My name is Maira

- The way out -

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The figure that almost three months disappeared, now again filled my phone screen with his name.

Dimas came and called me without pause.

For three whole days, he kept calling me and left me messages.

I was reluctant to take a call from him, the message was only read without me retaliating.

He came at a very inopportune time, he came when I wanted to get away from the world and its contents.

I don't want to drag anyone into the trouble I have.

I'm also ashamed to see dimas, I don't want dimas to see me slumped like this.

The decision that I took first by moving away from his side, now ended in a disaster.

I don't expect to hear laughter or ridicule from anyone right now.

Dozens of messages filled with apologies and asking for my news, I completely ignored.

Just one message I finally answered, a message when he said he was going to Jakarta and asked me to meet him.

I just replied to the origin and said that I was out of town because there was a seminar.

When dimas said in which city, I lied and answered the city of Surabaya.

The next day when she tried to call me and leave me a message, she said that she was already in Surabaya, she asked me to meet her, and she would wait for me.

I didn't respond, I went to work and left my phone at the boarding house, because dimas kept calling me.

After that day, all telvons and messages from dimas stopped.

I didn't care much, and chose to focus on living my life.

*

I spent three months living the day at a cost of fifty percent of my salary, and ended up eroding my savings.

I started to feel like I couldn't live it anymore.

I also don't want to share this burden with anyone, but I need a backrest to at least make my mind a little lighter.

Been cleared to contact dimas, but I broke off.

I'm not sure dimas will understand my story.

There's also a chance that he might end up not wanting to come into contact with me anymore.

I finally chose to go to nia's house after coming home from work this Friday.

I just need to wait a day and tomorrow I will go straight to nia and tell her about my condition.

Friday at six in the afternoon I was out of the office, and waiting for public transport to take me to nia's house.

To get to the house, I had to change public transportation twice, then just walked about five hundred meters from the highway to the inner tebet road.

Not far from where I got off the public transport, I could already see nia's house.

As soon as I got to nia's house, aunty rosa immediately hugged me, she asked me from anywhere until she never came home.

I then cried on aunt rosa's shoulder.

Aunt Rosa repeatedly asked me why, but I kept crying.

Nia who had just come home from work, immediately looked confused and just stroked my back, she let me cry on her mother's shoulder.

After I stopped crying, aunt Rosa asked nia to take me upstairs to calm down.

Two hours later, aunt rosa and om rusman came to nia's room to see me.

"What's the matter, what's the matter" asked aunt rosa in a very soothing tone.

I then told everything that happened to me, to nia and her family.

I said that I was very depressed with my condition, and firmly, I said that if I didn't want to ask for help, or burden them, I just needed a place to lean.

Nia immediately hugged me and cried, nia's embrace brought back my tears.

Rusman said he could help me pay half of it.

"No need to om, I will find a way to pay for everything", I replied firmly to om rusman.

Who would have thought that there would be a bad person who installed malware on my work computer without being detected.

"The process from the police has reached where ra" asked om rusman to me.

I explained that according to the police, after repeatedly checking the cctv, there was indeed one of the new employees on the dito team, and he looked quite suspicious.

He always comes home last and leaves early.

He was also seen several times entering every room that was not his office.

Unfortunately, in the workspace is not installed cctv, so no one knows what he is doing in the room.

He also resigned three days before the incident.

It's just that, until now the police still have not found the person, because he applied to work in an office with a fake identity.

"Mother already knows", asked aunt rosa to me after I explained om rusman's question.

I only answered that nia and her family were the first time I told her, because I already felt unable to anymore.

"Keep your plan how ra" asked om rusman to me.

I replied, the first one I would move to, and resign, then look for a job with low risk but have a decent bonus.

"Go to the house, don't spend it anymore", ask me aunty Rosa.

"If you want to resign, later om titipin you to work in the office of a friend om, he is in the field of construction, you can be the admin while being a marketing project, the bonus is quite ra", said om rusman.

The offer om rusman and aunt rosa I can not refuse, because I do not have another way, I then ask them time, to take care of everything.

Nia told me, if later when all has passed, I must have turned into a tough figure, not a whiny maira anymore.

I then hugged nia, as did aunt rosa, she hugged me.

*

On Monday, as soon as I returned to the office, I immediately submitted a letter of resignation.

Miss Alice who received it looked shocked, abi too, while lexi, she was no longer in the room, having already resigned from last month.

"You're sure ra" Abi asked me at lunch.

"I have to move on bi, I can't continue to expect the money to suddenly come back" I replied to abi.

"Yaudah, I support you, but do not break the communication yes", pinta abi to me.

I smiled as I looked at Abi, then told abi, that without abi I might have killed myself.

I also assured abi, if at any time, I will never forget abi, and will not change my telvon number so that abi can still contact me.

Abi then hugged me and asked me to often take her to eat or watch.

"Bi surely, we will meet every holiday yes", I replied to abi.

"Promise ya ra" abi told me.

I smiled and nodded to agree to the promise with abi.

The company management received my resignation letter, then I signed my debt transfer agreement to the bank.

After I saw the nominal that I had to pay every month, I was relieved that it was not big, only the time period that made me very surprised, because there was a possibility that I still had to repay it until I was almost retired.

I signed the statement, then shook the hand of Mr. Siregar.

Mr. Siregar then gave me his business card, and asked me to contact him if I needed legal help.

After that, I went to my room, and tidied up all my belongings.

Then I thanked miss alice and hugged miss alice.

Abi immediately stretched out his arms to embrace me, and asked me to accompany him to watch on Sunday.

After confirming abi, I walked out of the room and walked out of the office.

Karin just smiled at me as I passed the reception desk.

Once inside the elevator, there was a slight feeling of relief, as I did not have to come to this office again, with breath tightening every morning.

As soon as I got below, I looked once again at the eighteenth floor from outside the building, then I took my breath and walked away from the building.

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