
“When I went to college in England, separated from Alan and my other friends, I prepared everything Nay, all, scholarships, part-time work so I wouldn't bother my family here, but I did not prepare a strong mental and faith in the face of promiscuity there”
I quietly listened to the story that was getting worse, I was surprised, but did not want to interrupt the story, maybe he needed to explain everything that was weighing on him at this time.
“His name is Gisha, she is an Indonesian student just like me, her cute looks with looks make her a frequent victim of bully in our faculty, they, my friends there make us betting objects, they are, I framed Nay”
“At first I thought they were sincerely friends with me, but in fact not”
Galang again sighed heavily, I rubbed his arm, making this strong-hearted man look at me softly.
“If you are not ready for the story, do not be forced Lang” he shook his head and returned to look forward.
“I was given a stimulant, and Gisha was given a sleeping pill, we were locked up in one room overnight, I was just an ordinary human Nay, I couldn't help it and it happened”
“When I woke up, instead of crying and getting angry, Gisha just invited me to talk casually, repeatedly I apologized but she said that she knew this would happen, she said, he already knew that we were going to be framed, and he didn't hold me accountable”
“Besides my stupidity Nay, I feel I have no obligation whatsoever to Gisha because she herself does not want it”
“Until one of his best friends comes up to me and attacks me”
“I was brutally beaten, all her vows were also on me, but it was nothing much Nay, until she told me a fact that made my chest ache until now”
“Gisha was pregnant with our child because of that incident, but she chose to end her life rather than hold me accountable, my body was frozen at that time, feeling that way I was, she said, until he could not tell the whereabouts of our future son Nay”
“But again I was slapped hard again when his best friend threw Gisha's diary, and I read it”
“He didn't hate me Nay, instead he loved me in silence, that's why he was silent when he was framed with me, that's why he wasn't angry when I forcibly snatched his crown, it was also what made him want to keep our child-to-be hoping I would look for him and build our little family”
“But I didn't come, I didn't look for him, he felt their existence was worthless to me, in fact I did that because I didn't know”
“She went to bring our child-to-be who I didn't even know existed”
Galang sobbed, I could only rub his back hoping he could calm down a bit with it.
“I'm a coward Nay, I'm a jerk”
“Nggak Lang, you are just in a situation that makes you not know what to do, Gisha has gone your child is also calm there, too, all you have to do now is continue the rest of life well, constantly lamenting it all can not restore the situation, you will only worsen everything”
“Iya, I lost you also in the end because it is still stuck in the past” he said while looking at me deeply.
“Then you'll be back lamenting that?” Silent perch.
“If you will stay like this, your life will stick here Lang, no one can help you but yourself” added me, making my eyes glow a little.
“Help me Nay, Help me get away from all this”
“As a friend?” I held out my hand in front of him.
She greeted him with a warm smile, no more sad aura on her handsome face ”As friends”
I smiled to see that it had returned to being the old ship.
“But I'll take you back if your husband is wasting you Nay” the smile that just peppered on my face instantly disappears.
I woke up to an annoying phone ring, I was still at the hotel after dinner with Galang last night, he didn't ask me much when I asked him to take me to the hotel where I was staying.
I gasped when I saw the caller id on my phone.
“Ya Ma? Sorry Naya was still in the bathroom earlier” I told a lie.
“What's wrong baby, Naya can go to Mama's house now? Banner drop again, from earlier he called your name” I sighed as slow as possible, why did he mention my name when he was sick, where was the Anti-Anti?!
“Ya Ma”
“Be careful on the road dear”
Our phone was disconnected, I was now confused how to behave, I did not want to meet with him, but I also did not want our family to know that our relationship was not okay.
I lazily rushed to take a shower and checkout from this hotel, again I did this only for our two extended families.
I decided to stop by our house that had been empty for days, I did not want you to know if I left the house, as soon as the tightness haunted me, the house was getting colder.
After putting my suitcase in our room, I booked a taxi and went to my in-laws' house, on the way I was confused as to what to do with her after what happened between us, I was obviously still angry.
I don't know how long I thought, the sturdy building where Mas Panji spent his bachelor was already in front of me, after paying I didn't go straight in, preparing my mentality that would be back tested inside there.
“Assalamualaikum” heard a greeting from inside, Mama Naura hugged me and walked me in.
We talked for a while until it was time for me to go to her room.
I opened the door as slow as I could, hoping not to wake her up, but the hope was in vain, she sat leaning back on the headboard looking at me, it seemed like she was already lightening, I would again close the door.
“Wait for Nay, come in” my hand clasped tightly onto that innocent doorknob.
But I did, I went in but sat on the sofa of the room that was far away from his bed, on purpose, I still did not want to get close to him.
“Come Nay, Mas miss you” I grin and smile mock him, miss him say? Where there are people miss almost never contact or at least send a message.
This time I did not obey him, remained fixated on the same position, reluctant to look at him.
“What you have in mind is not necessarily true if you yourself do not know the true events of Naya” I look at it fiercely.
How do I know he left me? How do I know if he never explained it to me?
“Yes you are always right Mas” said as I got up and left, being here will only make my emotions overflow.
“Nay wait, you don't want us to finish this?”
I turned to face him, looking at him in disbelief, that this man I once admired was so manipulative.
“So should I start to fix all the complexity you create this Mas? Should I ask and find out everything that happened?” my boy, he's quiet.
“I'm not as frustrated as that Mas, if you want to end this relationship and go back to that woman, I'll let you, but don't tell me to beg you for an explanation that has no intention of fixing what you broke!” after saying that I came out by slamming the door, I already did not care if anyone would know, I did not care if he would do my threat.
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