Sacrifice of Love

I'm an Ordinary Man, too

Pov Inspiration.

Today is the Wedding Day of Love and Dika, I decided not to attend their Wedding party, because it felt like I would not be able to see the woman I loved so much as another man, even that guy is my best friend.

"Son, don't you want to attend the Wedding of Love and Dika?" ask Mom.

"No Ma'am, Inspiration will not be able to see the Inspiration Married to another man" I replied to Mother.

"Mother understands your feelings Son, but you must learn to give up Love, affirmation and pray for Love in order to live happily, like a Love that always sincerely prays for Inspiration, even though she was unable to witness the Inspiration Wedding just yet, she was still present to pray for the happiness of Inspiration, despite the fact that now the Ilham and Bella Wedding was over," Mother reminded me.

"Yes, Mom, Inspiration knows that Inspiration is selfish, but I see for myself Ilham fainted just by receiving the Love Wedding Invitation, especially Ilham had to watch the Marriage in person, but Ilham had to watch the Wedding directly, Inspiration will surely die standing, Ma'am" I replied to Mother.

"If it had been a decision of Inspiration, I could say nothing more. To be sure, I always pray that Inspiration will always be strong to accept this reality," Mother said to me, so I hugged her body in tears.

Today it felt so hard for me to go through, my heart now feels pierced by thousands of thorns, I can't bear the tightness in this chest, it feels like I want to cry and scream to blow it all away. So I finally decided to go to Mushola who was in the Hospital, because all I could do was complain to the owner of my life and death.

In my bow I shed tears that I could no longer bear.

Yes Alloh do I sin if I want the Marriage of Love and Dika void? forgive Me, O Allaah, for not being able to accept the destiny You have given me, I said in my heart.

After carrying out my duties as a Muslim, I went back to my place of care, and now I see my mother crying in front of the ICU Room.

"Why are you crying?" ask me to worry.

"Ilham, now your father's condition is critical" answered my mother.

"Patient mother, we must learn to let the Father, Mother witnessed for herself, right How tormented the Father with his disease?" I said to Mom.

The doctor came out and asked Mom and I to come in to see you.

"Mr Salma, Mr. Ilham, you should both meet Mr. Broto now, because maybe it will be the last time because of his increasingly critical condition. We are sorry we tried our best, but Mr. Broto's illness is too severe, even all his body is almost rotting," said the doctor. So that Mom and I rushed into the ICU Room where you were treated.

"Astagfirulloh Sir," said Mother when she saw the mouth of the Father who issued foam.

"Salma, I'm sorry" said the father to Mother.

"Ilham forgive Mr. Nak, I'm very sorry," said the father sounding soft.

Now his chest looks up and down with pain, maybe you are experiencing death saccharatul, so I try to help you by whispering the creed and the name of Allah in his ears. But you can't open your mouth anymore.

After a while the Father breathed his last with an outstretched tongue and wide eyes, and from his body now let out many maggots.

"Innalillahi waina ilaihi roji'un" said Me and Mother simultaneously.

I tried to close his eyes and tongue, but still can not, maybe it is the punishment of Allah that You must accept for his actions so far.

We both finally decided to bring Father's body back home so that it was bathed first before finally being buried. However, no one was willing to bathe Father's body because the stench of his body was so pungent, that only me and Mr. Ustad bathed the Body and soled it.

"Son Ilham should we hurry to bury Mr. Broto's body before it rains" said Mr. Ustad.

"Yes, sir, I have sent a grave digger to help carry the Body of the Father" I replied to Mr. Ustad.

We finally tried to lift the Body of the Father, but the coffin was very heavy even though it had been carried by six people.

"Astagfirulloh's chat..Nak Ilham seems like there is something that makes Mr. Broto's body heavy for us to lift," said Mr. Ustad. Until finally I tried to say to the Father's body by holding his coffin.

"Sir.. Inspiration has sincerely accepted all the destiny that Inspiration accepts, go calmly, Inspiration and Mother will always pray for the Father, Father, and Ilham will apologize on behalf of the Father to all who have been Mr. Dzolimi.

Finally, the body of the Father we could lift, and we immediately carried his coffin to a public cemetery not far from home.

How surprised we were all after arriving at the ground that was dug to bury the body of the Father, because there were already many snakes and leeches.

"How about Mr. Ustad, we can't bury you with the animal" I said.

"But Little Inspiration we no longer have time because it is raining now" replied Mr. Ustad. So that we were forced to bury the Father with Snakes and Leeches.

After the funeral was finished suddenly the grave Father was struck by lightning so that everyone who helped the funeral was rushed to disperse.

"Punish all the sins of Mr. Ya Alloh," my Do'a with a sigh to see the grave of the Father who now looks charred.

Maybe my heart is now as broken as the feeling of Love that must simultaneously feel the loss of our parents and loved ones.

Forgive me Love, for having scratched the wound in your heart, even if I accidentally. Now I will try to let go and let go of yourself to live happily with Dika, I said in my heart with tears.

Now Mom comes to me who is still sitting under the rain.

"Ilham, let's go home now, son, please let everything go, hopefully tomorrow will be better, and you will find happiness" Mother told me. So we both decided to go home.

With a soggy step I tried to walk by on the bopong by Mom.

"Thank you Mom, because when Inspiration falls, Mom is always next to Inspiration" I said to Mom, resting at her feet.

"I'm sorry, Ilham Bu, for not being able to be a devoted mother's child" I said by kissing my mother's soles. Because I believe my paradise is on my mother's feet.

"Wake up Son, Inspiration is the daughter of a wise Mother, at this time only Inspiration that Mother has, you must be strong for Mother's sake, rest assured behind all trials and tests there will be a silver lining."