Pluviophille Love Story's

Chapter 49's

“Mas let's eat, food is ready” invite Winanti on Panji.

Panji was still drifting in his daydream, Winanti knew what this man she loved was thinking.

Winanti also heard the news of Naya's disappearance during her hospitalization, it hurt so much when she only had a man's body in front of her, but her soul was only on someone.

But Winanti still did not want to give up!

“Mas?!” ask her again, this time while touching the hand of Panji.

“Eh yes Nay” Winanti heart menggelus when it is just another name that slides from the lips Panji, again he only becomes a shadow.

Before long he smiled, chose not to hear it, thickened his ears and strengthened his heart.

“Let's eat Mas” his birthday which is only embraced by Panji.

They go hand in hand, the body of the Panji exists, but his soul goes in search of Naya's whereabouts, there is no day that he goes through without thinking about his wife's whereabouts.

Naya has disappeared for a month, all the big families already know, she is infuriated by everyone, Panji is back alone.

Winanti again sighed as the two of them just ate in silence no more joking, no more stories while eating, nothing.

“Win, I want to go for a while ya”

Winanti's hand who was cleaning their former meal suddenly stopped, “Where is Mas?”

‘Mas Panji want to find Naya?’

“There is a deal” after saying that Panji directly go.

His full mind wanted him to lighten up immediately, only one place could possibly make him a little gamy.

His classic sedan car split the streets, not forgetting he stopped by to buy a bouquet of white lilies with a few rose stalks.

On the way he continued to ponder, repeatedly blaming fate was also useless.

The engine shuts down when it reaches its destination.

The banner goes in silence. The scorching sun that seemed to burn his body was nothing to him.

His sweat splashed, his hands trembling in rhythm with footsteps that already knew his purpose.

Ardhiana Kinanti's.

For the first time he dared to visit the tomb, his tears welling up instantly.

His limp body made him sit on his knees before the Kinanti Pusara.

Shadows about his past are ringing in his head.

‘Pak Panji must try the concept of sincerity, all that trauma can be removed with one sure step, mengikhlaskan all that happened’

‘Come to Mother Kinanti's tomb, tell me everything that stuck’

‘Fight all the things that made Pak Panji afraid to step’

Some of the advice of psychiatrists who helped her fight the trauma within her was summed up into one.

Since the accident Panji was declared severely stressed, he had difficulty sleeping, the shadow about the Panji and Kinanti accident at that time was always successful in making him stay up all night, until Panji had to take antidepressants so that he was a little calm.

Insecurities.

Always feel useless.

And guilt.

All that makes Panji slumped and impact on his mental health.

No one blamed Panji for the accident, only Panji felt that it was his responsibility.

He felt like he killed Kinanti.

Panji's tears are flowing.

“Maaf” said he opened the conversation.

His ice-cold hands tried their hardest to touch the tombstone.

The headstone was wiped with affection, as if Kinanti was the one who was touching Panji.

“Sorry I just came” Panji justifies his sitting position and puts the flowers he has bought on top of the Kinanti navel.

“I'm a lot wrong with you”

“I've killed you”

“Now, I'm hurting your sister”

“Can you forgive me now?” the question that came out was blowing in the wind.

Panji looked up, scooping his breath as much as he could to fill his suddenly crowded parrot cavity.

“If you were still here, we would have been husband and wife, right? like our dream was”, he said that he could control himself.

The accident two years ago also destroyed the dreams of those who had planned a wedding.

Suddenly he remembered his wife.

“I'm married darling”

“Although not with you, I decided to marry”

“He is beautiful, his nature is the same as yours” Panji laughs a little reminiscing of his wife.

“He's a rain lover, just like you.”

“Name as Kanaya”

“But I've hurt him, and hurt your sister”

“Two people blend yourself”

“Until I realized something, I've fallen in love with her Anti”

“On Kanaya”

“He brought new colors in my life”

“My love for her is sincere, although you also still have a special place in my heart”

“But now that he's gone, I've hurt him so much, just like you” the younger brother again, no matter how crazy he gets to be called crazy for talking to the grave since.

All the complaints he spilled in Kinanti's tomb, his hands were no longer shaking, his breathing began to be regular.

He was starting to feel relieved now, the burden that had been felt squeezed had been lifted.

“I will come back again, once in a while come in my dreams Anti, I always pray for you there, and if possible pray for me too yes, see you again” saying goodbye after finishing praying.

***

“What Lang?!” jolt Dewi, again Alan rubbed his wife's arm to calm down a little.

“Naya had been with you and only when she was lost did you just tell me the same story?!” acrimoniousness.

“How should I do Dew?! He himself told me not to tell anyone his whereabouts”

Dewi looks down in frustration, her best friend is missing, again Naya does not want to share her problems with him.

“You guys really think I'm cool?” lirih Dewi while sobbing.

“Darling, no story does not mean do not consider you a friend, there are better things to keep yourself, do not be sad ya” comfort Alan to his wife.

“I will find Naya until I meet Dew, I promise” this time Galang chose to help calm his best friend's wife who is also Naya's friend.

“She is pregnant Lang, we do not know how she is far from her husband, far from her family and close friends” said Dewi issued all her anxiety.

Galang was more pensive, the reason came because he himself had been deadlocked to find Naya where, just like Panji, Galang thought Naya was here, although the possibility was very small.

***

Tonight Panji is back alone in his room, like the previous nights, whether it has been how many kilos lost from his body, his body is getting thinner, eating no taste, sleeping can not.

After this afternoon he tried his psychiatrist's advice, Panji felt more at peace.

There is only one thing that comes back to him, the disappearance of Kanaya.

Instead of not trying, he had started sending some of his men to look for the existence of Kanaya, but still did not produce results.

The banner of visiting Winanti regularly, the good news is, he can already consider Winanti as Winanti.

Although still attached to him, Panji had already confirmed that his feelings were already 100% for Kanaya.

If he finds Kanaya, he will express his feelings, for now let them heal their wounds first.

Unlike usual, drowsiness led him to go to bed early.

“Hei wake!” The pennant opened his eyes as he felt someone pat his delicate arm.

Body riveted.

“Why? Shocked ya?” stupidly Panji nodded.

“Basic sleepyhead!” again, then the woman laughed.

“Merinduced me?” asked again, without warning Panji immediately embraced the figure in front of him.

TB