Status I Never Wanted

Fear

Until it didn't feel like night had come. And I just opened my eyes. It was so long I fell asleep.

I don't know what made me fall asleep to a night like this. Is this because I'm too afraid to face the reality I'm experiencing.

Until I don't want to get out of bed fast. Or maybe it's because I'm too tired of the day I'm having right now.

I don't know at all either. Though this is something that I experienced but I was like a person who did not know at all.

Strange isn't. Because this is my own experience and who feels also myself but I am even a person who does not know what - what I feel.

Is it because I'm too sock with this reality. And I still remember what happened until I was like a fool.

It was like this time when my mother asked me who was curious as to what made me ignore her words earlier.

I didn't focus on what my mom asked me. Until my mother asked me what I was and I also answered something other than what was asked.

Like a conversation that will not be finished and his words all there is nothing right and connect.

This has made my mother even more worried about my answer and the behavior I was pointing to.

I was worried that my mental illness would come back. After a year I struggled to recover from the illness.

Even my mother shed tears because of that fear. Unlike my father, he showed no fear. Instead of just silently responding to this all calmly.

And the look in his eyes that seemed to be holding back sorrow and fear. It seems clearly visible to me. But I ignored the treatment of my mother and father.

Evil is not even though the two of them have been so worried about me to aggravate his worries with different things.

But I was so afraid to tell you what I was going through right now. I was afraid that my parents would scold me for not being meticulous while receiving a work call without seeing the clarity first.

This fear of mine instead of making me calm makes me even more depressed. Moreover, seeing the tears of the mother who drips endlessly.

Until I finally let go of that fear. And started telling me everything I was going through when I was in that guy's room.

When I finished telling you about the incident. I was so worried to see the expressionless faces of my parents.

And their lips were locked in response to what I had told them. A few minutes later, there was finally something they said to me.

Not far from them feel very - very sad and angry into a combination that is felt by them at this time. Sad to see that I was the victim.

And angry at the person who became his perpetrator. Because when their daughter wants to find money to be able to meet the needs of her daughter. Even used by people like that. It was very curious that they reported the man's actions to their daughter. But what evidence will they show. They have no evidence at all.

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