartment mini bar, glass debris strewn on the table and marble floor he stepped on, but the piece of glass was still held.

" i will end it all.Let my love be lost with your happiness.. "

Fresh red blood poured out from between his hands.the pain in his hand, could not beat the pain in his heart.the woman he had always wanted to have was not able to have.

" i can't find a place where this heart can go home.I can't find a place where this soul can feel tranquility.I can't find happiness in this world, my place is not here.His heart is not where I live anymore.. "

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Mas baim, raised my body that is still sitting in the front seat of the dressing table and tightly grasped my fingers.underneath me sitting on the bed, we face each other in the middle of the change of night to morning. our face, in the flow of the crystal of sadness, as if it would be a circle of tears that can translate the groaning of roar in our hearts.

ting's..

I heard the incoming message on my phone, though,.

" look. " mas baim grabbed the cell phone lying on the bed next to our seat.whether the phone was there, I can't remember.and then mas baim handed it to me..

I opened my cell phone code, and opened the incoming message.I was shocked, it says..

Trx rec: 6265- xxxx-xxxx-xx-x

Gifts

Rp 1,259,439,450. 12/8/20

01.59

I couldn't believe what I saw, I heard the mas baim's phone ringing.he stood up, and picked up the phone that was placed in the corner of the dresser and returned to the bed sitting right in front of me.

" hello "

" i've done boss "I heard a voice at the end of his phone. It was quite loud and clear.

" i see it, continue your rest. Sorry to bother you tonight thanks "mas baim turn off his phone and put it on a pillow.

I looked at the cell phone and mas baim in turn.

" mas, did you do this?? what does. a billion mean?? for what?? I'm not going to sell my love to you, I'm sorry I can't take it.. "

" do you see the evidence ?? "

" gift? a gift for what?? I'm not having a birthday now.. "

" it's a gift for everything you give me and my son. "mas baim handed over his phone, and showed a photo of a smiling zaskia being held in his arms. I don't know, I don't understand what it means. I cried even more thinking about the contents of my head that suddenly made me dizzy. With a cry, I rubbed my forehead.

" what do you mean, I don't understand?? "

" it's a gift, for you from me and zaskia. I have nothing to give you, but my heart, love and everything I have including all the money, even my wealth. this is not enough for me, because seeing you make me and my daughter happy is not going to be comparable to the smile that is always on my daughter's face, seeing Zaskia continue to cry asking her mother to accompany her, but can not. you who are not her birth mother are even able to calm and love her like her own birth mother, thank you.. " I hugged my dear husband again, I really did not want anything. I just want to see this man in front of me happy without seeing him sick, or I incised wounds intentionally or unintentionally.

" i don't need any of this mas, I just need you. "I cried with this heavy but weak body.

" that's enough, dowry and this house.I don't even need this money, let me keep you and zaskia.you're more than I want.. "

Mas baim let go of my embrace, and he stroked my cheek and wiped away the tears on my face.

" accept, that's all I have. You don't sell your love, but you give it to me. Even your love won't count if it's nominated, your affection for me and my son will not be able to buy anything. Thank you. "mas baim kissed my forehead, with his hand still clasping this finger tightly. then kissed the back of my hand friendly, warm as if touching my body.

" mass. the man. "I stopped my speech, when the index finger of the baim silenced my mouth.

" hussstt. don't you have to answer today's question mas.we will discuss it next time, mas know you don't fully want to tell a story.. you're not the kind of woman who would kill me like that. "mas baim looked at me and stroked my cheek, then kissed this forehead many times.

" don't cry, I've prepared hot water for you to take a shower, maybe it's warm now. wash yourself. mas wait here. I want to sleep hugging you, I want to sleep hugging you, the scent of your body that is able to make the soul peaceful and calm. "I just nod my head to understand.

" well, wait a minute. adek will not be long. "I kissed her cheek flash.

" i love youuuu" she said in her ear, then I stood up and walked to the bathroom, only to see me and smile.