Status I Never Wanted

The Event Three Years Ago

Adolescence is a time when many teenagers want to do new things and try something they have never felt before so they can feel for themselves.

Like this story I've been through. Before I tell my story, allow me to introduce myself.

"Hay my name is Risna Agustin I'm only 17 years old and I'm now in the 2nd grade of High School last semester."

My story began when I knew someone I had never known before. The beginning of our meeting when he worked in the area where I lived and he often bought food in stalls around my house. I don't know because often he saw me when buying food or whatever it was but obviously at that time we also lived the name dating.

He used to come to my house and play outside. Until one day he was drunk and I was beside him while drunk, even though this was the umpteenth time I was dating a man, a man, but never once have I gone through the boundaries of courtship that leads to things that are too far away, rather doing relationships s.i.i. Yes, at that time I also did not know why I wanted to be invited to have a relationship like that and strangely I knew he was drunk and why I wanted to, too, if something happens after this relationship and he does not want to be responsible I am the one who will be harmed, but this has happened and I cannot change.

A few days after the incident I decided to end this relationship. We also lost contact at the time.

"I want to end this relationship and forget all the things that have happened between us" said the man before we lost contact.

The days after that incident, I had a day like I usually go to school, and enjoyed playing with my friends at school.

But it didn't last long, because after that I didn't know how I felt about the days I spent, what is usually so eager to go to school becomes discouraged again because it crossed my mind over the incident.

I'm afraid that I'm sure I feel. But I tried to convince myself that all that would pass and I didn't need to remember.

"It was all just a mistake, and I should be able to forget it. Then I'll keep it and I won't tell anyone else about it. Because I don't want events that I shouldn't remember and I should forget about in my life, especially that man." This is my inner voice that I let out at that time.

The man who put me in this kind of situation. Situations where I was confused, should I tell my parents about this matter or buried it deep inside and not tell them this.

Because I'm afraid they're angry and disappointed in me. For the mistake I made, the mistake I didn't make because it was also the fault of the man against me.

"Em.. it's good to eat rujak" I said not when I eat rujak.

"Geez, you will not have any stomach pain. Dinner night - gini-rich tomb." said mother to me.

"Yes mom actually said that. Not usually you want to eat rujak until it runs out, continue to eat it again at night. You're okay - why are you?" my father asked me too.

"No ko bu, well I just want to eat rujak again. I can't" said I to my parents' words.

"Not wrong at all. But squirming you are rich gini makes wonder aja mother same father. Yes, yes" said my mother answered my words and asked my father.

"Hem" said the father answering the mother's words with deheman and a nod of the head.

The conversation finally stopped on its own.

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