Pluviophille Love Story's
Chapter 41's
“Ma Panji titip Naya and our baby candidate ya” he said when delivering me home to Mama's house.
“Town by Nji, who are you like, these are also your children and grandchildren, you do not all nginep here?” asked Mama who made me look at Mas Panji for a moment, she also looked at me deeply.
We've talked about this, I agreed to keep this pregnancy as long as she's not at home with me as long as the problem isn't over.
“No Ma, Panji has business out of town” he replied a little nervous while stealing a glance at me.
“Oh okay, then be careful on the road ya”
“Ya ma”
To avoid my suspicion, I went out to take her, though reluctantly, as was my custom after becoming his wife.
“Mas go yes Nay, please take care of him as you promised”
“Please also to immediately solve the annoying problem, or you will regret if I have rounded my decision”
“Bby Mas kiss him Nay?” his question ignored my threat.
“Who?”
He chuckles lightly making me a little bit upset, “Our baby's candidate Nay, can Mas kiss your belly?”
“O-oh y-ya please”
He squatted down and rubbed my stomach gently and then kissed slowly, I looked away at the heartwarming scene, we shouldn't be this cold until he needed permission to kiss our future son.
“If you want something to tell Mas yes, do not hesitate” he said when he finished carrying out his mission.
“Iya”
“You want to kiss also not?” his god invited a sharp plot from me, he might tease me.
“OK well, it seems you do not need, then Mas pamit ya”
I nodded in response, he got into his car and left me who still could not accept this situation.
I'm pregnant, we had a fight and she had to sort things out with her ex-boyfriend, it's complicated.
***
It has been three days since Mas Panji left, since then I have experienced severe morning sickness, the title alone is morning, but I still nausea in the afternoon, even at night.
He never absent to inform me and ask me news, but I do not reply, my annoyance at him has not faded even intact, especially when I imagine that he is now with Winanti, and I have no reply, which is similar to his past.
Huhhh is very irritated, although Winanti is just an outlet, there is nothing to guarantee a woman and man do nothing if they always meet, at least comfort will certainly arise by itself.
Imagining it making me nauseous, I ran to the bathroom to get what this baby wanted to vomit out of my stomach, but again only clear liquid came out.
I curled up in front of the closet, it felt tired, wanted to vomit but could not, ate no taste while my mind was always wandering, this is how it feels to be a mother-to-be?
Why is it so uncomfortable, I want to give up, but I also do not want to kill my own flesh and blood.
Again I wept lamenting my poor fate.
Another thing I didn't like about this pregnancy, I cried so easily!
“Nak, what do you want? Don't torture mama like this dong Nak, papa you are wrong, why Mama is also the one you law, please cooperate ya Nak” lirihku while gently rubbing my stomach is still flat, trying to find an ally with a twelve-week-old fetus.
Tok tok tok tok
“Nay? You inside?” mama's voice made me get up and open the bathroom door, Mama looked worried, only Mama was with me at such a difficult time as now, when I wished someone else would do that.
Hah.
“Nak don't panic yes, Mama really don't want to say, but this is a trust from your in-laws” I stiffened hearing the word in-laws, what is this?
“Naya penengen there Ma”
“But you still lemes gini really, tomorrow aja y” I shook my head with tears flowing worried Mama will not let me go.
I want to know how things are going, I don't want to know that from anyone else.
“OK for a moment Mama called your in-laws first” after saying that Mama left me who was still staring at the bathroom door.
Why is Panji suddenly sick? The feeling of last time we met him was fine.Did anything happen between them that caused him to fatigue and fall ill?
I shook my head quickly to get that disgusting thought out of my mind, I was still sure Mas Panji would be loyal to me.
“Come get ready, fifteen minutes more your husband's family driver will pick” said Mama disperse my daydream.
***
On the way to the hospital my mind wandered back, surely my family-in-law knew my household problems with Mas Panji, what should I do?
“Non we have reached hospital” said Mr. Adi makes the heart beat faster.
“Iya thank you Pak”
You don't want me to come down, do you? Whatever's ahead there I have to face.
I didn't walk in right away, my hand outstretched rubbing the flat stomach where my future son was.
Strong Mom yes nak’
***
“She just went to sleep after taking Nay” medicine, Mama Naura said as I was in Mas Panji's hospital room, and could only look at her comfortably asleep.
“Father Ma” I chose to sit next to Mama.
Mama Naura clasped my hand with a sad look, “Mama knows your relationship and Panji is not okay”
Right, is that right?!
I can only look down, if Mama Naura blames me I will defend myself as much as possible.
“Mama will not blame you because Mama knows the cause of your relationship tenggang”
I looked at Mama in disbelief, you know where?
“Mama just ask you not to stay in Panji, he just needs to know that you and his prospective children are home to go home real”
“Naya know it's Ma” I replied a little raucous, this pregnancy hormone makes me more sensitive than before.
“Cry son, do not be held back, crying will not make us as women look weak” hear it increasingly makes my tears spill, I dare not tell anything to anyone.
And now I have a place to complain.
Mama Naura hugged me, making this haru taste even more.
“You are also Mama's children like Maura and Ajeng, so you can tell me anything if you want”
“Ma, is everything going to be okay? will Mas Panji be back with Naya and our future son?”
“Sure Nay, he just lost his way, but later he also realized on who he was going home to, and that's you, his legal wife, Mama sure it's”
Surely I also want it, but somehow there is still something stuck in my heart to make my feelings random and say..
..there will be something big going on between us.
TB
