SHACKLED IN LOVE IN A NEIGHBORING COUNTRY

Insecure

Seriously? Ok, I want to talk to you seriously. When are you getting married? Usually women need more attention because women like to be demanded by age, family and others. Have you opened your heart to someone? What reason?"

"I'm not targeting when to get married. If there is someone who catches my attention, will accept me as I am and will be responsible to me born and my mind accept him. But, if you marry just to play games and sin, I won't marry. The demands of age and other people are not at all I am gubris anyway I did not ask him to eat why think about the words of others?"

If I need attention and support, I don't want to rely on beings whose names are Human because they are all fake many of which don't work well for their partners. So, I just made myself and my god to lean on."

If opening the heart has always done it's just that I bodo very same feeling someone because I know that feeling is normal in nature by humans but less likely to have it because there is no guarantee someone we like likes us isn't necessarily a soul mate either."

"Do you feel inferior? I think you might consider yourself unworthy of being owned by someone you like."

What Khaizan said just now is true, I feel inferior and inferior to others. Because they are satisfied with people. At home in the parents' school, in the school of other students and teachers who do not like poor students and in the study in the face of other students.

While at home with my parents I roared with no time. Follow the neighbors who like to make me ride their blood forget to glorify the neighbors according to the shari'at. I feel like everyone in the house hates me, I don't know what a little baby's fault like mine is.

"Cock silent again? What are you thinking? Are you really a minder?"

I gasped again kahuzan already holding my hand reflex reflexively let go of it violently. "I'm not able to just not want to be rash in making decisions," of course, a lie.

"I feel like your heart is still hot because it's shackled by the past. Did I make you like this?" Hot? Because the situation is awkward so my heart is hot. The ice water is still hot.

"No really. I'm a woman today who thinks mostly about careers than households."

***

Coming home from TMII ll found no Haura in the room. Where's the girl?

I checked the cell phone turned out Haura was coming home from her parents to discuss their marriage. Am I disappointed? From the bottom of my heart I was disappointed. But, in the word.

Khaizan, she is not interested in Haura who is younger and certainly prettier than me. I don't know what it is that makes me express her feelings and want to marry me.

"Marry me! We're gonna start life over again from Zero. We forget what is in the past.we both struggle to organize the future and God willing with the presence of children will complete our happiness!" His words were still ringing in his ears.

"Zan, Haura is waiting for you to propose. The girl is nice, her heart is clean and very innocent don't ignore the feeling."

"I want you."

"Urusi used to be your relationship with Haura. I don't want to be a demon temptress to worship among you. Then I'll go home first."

***

Tonight I can't sleep because I think about what Khaizan said.

Out to buy indomie and eggs to cook. Eat one less noodle, cook another mostly. Huh.

The next day, Haura appeared with a face that flowered. I know he's happy because he thinks his marriage will be done in the near future.

"Cieee is blooming for her flower dong."

"That's a flower on the outside stick it on the face."

Hahah

"Where was the matter last night?"

"complicated. At first me and my family went to Khaizan's house and he wasn't home. There is only her mother. We're very disappointed, at 11pm Khaizan's coming home to us who's tired of waiting for him."

"Then?"

"That day we also discussed our marriage initially Khaizan asked for another month to approach. Her mother forbade being too tired because her son was still a neighbor and arisan mothers who wanted their children to be Khaizan's wives."

Her mother urged us to fast for 3 more days, she said it's not good to postpone the marriage."

"What's? 3 More days?" Feeling the lightning in broad daylight Haura said they would get married in the near future.

"Yes. You just calm down. Khaizan has many friends who are single. You just have to choose who attracts your heart to be made a girlfriend."

"Interesting isn't necessarily me pulling in his eyes."

"That guy whose name is a woman he's gonna want to."

3 More days they will get married this heartache added. God, what should I do? Am I looking for a new person who has had no relationship in the past?

This heart is why it is so hard to compromise. If Khaizan is not my soul mate, then. Let me find someone else who makes me feel comfortable complaining to him.

Shackled in Love in Negeri 79

This heart is why it is so hard to compromise. If Khaizan is not my soul mate, then. Let me find someone else who makes me feel comfortable complaining to him.

***

Khazan

Since the last chat with Haura and failed to talk to Shifa in the office today I want to meet both of them in Kos. Unfortunately there is only Haura there is no shifa.

Quietly contact shifa her number is off. Last active at 3 pm. Where's the kid going? As I tracked it turns out he was in a remote village in Jakarta. I don't know what the girl is doing right now.

Then I followed Shifa according to the location listed on the google map. Apparently he visited his old friend. They talked long enough.

Coming home from there I visited an apartment near the company I started. I see this apartment is already full of dust even though I am a man I do not hesitate to clean this all. Ah, actually the task of cleaning the house and sexinya according to the hadith and lecture ustadz that I follow the task of the most famous men abroad even many men who do it.

Very embarrassed to see in the country itself all homework is handed over to women who are majority Muslims do not even do something according to the Shari'a. A mother rather than doing homework is not her job better to use her time to be a smart mother and a private tutor for children.

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