My name is Maira

- Zahra

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The first week I went as you wish dimas, for I was in solo at his house, and a week I have been training to work at the mami shop.

My mom's store employees were very nice to me, they were friendly and willing to help me to adapt.

It's just that they were slightly keeping their distance from me, they didn't look relaxed when I was around them.

I felt awkward about the situation, so I decided to always have lunch with them.

Of course I asked my mother's permission first, because I didn't want her to worry.

Ma'am dina objected to having lunch with mom without me, but mami admonished mbak dina, if it would help me more easily to get to know other employees.

The employees who worked for the mami in the store, there were ten people in total.

With the division of two shifts, eight in the morning, work until six in the afternoon, and one in the afternoon work until the closing of the store.

There were seven female employees, and three male employees, but only diamonds and susi often invited me to chat, the rest of them kept their distance from me, even though I had tried to blend in.

Zahra herself was assigned mommy to help me get to know the store, she always helped me with less intention, but I didn't want to report it to mommy.

I accepted it, and asked the others if there was anything I did not understand.

Sometimes I want to protest and ask me what zahra problem, but I always undo my intentions.

Starting the second week of zahra often reprimand trivial mistakes that I do, starting from me who is not deft, not tidying things up, and wrongly record the stock of existing goods.

I told Zahra that if she taught me correctly, of course I could avoid my mistakes, but zahra only taught me how to be, and not be specific about the things I should do.

My resistance made the zahra start to blatantly show that she did not like my presence in the store.

When the mistake was absolute because of me, I let his attitude, but when the mistake was there contributed to him, of course I fought back.

I asked zahra's attitude towards me to Susi, as we had lunch at the soto stall behind the mami shop.

Susi only replied that zahra is like that, like to look for faults of other employees.

"Emang on not reporting to mbak dina about zahra attitude", I asked susi.

"No one is brave, zahra is the belief of mami, he is also close to mas dimas, so in sungkan, because mas dimas must always bear zahra, if zahra is reprimanded mbak dina", susi replied innocently.

"Stretch can not arbitrarily like other employees" I said to susi, protesting about zahra's attitude.

"Lagian zahra pinter really look for face ra, if mbak in again ngawasin, he must immediately look good to us" said susi.

Hearing that, I myself became angry with the attitude of zahra, and the injustice that occurred in the mami shop.

The third week of zahra's behavior the harder I tolerate, the more he starts yelling at me for trivial mistakes.

It feels very anxious to complain to mami, but I do not want to be considered as a complainant by other employees, because after all zahra attitude, they all respect zahra, because the results of his work are always praised by mami.

I finally told dimas about the zahra that was power abuse to other employees including me, when dimas picked me up from the store.

Dimas did sometimes pick me up at seven in the evening, sometimes at six in the afternoon has also come, also sometimes I go home with mami and mbak dina, because dimas had to overtime in his office.

"Darling zahra why ya like hate it's the same me", I asked dimas, when we had dinner at home.

"Hate how", asked dimas.

"Yes, like everything I did was wrong, right now if my country is snapping again" I told dimas.

"That's just your feeling baby, zahra is that, the person is hard, you can learn a lot from zahra" replied dimas casually.

"Partially the best employee mami, it's natural that he scolds you if you're wrong" said dimas again.

"So if the negurnya while snapping in your opinion is natural", I ask to be dimas with emotional tone.

"Maybe you are a sensitive darling, so it feels snapped, even though the zahra is a soft person", dimas replied in the same tone.

"Oh so true that you always bear zahra" I said showing that I don't like dimas' answers.

"Design how the hell" asked dimas.

"I'm your boyfriend, I tell you again, I'm complaining to you, but instead of you belain me, instead belain zahra" I began to get upset.

Dimas then stopped eating and looked at me.

"I don't think of anyone, I'm just telling you that zahra is like that", dimas replied beginning to raise his voice.

"You should have taken me" I said angrily.

I then left dimas in the dining room, because it was so incredibly upset, and went up to the dimas room, then locked the dimas room door.

"Ra open the dong", pinta dimas when she wants to open the door of her locked room.

"I don't mean belain zahra, I'm sorry if you think so" said dimas again.

Since I could not bear her sad voice, I opened the door to be dimas.

Dimas immediately pulled me and hugged me, then he led me to sit on the sofa.

"I'm here because I obey your will, I'm also happy to see you every day, but I'm not happy if you take other women" I told dimas.

"Yes yes, dong dong nambeknya" said soft dimas.

Dimas took me back to the kitchen to finish our dinner.

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The following week I was quite disappointed with dimas, as regret was only momentary.

Whenever I come back complaining about zahra, dimas always asks me to understand zahra, asking me to be patient.

When I protested, dimas always said that I was childish and usually complained mulu.

Finally I chose to give up, because I could not bear to see dimas who always looked tired after work.

I just hold my grievances for myself.

Until the peak, on Thursday the fourth week, when I accidentally dropped one of the bottles containing massage oil from the closet shelf, Zahra yelled at me for it.

"Princess spoiled like you if not becus work it at home, your work here is not bothering others", shouted zahra, in front of all employees and buyers.

I who was very surprised just kept quiet and looked around in a daze.

"Zahra you are nothing at all, snapping maira in front of guests, making you ashamed" said mbak dina who just came out of the warehouse when she saw zahra yelling at me.

"Amir please clean up, have the others back to work" said mbak dina firmly.

Mbak dina then apologized to the buyer for the new commotion.

Ma'am dina then pulled my hand, and took me to my mother's office.

"You are not papa", asked mbak dina when we were in the office mom, mbak dina then hugged me.

I could not let out my tears, and cried on my shoulders.

"Why dina" asked Mami, when she saw me start crying.

"So maira in snapped zahra very fast below, even though there are many more guests" replied mbak dina on mami.

"Why can you be yelled at" asked Mami.

"Just falling down the massage oil" replied dina who still hugged me and stroked my hair.

"Yaudah maira wait at my mom's office aja yes, this will be five o'clock, then mami telvon dimas to come straight here to pick up maira, okay", said mami asked me to calm down.

Mbak dina then let go of his embrace, and led me to sit on the sofa.

"Mi, dina down first yes, because there are still many guests below" said mbak dina on mami.

"Udah maira calm yes", said mbak dina again while wiping my tears, before he came out of the office mami.

Mami then took a bottle of mineral water and opened it, then handed it to me.

My mother hugged me and calmed me down.

In addition to being surprised I also felt very hurt, because this was the first time in my life, I was snapped violently in public.

This was also the first time I was snapped so hard by someone else, that even my family had never done that.

Thirty minutes later dimas came, and as soon as I saw him he immediately hugged me.

"Later mami scolded zahra for making maira cry" said mami to me in front of dimas.

"Udahlah mi, do not need to be exaggerated, most misunderstood, anyway only until next week here" said dimas on mami.

I immediately released a hug dimas the moment I heard his words.

"Misunderstand how, you do not see maira's eyes until it is swollen" said mami.

Dimas just shut up, dimas then took me home.

When I opened the car door for me, Zahra called dimas from the end of the parking lot.

"You wait in the car for a minute, yeah", ask to be on me.

After dimas made sure I sat down, dimas then closed the car door, and walked towards the zahra.

I don't know what they're talking about, because it's a long way away for me to hear, but I can see the zahra arguing with dimas, and dimas also seem to calm the zahra

I then pressed the car horn dimas, dimas immediately saw me and left the zahra that looked upset.

"Chat what", I asked when dimas was already beside me.

"Zahra was just clear about that" dimas said.

I could feel that dimas was lying, but I chose to shut my eyes, tired after crying.

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