Status I Never Wanted

The Time of Birth Arrives

Day by day it has been passed. Now I'm checking my content which has turned seven months old.

I see other patients - the same patients - just want to check the contents. Because I see the same state of them - as well as have been pregnant.

But here the difference is that I only come alone without the company of my husband. As for them, they were accompanied by their respective husbands.

"Geez when am I like them. Can be in the same room as my husband. But the wealth is impossible, even my husband never came home at all" I said in my heart after seeing other patients among their husbands.

There is a stomach in his wife, there is another talk with the baby and there is also a debate about the sex of their baby.

Envy maybe this is how I feel right now. I envy seeing those who are so cared for by her husband, in love with her husband, loved and cared for so well by her husband. And most of all their husbands are willing to give time just to accompany and know the condition of their baby.

But I feel like I'll never feel that. Even to hear my husband's voice I never felt when he didn't come home after a week of our marriage.

When I crave when I'm five months pregnant. Which may be an easy thing to do, because the cravings I want are only embraced by my husband even if it is only a minute but it can make me happy.

However, I was deep-seated - in that craving of my cravings. Because I don't have the courage to ask my husband to come home to me just to ask for a hug.

Fear and various negative thoughts were unrelenting - I stopped pinning it to my husband. Afraid she was angry, afraid she wouldn't fulfill my wish and many more filled my head. When I wanted her to just hug me.

When I get too late in my thoughts. The call in my name also made me realize that now is my turn to check my content.

"Mother Risna" calls from a voice source telling me that it's time for me to go in to check my contents.

I went inside and began to be examined by a doctor.

"This mother is the baby, her condition is currently good and healthy. The development is also increasingly visible" said the doctor told me the condition of my baby at this time.

"Yes ma'am" said the doctor in response.

After finishing the examination of the womb and the condition of myself and my baby is fine. I also went straight home.

Two months later, my pregnancy was about to enter the birth. Various preparations have been prepared for me and my family to welcome the birth of my baby.

To the point where I was in the delivery room because a few minutes ago I had a contraction. Thank God shortly after the contraction I immediately opened the perfect opening which is an opening that the baby will come out by itself without waiting for the initial opening first.

Which is usually experienced by pregnant women who want to give birth to their first child. But I'm lucky I didn't experience it because when I got here my baby would be ready to start this new life.

I had time to feel insecure about myself because there was no husband who stood by me when I struggled to give birth to this baby. But my family is unrelenting - endlessly giving me the spirit and support for what happened to me.

"If only you were here. Accompany me when our baby is born. Even when you were pregnant, you did not accompany me. At least when giving birth I want you to have a mas." I said that it seems only a hope without a reality.

"Son you can definitely get through this. Convinced that you and your baby must have survived" said the mother trying to encourage me.

"Let's have your father and mother and family waiting for the good news, so fight" he told me.

Because of their support, I finally want to fight and have the spirit to always accompany, care for and educate my baby alone without my husband that I do not need to think about.

My focus right now is to face what has happened to me for the irresponsible actions of my husband.

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