Pluviophille Love Story's

Chapter 13

The waves and the wind that melted when touching the body made me feel cool, I don't know, what I feel today, the sadness that lately felt back, able to make the turmoil in this self rebel.

Indeed, it is not only I who have problems in this world, it is not only me who is in the midst of sadness in life, and it is not only I who have felt loss.

But what is it? Great expectations but in the end not achieved can always make someone fall because of disappointment right?

Maybe that's what's happening to me right now.

The hardness of the relationship with Galang, made me too introspect myself, even to the point of not being confident.

Although it can't be considered as yet aground because it disappeared without news, I need a solution, more precisely certainty.

The gap gave me uncertainty.

Counted three months since the semi-romantic incident at the airport at that time, Galang disappeared.

To this day I still hope that he just pranks me and will surprise me in the morning when I just open my eyes, saying that it's all just his vanity to see how much I love him, just like he did at the airport.

But there's none!

It's just the disappointment I get from expecting it to happen, which is why I want it all done.

I looked around again, to divert only the painful shadow that arose from my own thinking, I could actually consider it not something special, after all this was not my first heartbreak.

It's more about the personal problems that are in me.

If examined more deeply, I am not entirely hurt because I lost the person I love, but rather why the same thing always happens to me? What's wrong with me? What should be repaired? That's all!

Well, the answer I have not found, I feel that's the cause of my late ranting.

I set foot to get closer to the beach, the wind coming from the opposite direction playing my hair that felt dancing with the beach wind.

Slowly I felt my wet feet being swept away by the small waves.

It's cold!

Contrast that with my heart and mind heating up.

I shook my head slowly, trying to get rid of the bad taste in me that continued to interfere with my vacation this time.

I'm on vacation to heal from the pain.

Not bemoaning fate!

I chose to walk away from the beach, down the beach, looking for a place that was a bit quiet, I wanted to scream, let out all my grief through the screams.

The cliff is a little far there so my choice, not too high, but enough to make me able to enjoy the moment when the waves hit the rock.

Not many visitors are possible because this is weekday, making me more free to scream at will.

“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrhgggggggggggg!!!” I screamed with all my might.

I inhaled greedily after throwing it away for free while letting out my complaint in a scream.

I sat down, wanting to cry, but my tears were too expensive for such a small matter.

I've been through bigger things than this, crying is not a payoff for this meager wound.

“I am tired Oh Allah” my monologue, as if complaining to the owner of life.

This is no longer about Galang, but office problems and other problems that also aggravate the burden of my mind.

I looked down at the boulder on which I was resting at the moment, if there was any guarantee a comatose person could wake up again, I wanted to go into a coma, a long sleep I felt could make my body and mind refreshed again.

More than that, if suicide is not a sin, I've done it a long time ago, my hands squeezed tight on the breastplate, the heart that keeps me alive, even though I really want to die.

I often feel played with by fate, why do I have to meet people who will obviously leave me later. While I really need a man who can be a good support system for me to get through all the problems in my life.

Instead of being happy after meeting the figure I expected, the burden of my mind increased because of them.

I want a story that is as seamless as anyone else, meet-fit-married!

But why is it so hard, God?

“Cry if it can make you a little bit better” I was aghast and reflex turned to the source of the sound, I knew there was no one.

A man, his face is no stranger to me.

I got up from my seat, about to leave a stranger who was disrespectful to disturb my reflection.

There was nothing wrong with what he said, I also knew it, rather had heard the sentence and believed it too.

I turned to him who was staring straight ahead, staring at the waves that came and left the beach.

“Whatever your problem, rest assured, there will always be a rainbow after a rainstorm” he said again, but this time he also looked at me, I could see his sincerity when saying that.

“Thank you for the advice, I excuse” my saying, I'm not used to talking to strangers, especially now that the beach atmosphere is rare visitors make me a little wary of interacting with strangers like this man.

“You don't remember me, Kanaya?” again, the sentence made me who had walked a few steps back to a standstill, he knew my name!

I turned to face him, at a distance not so far away, I was also no stranger to that face, but who?!

“I Panji” my eyes are perfectly rounded, the day I met her mother and sister now I am back to meet her.

“Oh yes, then I first Panji” my message once again, after knowing who this man is further strengthen my intention to leave immediately.

I turned around to continue my steps that had stopped because of the Panji earlier.

“Lohh Kanaya?!” I was suddenly lethargic, when I realized the middle-aged woman standing before me at this moment with a sweet smile, Mama Naura.

“Ma” I said politely, like the response that has been, Mama Naura immediately approached and hugged me, in my heart I am sure that anyone who became Mama Naura's daughter-in-law will definitely be very lucky.

“Mama kangen very much with you, it turns out we meet again, lest you guys make a deal here huh?” accuse Mama Naura of me and of course her son, Panji.

Seeing me who was just silent and looking at each other made Mama Naura manage to hold me.

It's gonna be a long time, my mind.

“Ma, Naya want to ngedate the same Panji can not? We rarely spend time together” I said spontaneously, I want us to speak out to end this charade, and only this excuse is on my mind.

Panji frowned in wonder, in contrast to his mother who looks happy when her bachelor son wants me to kidnap for dating, dating what, we just do not know each other besides names!

“Oh you guys want to ngedate yah?” asked Mama Naura who I nod clumsy, while Panji man is currently even cool with his phone, annoying!

“Ya is no papa, if Naya can later join ya to our villa, there are brothers and papa panji there” once again I just nodded.

Before actually leaving, Mama Naura had hugged Panji and like whispering something, then blinked one eye at me.

“Mama says what is it with you?” asku to the point avenged annoying response from Panji, he just raised next to his eyebrows and then walked ahead of me.

Okay I don't care what his mother says, I want this all to end.

I walked quickly, and confronted him.

“I want this all to end Panji! You think lying to parents is not a sin?! I don't want to lie anymore” he kept walking away from me, making me even more upset, with all my might running and blocking him.

He was surprised, but I stopped his steps.

“I want all these lies to end, you hear?!” I snapped, but it was useless, not afraid Panji even crossed and looked at me flat.

“If you don't want to lie we build a real relationship, simple” answered lightly, while I have scooped up as much oxygen so as not to be floppy and pounce on the annoying human in front of me.

“You think I'm the age to date, which if not suitable can break up?! The female male relationship that is in my shadow right now is just Panji's wedding!” ketusku, while Panji? He seemed to be casually facing me who was now in flames.

“Yes already, we just married” I gawk made, again, he seemed to answer without thinking.

“The wedding is not a toy for me, I only want to get married once in a lifetime!” snapped again.

“You think I want to get married how many times? I also know that marriage is not a game, when I have said something, I have thought about it carefully, Kanaya” said flat.

“I don't want to, you're crazy!” I swear, what the hell, we just met a few times and he invited me to get married like he was playing marbles with other complex kids.

I left Panji who just kept quiet, seeing it would only make me more emotional, I would no longer care about Panji and his family, which obviously I would not lie anymore.

“Mama also wants me to apply for you immediately, that's what Mama whispered to me, if you still want to know”

I keep adding to my steps, it turns out he did this only for his mother, not wrong, but I can not marry without love, especially for reasons of parents, the foundation is not too strong for me.

I don't want to!

“If we are a match, the sentence you did not want was no meaning Nay!” his yell.

But I'm paying attention to my lung.

TB