
I stared at my reflection in the mirror of our hotel room after reaching the city of Jogjakarta this afternoon, a stel of clothes lacking materials commonly called lingerie was installed perfectly on my body.
‘Pake lingerie in front of your husband, it's like an open invitation for husbands without you having to do anything’
Whisper goddess at that time, I can't say it's wrong, because I'm like a bad woman now.
After our dinner, Mas Panji gave me permission to meet with his old friend, so I can experiment trying on clothes that fit me tonight.
The sound of a wall clock with the thump of my heart thinking about what will happen later, suddenly my voice shrieked, I said, I was afraid to look strange in front of him because I was wearing this shirt which the Goddess said was an open invitation for him to touch me.
“So, I can't, I want to change my monologue aja” while carelessly picking up a normal nightgown in the suitcase before Mas Panji gets home and sees my costume tonight.
Just now that I found my shirt and was about to change the door of our room open, Mas Panji was fixated on looking at me making me even more misbehavior.
I gulped roughly as he slowly walked in and locked the door, then walked towards me with a gaze that remained focused on me, was that as tempting as this shirt? I wonder it was made.
“Where are you going to take this shirt?” tanyanya took over my dress shirt and lifted it right in front of my face.
“Eh i-it, I want to change my great-granddaughter Mas”, but she threw away the shirt in any direction.
I lowered my head, and reflexively closed my eyes as she gently stroked my cheek, my hand squeezing the end of the dress tonight to ease the nervousness.
His hand moved to my chin and raised my face to look at him, “You pantes wear this shirt, hard to replace” he said.
His dark eyes locked my gaze, I do not know since when but surely the lips that I always admired secretly had taken hold of my lips.
“Nay, may I request my rights as husband tonight?” her request with a heavy voice made me realize that we were now in bed, with Mas Panji's position overriding me.
True said the Goddess of this dress is an open invitation for men, and my husband is supporting that invitation tonight.
Noiselessly I nodded, the next minutes I fulfilled my duty to fulfill his right. Tonight has been a night of love for us, enough of us who know how beautiful it is tonight.
***
My eyes opened when I felt my body being crushed by something heavy, my heart was like it was going to run from its place when I found Mas Panji sleeping holding me from behind.
A beautiful memory piece last night turned automatically on my head, I've given what I've been guarding to Mas Panji, my husband.
The cup!
I was aghast when a kiss landed on my cheek, Mas Panji was awake.
“Good Morning”
“Morning Mas” replied to me while releasing her trap to get out of bed, but Mas Panji further tightened his embrace.
“Where are you going?” ask her with a lazy tone.
“I want to take a shower Mas” he slightly stretched his arms but did not change anything, because he still hugged me
“Always can do it yourself?” I looked at him as if he was mocking me, since when have I been paralyzed?
“Can” answered me without wanting to prolong the problem, he let me go, I sat down and put on my shirt which fortunately was not far from my reach.
Nothing strange indeed, but when I stepped foot, “Akhh” cried me, when I had just stepped and felt pain in my core.
I just realized maybe this is what Mas Panji meant earlier, but I want to ask for help I'm embarrassed.
“If you can't why not ask for help sih” dumelnya who carried me towards the bathroom, Oh my God, I'm so embarrassed.
He sat me in the closet and passed me towards the bath, I guess he was preparing bath water for me.
After many times measuring the temperature of the water with his hands and adding to the composition of the water, he walked towards me and re-covered my body.
Carefully Mas Panji lowered me to a bathup filled with warm water, even his hand was outstretched undressing me, “No need Mas, I can myself” prevent me, he just looked at me, he just looked at me, without answering he left me.
I let out a sigh of relief when I was alone in the bathroom, it felt very comfortable to feel the warm water that soaked almost my entire body.
Her sweet treatment this morning brought me back to my senses, after spending the night together and getting what she wanted, she did not immediately take off her hands and still cared about me.
***
When I was done with my bathing ritual, like de javu I again saw him busy with dishes and other food utensils the same thing he did on our first night after the reception.
“Let's eat Nay” with him when I realize my presence, I walk up to him, he sits in front of me, before taking food for me, I first prepare food for him, my new habit after officially becoming his wife.
“Thank you Nay” I nodded and started taking food for me, we ate in silence, because Mas Panji seems like a person who does not like the crowded atmosphere when eating.
After I finished eating, I chose to sit idly by the balcony wet from the current rain, eager to feel the raindrops but Mas Panji must have prevented me, like father, from feeling the rain, Mas Panji doesn't like it when I play with the rain.
Ah, I became reminded of Dad, did Dad there know if I was not his little girl anymore, but had changed to take care of his woman Panji Pribadi Atmaja.
“Which is thinking about what?” I was shocked as he hugged me from behind and kissed my shoulder gently.
“I want to play rain”
“Can't” well, he definitely forbid it, I no longer answer, it's useless to argue with him.
“Hopefully he will soon be present in our midst ya” he said while stroking my flat stomach.
Child anak.
“You want to have a child with me?” my question was, she took off her embrace and turned my body to face him, locking me in her cage.
“What kind of question is Nay? You think, what we are in a relationship until you think I do not want to have children in our marriage” he said formally and firmly, it means he was angry or offended by my words.
“Yes we have not talked about this, you may not want or do not want to have offspring in this marriage right?” he nodded in disbelief.
“OK I do not want to extend this, I will be clear now, I want to have a child with you, Kanaya” he said with his gaze like hypnotizing me.
For some reason it felt like there were thousands of butterflies flying in my stomach hearing his words.
“There is no love between us Mas, I don't want if one day we part and the children will be his victims” I argue, his face stiffens instantly.
His hand framed my face, “I love you Nay” my body stiffened, my eyes were busy diving into his eyes and looking for meaning from his words.
I could feel that it was from his heart, although not the phrase love, at least this relationship already had the seeds of affection, just to make it grow into love.
One new chapter we will start together from the word love each other.
TB