
Now that I was in our house, she followed me with all her efforts to get back home with me, we were still silent to each other.
He fell asleep after eating and taking medicine, his body temperature gradually normalized, maybe now only a headache that he felt even though he did not seem to dare to complain to me.
I checked the phone that had been shaking since, but I let it go.
Lots of notifications lined up.
Dreary
Let's meet Nay, Baby Sean and Goddess are home
I was excited not to play reading the message, but after the confusion enveloped me, there was no way I left Mas Panji alone at home sick.
However, I am still well aware of my status which is still his wife.
I leaned back on the sofa while looking at the ceiling of this house that we had not occupied for a long time, will our household be fine after this? Suddenly I became desperate with it.
The clinking of a glass and a spoon grabbed my attention, he was awake, I went to him, maybe he would allow me to visit the Goddess and Baby Sean.
“You do what Mas, let me help”
He stopped his movement and turned to me “You make ginger wedang, can you please make it?” I nodded and mixed what he wanted.
There was no talk between us, but from the tail of my eyes, he kept looking at me and I didn't care about it.
“This Mas”
He gasped as I presented the ginger wedang before him, still watching me as it turned out.
I didn't leave right away but instead sat in front of him, I have a mission this time.
“Thanks Nay”
“Iya, Can I come out? Dewi and her baby just came home from hospital” she was surprised, although not covering the look of disappointment, no matter what.
“Mas inter”
I shook my head firmly “No, I want to go alone, if Mas does not permit me I will not go”
He sighed tiredly while pursing the base of his nose, “Why do you like to create distance when Mas was willing to solve the problem between us Nay”
I looked at him not to accept, “I? Who goes and gives no news at all? Who's Mas?! Me?! That's you!”
“Iya Mas tau Mas is wrong, Mas sorry Nay, but can't you give Mas a chance to explain this problem?”
“If you didn't go after the woman, maybe we're still like before the painful dinner that happened”.
“Iya tap..”
“Not only that, if you just go back and look for my whereabouts, I won't be as sick as this”.
“If you knew what happened to me that night, Goddess of bleeding, my best friend unconscious, she gave birth to her baby prematurely, you don't know how I've been destroyed right?! when I wish you were there to appease me, it is even the bitter reality that I accept because you prefer that woman!”
“Sorry Nay”
“Now why are you looking for me when I'm sick? Why don't you go look for Anti!”
“Mas can explain Nay, this is not what you think” is
I could see earnestness in his eyes, but to believe it felt so hard after seeing what I saw with my own eyes.
“I can't believe!”
“Means we need to talk so that this misunderstanding is soon completed, keep dodging will not solve this problem Nay”
I was silent, what he said was true, but I I I still didn't want to talk to him about it.
“I don't want this problem getting late and not finding a Nay” solution he added.
“Yes but let me visit the Goddess and the Baby, SOLITARY” I said with emphasis at the end of the sentence.
He seemed to think, but after that nodded his head resigned despite not completely agreeing with my request, “Alright, provided you promise to sit together quietly and listen to all my explanations”
“OK agreed” after saying that I crucified him and went to prepare.
He kept his promise, even when I took out my bike he didn't protest, I can go as I want now.
***
“Mas Alan! Bring your friend home, he's disturbing Sean's sleep from earlier!”
I giggled to see the Goddess who had to pull veins because of the behavior of Galang who harassed his son.
“Cuman hold doang Dew, stingy amat” he replied without feeling guilty.
“Everything has its own child there so that it can disturb 7/24” Goddess's whiskers, this time Galang did not answer, he instead looked at Sean with sadness, he said, I realized that he was going through his guilt again.
“Darling already, besides Baby is still sleeping right? Galang just want to play” Alan came as the savior of his best friend, although it does not change the gaze of the fishermen who have been imprinted on Galang's face.
“Guys, I went home first ya” my part diverted this uncomfortable topic made the three adults look at me.
“Tickly Nay” celedukan Dewi who made me look at him panted, he said, even though I have been almost three hours here.
“Yes my husband is sick” I answered looking at the three people alternately, as I looked at Galang, I know my words were getting more and more into his wound.
But I have to make her realize that we are just the past, I also have a husband that I have to keep her honor and feelings, even though she did not do the same when Anti came.
“Ooh yaudah, greetings to Mas Panji yes Nay” said Alan broke the suddenly awkward atmosphere.
I nodded in response, before leaving I peeked at Sean's puffed cheek inviting a smile from the handsome baby.
***
The dark house made me feel bad when it was getting dark, did something happen to him?
I shook my head to get rid of those bad thoughts. But it doesn't make the worry go away. I parked the bike carelessly and ran in.
Door locked.
I quickly pulled out the key that I usually carry, not being out of thought with the mind of Mas Panji who instead locked the door while being sick like this.
Silent.
That's how I felt after I got into the house.
I walked quickly to the second floor, our room.
Blank.
“Mas, where are you?!” I cried hoping he would hear and answer in one corner of the house.
But nothing, just the silence I feel, Mas Panji is gone? But where was he when he was sick like this?!
I sat on the edge of the bed with mixed feelings, netraku staring at the paper positioned standing with the words “Dear Naya” which I know it written Mas Panji.
When you read this, I'm definitely not home, I'm sorry, baby,
I have to leave because of an emergency.
It'll be right back.
With love, with,
Mas Panjimu
Of emergency? Whahuh?
Drrrtt
I opened the bag to pick up the vibrating phone, there was a message coming in! Maybe it was Panji.
But that was just my hope, a message from Galang.
Are you sure your husband Nay is sick at home?
I frowned in surprise reading Galang's message, but my phone rang again when one message came in from Galang, a photo.
I opened it curious, but after that my chest returned to the heat, a photo of Mas Panji pushing a smiling woman's wheelchair towards him.
My limp body slid to the floor, that woman Anti.
I cried in silence, this was the emergency she meant, clouding the time with her past.
TB