
I was pacing around this morning because of bad luck after last night just arrived from my vacation, wearing makeshift clothes, dressing up in lightning like me which only takes a minute because it only uses powder and lipbalm, which is only used, unlike my friends who dress up to all the pores of her skin there is nothing untouched cosmetics.
Put in the equipment that I will bring to the office carelessly, I could only pray in my heart that all of those items remained intact without the slightest scuff because I almost threw them all in my bag.
It's emergency!
Actually not too late, I just anticipate the traffic jam that will occur even though it is not necessarily the case.
I could breathe a sigh of relief when it was all over, I just left, my foot stepped towards the door, I said, but my steps stopped when I saw the Clouds who also came pacing in front of my bedroom door, he did not realize that my door was open because it was cool to daydream and walk back and forth in front of me.
“Ehem” he snorted, I did too, he was like thinking of something big, I could feel that, maybe because we had the same blood.
“Mbak” said still with a confused look, like to say something but in doubt.
“Why you? Any more problems?” ask me to the point, and my sister nodded immediately.
“You want a story now what will it be?” I bargained, while he was silent as if thinking.
“If now, Mbak has no time?” he asked doubtfully, making me more curious about the problem he was facing, must be very serious.
I lyrics my watch at a glance, there is still 15 minutes plus my estimated trip.
“There, fifteen minutes but, what's wrong?!” strictly speaking, he was just a whimper, similar to him as a child when breaking or damaging my stuff or mama's stuff, he's my cute little brother who has been transformed as a grown man now.
“Mbak, actually I need my heart pang” melos, because my savings are also drained for vacation yesterday.
“Make what?”
“Buy basic medical practice tool Mbak” like this is what dad feels like when I ask for money to buy a book but do not have enough money, my sister does have a smart brain, but I do have a smart brain, I'm not surprised he was accepted as a medical student, but he entered the scholarship path, so I didn't get too dizzy with his financial problems all along.
“Not you got a scholarship huh?” he sighed, oh god, seeing his response like that made me even more unbearable.
“Delivery pocket beasiswaku delayed Mbak, so I'm also confused now” he alone confused let alone me, in silence my minimalist brain works trying to find a way out that might exist.
Daddy's!
“Why not ask Dad? Usually you never ask anything to mbak, even mbak who initiative send you money to keep in case my” take a deep breath, mbak, neutralize the increasingly excited heartbeats to understand this situation.
Wait up! I just digested my words just now, every month I always send Awan a quarter of my salary as an emergency fund, then where is the money?! Why is he confused when the scholarship money is not liquid and he does not want to ask father.
I glared at him for a moment.
“Wait a minute mbak, do not get angry first, I have an explanation” my gaze immediately softened, I also do not want to damage my morning by fighting with the Clouds.
“Explain!” my sewot, he just nodded.
“The money I did not wear is strange, then I got a calamity”
“Laptopku fell, crumpled. I bought a new laptop with the money that Mbak sent, I think my students will be liquid on time, in fact not, because there are technical obstacles from the campus he said”
“Before I apologize Ma'am, because my carelessness laptop birthday gift from Mbak must be damaged, but it's really out of my control” he added again with a tone of regret, it's true that it was my birthday gift to Awan, coinciding with him going to medical school.
He paused for a moment, I just noticed the look of his regret, actually it's not a big problem for me, goods can be bought, money can be sought, as long as he survived it is more than enough.
“So about Dad, actually I can't talk this to mbak, but I think you don't need to know, dad got a one-sided PHK because in slander coworker” I'm really in shock, I think, I didn't expect all my family members to neatly cover this big thing from me.
“I don't know who else to talk to, but if there's no money gapapa anymore, I can ask you to please make a minjemin tools” I am still surprised to see the Clouds who also look at me with a sad face, I can at least see it like that.
I'm still wondering why Dad and the others can't involve me in this, when at least I can help, or I can cancel my vacation and use the money for my family's extra expenses.
Then where I can get money for the cost of Cloud practice tools, my savings are also thinning, I'm sure it will not be enough, not to mention for daily expenses, I have to ease Dad's burden, Dad, I don't want Dad to get sick from thinking about his problems and money for his daily needs.
“Mbak? Want fifteen minutes, Ma'am no money?” tanya Awan roused me from daydreams.
“Could be, how much do you need?”
“Lima million is enough Ma'am, the same I made to buy a supporting book gapapa right?” I just nodded, meaning I needed about ten million, to hold on and buy my family's basic necessities.
I'll take an office loan!
“Iya gapapa, later in the afternoon mbak take the money in bank” lieku, in my heart I forward the sentence to ‘bank kantor’
“Thank you Mbak” he said with a face that had started sparkling and not as stiff as before.
“Since when was Dad at PHK, why did you guys have the heart to hide this from Mbak?” the face that had once shone back dimmed.
“Just when Mbak wants a vacation, we do not want to hide, just wait for the right time, cook Mbak want a vacation even thought of home problems, even home problems, Same father Mama did not want to disturb the holiday Mbak” my heart was touched, it turns out they behave so to make me enjoy my vacation.
I suddenly understood, among my family I was the most sensitive and easily panicked, not imagined if at that time I knew, instead of vacationing or lightening my family's burden, I might even make them sad or troubled because of my response.
“Oke, Mbak left first, you can wait until later sorean to buy the tool?” my breakup later, I had to leave immediately, for the first time I was going to borrow the office funds making me have to give my best like not coming late so that my application is not complicated.
“Gapapa Mbak, once again thank you, may the work of Mbak today smoothly” I nodded and walked out of the house leaving Clouds who turned to his room.
This is what I love about my parents' teachings, praying for and supporting each other, even though I and Awan often quarrel, we will soon make up, whether I or the Cloud will first succumb, he said, but most often it was the Clouds who relented and apologized to me.
I was determined to help the family economy while I was at work, maybe this was the path God provided to realize my intentions.
I was never afraid of not having money, because my family was already more than an innocuous chunk of gold, they were special to me.
Whatever I do for their happiness.
TB