Status I Never Wanted

Without Direction And Purpose

When I said my apology and guilt for the man I beat. I also left her.

But as I stepped out of the door of the room, the person I was beating let out a voice. He was delirious in his sleep who cried out for forgiveness, against someone and the look of his sleeping face also showed a look of fear. Which makes me feel so guilty.

Trauma and increased mental disturbance of the person. Makes me sad and tearlessly tear out of my eyes by itself.

And then guilt and regret. I feel it now. Until without me knowing the next minute my soul began to shake again and I could not control.

I started to get hysterical because of the many thoughts I wasn't supposed to think. I went out of that person's room running very fast without any direction and purpose.

And somehow the gate of this hospital opened without anyone guarding there. And I ran out of this hospital. Leaving without anyone seeing a single person that I had already left the hospital.

When I was outside the hospital I started running to and fro without feeling tired in the slightest. Although from the moment I left the hospital I shouted - screaming and not using footwear on the asphalt road which was very hot when not using footwear even when using footwear still feeling the heat. So it can be concluded how it feels like I run without direction not using footwear.

People who accidentally met me on the street. They all avoided me because they were afraid of me. With my messy appearance, like hair that began to look unkempt, talking to myself, clothes used untidy and much more.

As I began to feel thirsty and hungry I saw a little boy eating and drinking the drink he was carrying. I went up to him and took the food and drink from him.

And I immediately hugged the boy whom I imagined she was my little daughter whom I had longed for as long as I was in that hospital.

In his arms the boy was in my arms. Until the boy tried to avoid this hug from me. Because I felt my embrace piqued and made me feel uncomfortable when I hugged him I immediately yelled at the child I was hugging in a voice that terrified the child.

And the next second was crying very loudly in my arms. Which doesn't make me feel sorry for seeing it. It made me even more angry with the boy.

Until people start hearing the sound of a child crying loudly and they start looking for the source of the sound of the child's cry.

They finally saw me hugging the boy very tightly and almost took his life because I was holding him too tightly.

But that ultimately did not happen because people already knew the source of the crying sound. And straight away separated me from the child I was hugging tightly.

Next Episodes...

🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸