
SHACKLED IN LOVE IN THE LAND OF NEIGHBORS 13
Shifa
Haizan embraced the woman's ping. Women like her lovers reciprocated her embrace by flanking Haizan's hand. There's something sick but it's not bleeding here. Am I jealous? I'm pregnant with her child. Only he touched me. But, he denied my accusation and now in front of my own eyes they were making out.
My heart hurts. Destroyed is my future.
"Darling! Who her? How come, this early in the morning he's already here? Are you cheating?" The woman looked at me.
"Haizan held his hand. "He's my distant cousin from the village. Want to work here. Cheated on? Not really, baby. You calm down, you ever see me cheating all this time?"
"Your cousin? He lives here? Although you're cousins but not mahram loh. Remember, many people who are not husband and wife gather kebo here."
"He doesn't live here just stop by. There's one roof for your cost."
"Oh, is that it? I'm sorry, baby I'm already suudzon with you." The woman I didn't know her name was looking back at me. I lowered my head while squeezing my chest. "Go home later! While playing to each other's boarding."
"Night he'll be home. He's got to find a job."
"Oh, haven't got a job yet. Where I'm at..."
"Yes, already. Yuk! We'll be late." Haizan cut his words. Where does he work? I can guess the end.
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After they leave I have to how? Haizan was completely unwilling to admit it and took responsibility. I'm tired, I'm tired, this week Haizan regularly brings the woman named Karina to this house. Every time I asked for responsibility, Haizan yelled at me.
Haizan
"Diaha! Every time you ask for responsibility. I said no yes, no. Do not repeat your rubbish words again if you still repeat them again. Please leave this house." I looked down, tears welling up. What else should I persuade him.
I wanted to tell Karina but didn't have her contacts. Did I just fall my womb? Yes, God forgive me for having to kill my own fetus.
There were already many young pineapples that he had eaten. It is not good on the tongue but for the sake of burying the contents remain in chewable. Do not forget to mix it with drugs and praying drinks that have a sick stomach wrapped around, the fetus is very strong.
"Diaha! What's wrong with you! You sick?"
"Ordinary pain due to congenital pregnancy. This is how your mother conceived you first. Danger if her husband doesn't look after her until the baby is born."
"Where's your husband?"
"He left not to take responsibility. At most had grown up his new son came and took custody of the child, probably not having children from his new wife." Haizan stayed long enough. I went to bed, Haizan left.
Haizan came again carrying a young pineapple skin, a bottle of fizzy drink and headache medicine. "You eat this? Wh-wh-what for? Is this what makes you sick?"
"Yes. I want to kill this fetus. It's a pity that living in his parents' world doesn't want his existence."
Tok tok tok tok
Carina
Karina came suddenly. It is time for the workers to go home. Do they want to spend the night together in this house? In my body and heart are broken.
"Darling! How come you're suddenly here? Why did you follow me here?"
"I suspect you. There was no sign of Shifa returning to her boarding house. I've been waiting for him ever since. Turns out he's still here. Tell me, who ate this? Wh-wh-what for? Did shifa eat it? Is shifa pregnant? Strange things to eat."
Because from that time on my hunch has been bad. Every time I ask why the shifa didn't come home to the boarding you switch the conversation. What does he mean? Don't assume I'm a fool who doesn't have to know anything here." Karina looked at us one by one. While Haizan was silent thinking what words he should say."
Karina started to get suspicious about our relationship. Is it time I told you? But, Haizan will kick me out. Whatever happens, I must be strong will not allow myself to suffer.
"Karin." I sat down to talk to Karina.
"Already! Shifa is sleeping. Karina I'll take you home."
"Wait on! Why are you two in this room? Have you guys ever fucked? If shifa is sick, I have been sick too, I take care of myself no one helps me. Kok, shifa is still spoiled. The habit in the village if sick is still brought to other areas."
Haizan! Shifa! Answer." Karina yelled to surprise us. This time I will not be silent anymore.
"I'm pregnant with Haizan's son. Haizan impregnated me drunk."
"What?"
"Diaha! Watch your mouth. Karim! Don't believe his words he's lying. Now, let me take you home."
"What's? I didn't hear wrong? Shifa's pregnant with your son zan! Right it? You impregnated her drunk."
"Yes, it's Karina. Unfortunately, he won't admit it."
"Karina! Hear me. Since the first time we met, I have never been neko-neko. You know it. Actually, Shifa came here two weeks ago pregnant. Here's proof. She's Shifa's real lover. When she was here, Shifa didn't know she was pregnant."
Deg
"Haizan lied. He's the one who impregnated me. Not the person in the photo. Karina you have to believe Haizan lied."
"Diaha! Watch your mouth. I'm sick of your accusations here. Now, the time and place I've set foot out of this house."
"Haizan! Why are you destroying me like this? You brought me here? You promised to help me get a job. But until now everything was just a lie. I've had you fooled me raw."
You're the one who harassed me in karoke and yesterday in a drunken state. I was devastated. When you are pregnant, you are not responsible. Want you what? Why destroy me like this."
"Is that really dear?"
"Not true at all. I told you he was lying. First time in Malaysia, she was pregnant. I saw the pregnancy test kit in her bag. Now he's downloading me. I can't help her find her a big risk job for her pregnancy."
Now, I'm so tired of being accused of mulu. Sorry, he's not my cousin. But, my old friend asked to be brought here for work. I had to lie there's no way I'm telling the truth. Now, you believe me what is he?"
Whahuh? Haizan is very good at tongue-lightning. It didn't occur at all that the end would be like this. Yes, Allah. Why is my fate so bad all this time. I was slandered to be pregnant before coming here. Yes, Allah. I just found out there are humans like. Why did you bless me here first, God. Now, I regret not following the words of my friend and not asking my father and mother for their blessing. Where should I go now, God.
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