The Beautiful Doctor is My Mother

reminiscences

2 weeks later

I still love her, despite the distance between us. I still find out, even though I am not in my home country. I can only look at her picture while we are still together.

I still keep all the memories with him.When I decide to leave him, every second that I feel death is with me and my daughter-in-law.

I love her more than I do, being with her makes me fall in love every day.His smile, her laugh, her pretty face, her soft hands, her promise to me makes me so eager to have her.

I knew her when she was in a koas at one of the hospitals I worked in. I fell in love at first sight, the face behind the hijab teasing me every second, she said, and the minutes even made me unable to stop thinking about it. Slowly but surely, I had managed to seize her heart.

He never knew about my life, but I knew every life and every day.He always told me all his complaints and happiness, but I always covered about myself, I always covered up, I am a man who has married because of an arranged marriage.I was forced to accept my wife because I did not want to hurt my parents.but if I'm honest I never loved her.he, she, my wife is always busy with her personal affairs, she always ignores me, does not serve me like a husband even though it is just cooking and preparing my needs.she is rarely at home, she is not, I also never looked for it even because I had no sense of it either. I did not get any household happiness from it. Even after two years of our marriage, I did not get any happiness from it, he and I have never been in a relationship like a husband and wife.What kind of marriage I am currently in, I also do not know.

Until finally he was present amid my saturation of a marriage that there was no happiness in him. he was present giving color in my dark life.Interacting with him every day, makes me completely forget my marriage. until we finally got together.

A year we made a commitment to be a couple. I was very professional in working so that the hospital no one knew about our relationship.until in the end, the, he knows the truth that I have a wife.

It was all wrong with me, I was never honest from the beginning but believe me, I was, I was every day looking for a way to tell the truth, but I was too cowardly until he finally found out from someone else.

Like being struck by lightning during the day, he asked for the end of our relationship.

" why didn't you ever tell me?? why are you hiding it?? I cannot be in a relationship with a married man.I will not accept your love even love you, if I know you are married.I ask us to just end this relationship. forget I "remember, he ran away leaving me sitting drowning in an internal medicine room.

From that day on he ignored the phone, and my message.he even avoided me when we met in the hospital.For weeks I made him like a madman. I was so messy back then, until finally something dirty came to my mind.

" i will force it. I will keep it with me. Whatever I will do for you to be mine "

Until that afternoon, I asked a colleague who knew about our relationship to send her a message that I was sick, and unconscious while in the hotel for a health seminar. either she still had feelings for me, or it was just worry . she came to the hotel room where I was resting. I opened the door and quickly closed the door, he who felt astonished because he was alone there looked at me without going deeper.

I got closer to him, he rewinded a few steps and I opened the forcible lick and I ripped his shirt off.

" ahh stupidyaaaa I. if I don't do that "curse in the heart.

It just kept spinning around in my brain.

From that moment on, I had the courage to divorce my wife, and I did not care about my parents who opposed the decision I was going to take. after I filed my lawsuit, he said, I decided to rise from the hospital and chose to go abroad and work there to forget it. But instead of forgetting, I did not forget more, but I was more tormented made.

Every day I think of him, his laughter and smile still dancing in front of my eyes.I always find out the news through my colleagues who are in the hospital where he works. I finally decided to return to my country after 3 years.

I still hope for my love, I still hope we can be together because I have decreed widower and live alone.more I am happy when I hear it is also still alone.

But love came back to my side, until I finally heard she was married to one of the wealthy businessmen in her hometown.My heart ached hearing it. My heart was like being stabbed by a knife many times. I cried lamenting the fate of my love.

A beautiful destiny is not on my side..

" it's late, won't the doctor come home?? the clinic is deserted, there are no patients anymore.doctor iqbal and others have also gone home "he added.

" come home first, I still want to be here. tell me toha sir to close and lock all the doors and gates.. "

" is the doctor sick?? I don't have to go home, doc, let me go with the doctor here. "mas Eko insists on keeping me company.

" go home, your wife's son is waiting for you at home.. "

" they will understand. later let's not call doc.. briefly I make white coffee first. "I look at the eco mas who left me. I just nodded my head.

Not long ago mas eco returned to bring 2 cups of white coffee. fragrant call to calm my head, which was like going to break when remembering it.

" this is doc. please drink.. "

" thank you for "

" more thoughts, doc? tumben doctor wants to spend the night in the clinic.. "

" yes, there's a lot more to think about until it feels like my head is full "

" what many thoughts include one of the diseases in the dock?? " he asked me. I chuckled at hearing that.

" it could be "I grab a coffee cup, and take a little sip of it.

" do not think too much doc, indeed life is not in accordance with what we want, but the doctor believes that God has prepared everything well and precisely "

" do you love your wife so much ?? " i ask you to come to surprise him.

" i love him very much, doc, to get his heart I have passed the various aral rintang "he replied. I chuckled again to hear his words.

" let me guess, is the doctor thinking of a woman?? " i just nodded looking at it.

" do the doctors love him so much?? doctor's wife?? or a girlfriend ?? or an ex-girlfriend ?? " i did not answer but took another sip of the coffee that was still in my hand.

" don't guess from the look and attitude of the doctor, it looks like an EX-BOYFRIEND ?? is it true ?? " i nodded my head again.

" do the doctors love him so much?? did the doctor not forget what the former called?? " he asked me. I was silent again.

" dok, the former not only gives us pain but also gives us happiness. is the doctor feeling between the two ?? " i nodded my head again, my tongue as if.